When I read Xu Zhimo's poems, I read the most famous line in "Sayang Nala": "The most gentle thing is the gentleness of lowering the head, like the shyness of a water lotus that cannot bear the cool breeze."
p>Seeing the photo of Lu Xiaoman reading a book at his desk, I was immediately amazed.
Xu Zhimo had countless confidantes in his life. Among the women related to him, the three most talked about ones are Zhang Youyi, dignified, kind, gentle and persevering; Lin Huiyin is beautiful, intelligent and talented; and Lu Xiaoman, I just think She is the most eye-catching.
To say that she is an enchanting flower blooming among the heroes of the Republic of China does not mean that she is beautiful and coquettish. On the contrary, her appearance is not gorgeous, and is even like the blooming lotus in the morning. The corners of her eyes and eyebrows are With a bit of lazy beauty.
She is said to be a monster just because of her willful and free-spirited character and her rebelliousness, which is unfettered by the world. She is very much like A Yao in "The Legend of Wukong" - she is a fairy in the sky but she doesn't want to be like that. The obsession and love in my heart have broken my head and blood, but I still want to be a female demon in the world of mortals.
She married Wang Geng when she was young, without thinking about what kind of man she wanted. Her mother carefully selected Chenglong Kuai as her son-in-law, and she really couldn't fault him, so she walked in confusedly. marriage.
One is a beautiful lady who is famous in the capital, and the other is a young general who has risen to prominence. They tell a story about a talented man and a beautiful woman. If she can stay at home peacefully, her future life will be predictably rich and glorious, with a smooth journey.
But this is not what she asked for. She said, "Actually, I don't envy wealth or glory. I just want a happy family and a loving partner. Who knows that even this requirement is not enough?" If you can’t get it, you will end up alone all day long, with no one to talk to, and just forcing yourself to laugh in the crowd every day.”
As for the most charming thing about Lu Xiaoman, Xu Zhimo said, “She. Her eyes are also talking, and the secret of Xinquan is shining in her eyes. "
But her husband has no way to appreciate her beauty.
Although Wang Geng returned from studying abroad, he was a very traditional man at heart. He has a bright future and is down-to-earth and taciturn, but he cannot understand that his beloved wife at home needs gentle care and companionship.
As a result, the lonely Xiao Man returned to the feasting and feasting scene. After marriage, her self-examination made her more beautiful and wanton, and she became a legend when she was sent to the world. Even Mr. Hu Shi fell in love with her and said she was "a must-see scenery in Beijing."
Then, as everyone knows, she fell in love with Xu Zhimo vigorously, divorced Wang Geng, and became Mrs. Xu.
Their actions are still considered unacceptable by secular morality today. For the time, they were too outrageous, and they were almost determined to be enemies of the whole world. Everyone scolded them from the standpoint of defenders. Even the two elders of the Xu family did not attend the wedding, and Liang Qichao, who was invited to be a witness, gave them a round of accusations.
The romantic poet and the willful artist fell in love with each other, like moths to a flame.
However, their growing environments and lifestyles are different, and the pressure from family and society makes their love difficult to move after entering the siege of marriage.
Yi Bei wrote in "Half Life in Plain Clothes": "Zhimo is a Western-style gentleman, while Xiaoman is a Chinese-style socialite."
Xu Zhimo pursues love, freedom and beauty. He admired Lu Xiaoman's talent and hoped that she would focus on creation and become a goddess of literature and art. Xiaoman, on the other hand, is spendthrift and playful. She doesn't understand why Zhimo always interferes in her life after getting married, preventing her from playing cards, smoking opium, and being in charge of everything.
The poet's romantic ideal is somewhat illusory, and Lin Huiyin sees it too clearly - he loves a phantom in his heart.
In order to support Xiaoman's extravagant life, Xu Zhimo teaches in three schools and travels between Beijing and Shanghai, leaving less and less time to spend with her. And what he knew was that Xiaoman never lacked suitors.
"There must be a limit to receiving pity and care from friends, otherwise there is a danger that the boundaries will not be clear." He warned him so many times, but Lu Xiaoman didn't take it seriously.
Mr. Zhang Xinhai, Youyi’s brother, once fell in love with Xiaoman. From her divorce with Wang Geng to her remarriage with Zhimo, he never gave up his pursuit. After arriving in Shanghai, Weng Ruiwu, who is much talked about, was added to the list.
