I remember once seeing someone describing Xu Wei and Pu Shu as the two most distressed singers in the pop music world.
The reason for saying this is because both of them are musically talented, exciting and exciting. However, at the same time, they are sensitive, fragile and helpless in the face of the pressure of life. Measures often make people worry about them - they have all suffered from depression. Xu Wei's life is just like what he sang in his blockbuster "Two Days": "I only have two days and I am never sure. One day is used for hope and one day is used for despair." ?
Xu Wei is in The ups and downs on the road of music are quite embarrassing. At the end of 1994, when this musical talent from Xi'an came to Beijing with his works to seek opportunities, his musical talent attracted the attention of people in the circle. His work "Two" The lyrics of "Heaven" were also selected by literary experts into the "Selected Chinese Contemporary Poetry". In the eyes of outsiders, Xu Wei has embarked on a road to rapid success, but no one knows what kind of confusion, despair, poverty and hardship Xu Wei has experienced along the way. At one time, he was overwhelmed by the pressure and fell into a deep depression. In pain. With the care and encouragement of friends and relatives, Xu Wei finally successfully returned to the music scene.
His music has become more and more warm, comfortable and clear with the changes in his life and worldview. However, there are some who were die-hard fans of his early music that was full of despair and restlessness. Music fans complained that Xu Wei stopped rocking music.
Xu Wei said that they don’t know that kind of suffering. I can no longer give them that kind of misdirection.
Many years later, Xu Wei talked about that experience. He said that the process of human growth is slowly searching, and one has to understand life. Many things that were originally thought to be right have become Only later did I realize something was wrong. He once liked the music of the famous American rock band "Nirvana" very much, and the decadence fascinated him. Later he learned that the reason why Kurt Cobain, the soul of the band, wrote such decadent music was related to his own living conditions. Cobain was extremely depressed and eventually committed suicide. "This thing has misled many people. They think that rock music should be like this, that it should be decadent." Xu Wei said. ?
He said that he had been living a turbulent life since he was 17 years old, and he did not start to feel at ease until he was 34 years old. This kind of life is very precious to him. He begins to find caring in the people around him, and he begins to love others. Luan Shu once said to him: "So many people around you, including your parents, family, and friends, are caring about you, but you can't feel it. You are too confused!" So he learned to be grateful. ?
He said that because he suffered from depression, he went online to check and found that so many people in China are suffering from depression! He stepped out of himself and saw the society around him, and saw that some people were laid off and their lives were so miserable. He began to feel that his life was not that bad. He reflected a lot on himself and his views on life changed a lot. In the process, he gradually and completely got rid of the intrusion of depression.
He arranged a healthy life schedule for himself. He no longer alternated between morning and evening. Instead, he got up at 8 o'clock every day, exercised, read Buddhist scriptures, then practiced piano and wrote music. He said: "Most people who listen to music live a normal life. I have to live the same life as most people." ?
In 2002, Xu Wei's third album "Time Walking" 》 came out. The music of this album is very different from the desperate, angry, and noisy style of the first two albums. It is warm, comfortable, and beautiful. It immediately impressed a large number of listeners. It is said that it has become the favorite of white-collar workers and college students. Xu Wei's music has finally come closer. Unlike when his first two albums were released, his friends in Xi'an told him: "That's too far away from us." The huge victory at the 3rd Music Chart Awards Ceremony in 2003 finally brought Xu Wei Confidence that is affirmed. That day, Xu Wei stood on the stage, and the audience applauded him warmly. He exuded unprecedented brilliance. His friends in the audience were as excited and happy as he was on the stage. ?
"The transformation of all this
is so simple
The transformation of this moment
happens in an inadvertent moment"
———Xu Wei's "Every Moment is New"
Xu Wei relied on Buddhism to cure depression and gained a new life
The hardships of life have made Xu Wei believe that music Not just for personal expression, not just to vent emotions, but to bring happiness to others. After suffering all the hardships, he made a wish, hoping that he would be happy and make others happy.
He once saw an article that mentioned that music has an effect in treating Parkinson's disease that drugs cannot. This news inspired him: Music still has such a great function! Therefore, he hopes that his music can bring people happiness: "If it can make depressed people happy after listening to it, how great!" He hopes that after people listen to "Time Walking", the splendid state of life can be opened up, making people feel happy. Think that there is good in life, not just suffering. His friend Luan Shu also encouraged him: "People who truly love you will be happy for you. Who wants their life to be miserable and painful all the time?" ?
What makes Xu Wei even more happy is that when he was doing business in Shenzhen During the promotion, a female fan specially thanked him in person, because after she suffered from depression, the doctor asked her to listen to good music, and she could only listen to one piece of music, which was "Time Walking". As a result, she really changed from depression. Got out of the disease.
This obviously gave Xu Wei great encouragement. ?
He also learned not to care if others said he was a rocker or not. He said, "This can't restrain me anymore. Making good music is the real thing." But, let me stop misleading others, thinking that life is so painful, and that rock and roll is so decadent.
A few years ago, Xu Wei saw this statement in the Buddhist scriptures: Everyone's life is bright. He said that this breaks away from many philosophical fatalistic views. Every moment is brand new, and every moment can start your life again. Life is really too small, but there is still hope and light.