"Looking back on the road I have traveled, the twists and turns are unpredictable. I used to be ambitious and not afraid of difficulties, thinking that my hands could control the future. " With the beautiful melody, I reviewed my childish course of thinking about faith. My mother believed in the Lord when I was young, so I followed my mother to church meetings when I was young. Naturally, I felt that I believed in the Lord when I was young. In primary school, the school teacher told me that there is no God in the world, and there is nothing after death. On TV, Journey to the West told me that there was a Buddha. After death, people enter a cycle of continuous good deeds, and they can enjoy happiness and do evil in the next life, and eventually there will be retribution. The collision of the three concepts is indistinguishable for a pupil. Finally, through continuous analysis, I found that if there is Jesus, I believe that Jesus will follow me to heaven. If I don't believe it, I will stay in hell forever. Without Jesus, as atheists say, I have nothing to lose when I die, or as Buddhists say, it doesn't matter. So it is more cost-effective to believe in Jesus. This cost-effective idea of taking advantage of me kept me believing in Jesus.
"But the journey of life is bumpy, and the direction of tomorrow can't be measured, so we know that people plan their own way, and only the Lord will guide them." I was a resident student in junior high school and went home once on weekends. Once I went home, my aunt told me that my father was ill in hospital, and it was very serious, and his life was in danger at any time. Only my younger brother is young and ignorant, still joking. I think the sky is falling. What will happen to our family if the only source of income and the only pillar are gone? Thinking of this, I immediately went back to the house, knelt down and prayed for God to heal my father. God is so amazing. My father was driven out of the best hospital in the city and finally sent to the hospital in Zhengzhou. Many brothers and sisters are praying for him. Later, I lost fluid for a week in Zhengzhou Hospital without surgery. There was nothing on my head (I can't remember exactly what it was). After this incident, this god has something to do with himself. I know he listens to prayers, he loves me very much, listens to my prayers, and I know he cured my father.
"There is no desert, how can you see running water? Only when the shadow of death covers the valley can we know that the Lord has abundant grace. Your thoughts are different from mine, and your road is higher than mine. " In the summer of 20 14, when I graduated from high school as a volunteer, I prayed to God and said, "Lord, please show my father where you are going to lead me." "My father helped me read the application book and helped me choose the colleges and majors I want to apply for. I submitted my volunteer obediently. Two days after I prayed, my father, who didn't often go to church, overheard that there was a C education school in the church. He enthusiastically hoped that I could go to this school. Although his belief status is not so good and his confidence is not so great, I think C education school will be safer and will not hurt me for fear that I will be adversely affected in other schools. My mother is also very supportive, and I am willing to go myself. I know this is God's guidance, so although there are some entanglements, waiting and many challenges, God has brought me to this school safely. He also led me safely through all the courses, which gave me a clearer and more real understanding of him.
"There is no desert, how can you see running water? Only when the shadow of death covers the valley can we know that the Lord has abundant grace. With you leading my heart step by step, the Lord is my only admiration. " After graduation, you led me back to my hometown, led me to work, and realized your grace at work. You entrusted your lamb to me, and from them, I saw my former self, inferiority, pride, challenging authority, going to extremes, and so on, all of which made people very helpless. Seeing the problems of these lambs' lives and their own living conditions, I am more grateful than now. There are many places where I don't accept myself. You helped me understand your love in various ways, cured my inner problems and made my life grow and change.
Looking back, with gratitude, I will continue to follow in your footsteps and make you the only love in my life.
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