As the second son of the painter Weng Shouqi, Weng Ruiwu was trained in court at a young age and was proficient in Chinese painting. Later he studied poetry and prose, and was also good at Peking Opera and Kunqu Opera. He and Xiaoman had the same interests. Of course, they became acquainted because he learned the unique skill of one-handed massage from Ding Fengshan.
Because Lu Xiaoman suffered from asthma and stomachache, and she cried out in pain when she was in pain, Xu Zhimo visited famous doctors for her but failed to cure her. Finally, he asked Jiang Xiaoyu to invite Mr. Weng.
Many people think that this man completely ruined Xiaoman because he led her to start smoking. After Xu Zhimo passed away, Hu Shi once again expressed his goodwill to her and said that as long as she broke off diplomatic relations with Weng Ruiwu, he would take care of everything in the future.
Xiaoman declined politely. She said: "Ruiwu is extremely poor, but he has always taken good care of me. It has been more than 20 years, how can I drive him away?"
In fact, in the eyes of doctors at that time, opium was just an analgesic drug. Weng Ruiwu suggested that Xiaoman should use it appropriately based on her condition. Unexpectedly, she eventually became addicted.
He never thought of harming her, otherwise he would not have stayed with Zhimo for more than forty years after his death, doting on her and taking care of her, and would never leave her even when she was old and beautiful.
Taiwanese painter Chen Dingshan wrote in his "Continuation of Chun Shen Old News": "Modern young people think that Xu Zhimo is a love saint. In fact, I think it is easy to be Xu Zhimo, but difficult to be Weng Ruiwu."
Among the beauties during the Republic of China, there were few who were like Lu Xiaoman, who had always been surrounded by the atmosphere of feasting, feasting and drinking, but they were not tacky at all.
Known as the "Campus Queen", she has never taken off her student style in dressing up. Simple cheongsam, knitted sweater, flat shoes, and perm have not caught up with this fashion in the era when it was popular on the streets.
Because she is beautiful and has confidence in her beauty. She doesn’t need to pose or dress up deliberately. As long as she leans there quietly, she is a sight to behold. With her head lowered, her forehead raised, and her brows furrowed, a lot of men will grab her. Heartbroken.
She was born with an exquisite heart and was good at calligraphy, painting, singing and dancing. However, she was frail and sickly but also a very sweet-tempered person, quite a bit like Sister Lin. Her articles are profound and her poems are fresh and beautiful, but she rarely writes for herself. Even after Xu Zhimo died in an air crash and was reviled by thousands of people, she remained silent.
She once served as Gu Weijun's translator and assistant, and was a bright red light in the history of Beiyang's diplomacy; she was once a socialite who was able to move around freely in the Forty-Nine City. For the rest of his life, he spent the rest of his life in plain clothes, concentrating on sorting out Xu Zhimo's posthumous works, visiting his grave in Xia Shi, and always offering flowers, trying to make up for the irreparable regrets and losses.
Remarks Li Bihua once wrote about a woman's dream: to be collected by others throughout her life, placed properly, and carefully preserved to prevent me from suffering, from being surprised, from wandering around, and from having no branches to rely on. In this way, although Lu Xiaoman had ups and downs in his life, he was always loved by others, and the rest of his life was not lonely and desolate.
I like her image, maybe partly because I envy this girl who was born to be a princess. But she was really unmotivated. God gave her a perfect set of cards, but in the end she only had to do this for the rest of her life.
It is said that Bing Xin once said: Lin Huiyin is pretty, but Lu Xiaoman is not.
In fact, compared to the overly perfect image of Lin Huiyin, I think Lu Xiaoman is more suitable for this cute character - she is a beautiful little girl with a little talent, a small temper, and she is not ordinary but charming. , some people like it and some people hate it.
She was divorced and remarried, and she enjoyed playing to the fullest. She doesn't seem to care much about appearance, which is most important to a woman. After middle age, she loses her teeth and hair, so she takes it calmly and doesn't force herself to be a beauty all her life.
"It's good to be a goddess, why not age?" Maybe Lu Xiaoman understood it a hundred years ago. It's enough to be happy, so there's no need to be perfect.