1942 65438+1On October 22nd, a 3 1 year-old woman passed away alone. A few days before leaving, she left her last words, "I will always be with the blue sky and clear water, and leave the half of The Red Chamber to others to write." "I watched it coldly for half my life, ... I died first, unwilling, unwilling."
This woman's name is Xiaohong. At the age of 3/kloc-0, she escaped the enemy's blade, but failed to escape the call of death.
In Xiao Hong's short life, there are two key words: literature and love.
As one of the four talented women in the Republic of China and a legendary writer in the history of modern literature, she left Life and Death Field and Hulan River Biography. Mr. Lu Xun once wrote a preface to "The Field of Life and Death": "The people in the north are born strong, but they often fight when they die; The meticulous observation and deviant writing of the female author add a lot of brightness and freshness. " Mao Dun called Hulan River Biography "a narrative poem, a colorful landscape painting and a string of sad ballads".
When it comes to Xiao Hong's love, she longs for love and pursues it all her life, but she has been wandering in love. Lu Zheshun, Wang Enjia, Xiao Jun and Duanmu Hongliang didn't bring Xiao Hong the love she wanted. There are many men in her life, but not many people really love her.
Xiao Hong's life is unfortunate. She said, "All my misfortunes are because I am a woman."
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Xiao Hong lost her mother when she was young, and her father was indifferent to her. The only warmth in her childhood came from her grandfather who often took her to play in the back garden.
Such a living environment makes Xiao Hong's self-awareness germinate earlier. She won herself a chance to go to middle school. In order to oppose arranged marriage, she eloped to Beijing with her cousin Lv Zheshun. Later, due to the lack of family support, life quickly fell into poverty and had to return to my hometown from Beiping.
In February of the same year, Xiao Hong cheated her marriage dowry and came to Peiping again. Later, because of poverty, he defected to his fiance Wang Enjia. They lived in the hotel together, lived in the open space, and owed the hotel a lot of accommodation. Wang Enjia borrowed money from home, got Xiaohong pregnant and drifted away.
Xiao Hong wrote to the newspaper, claiming that she was an exiled student and that the innkeeper wanted to sell herself to a brothel. Xiao Jun came to visit, and the two chatted very speculatively and soon fell in love. Finally, in a big water, Jun Xiao rescued Xiaohong. In the days of living together, they realized the sweetness of love. Little Red Army and Little Jun Xiaohong, however, embarked on the road of loving each other and killing each other, and gradually drifted away.
After breaking up with Xiao Jun, Xiao Hong and Duanmu had a flash marriage in Wuhan. However, the days after marriage are not as calm as the years, and the world is stable. After the fall of Wuhan, Duanmu Hongliang left Xiaohong and went to Chongqing himself.
1942, 3 1 year-old Xiao Hong passed away with endless disappointment.
She has always longed for warmth. When she was young, there was no love at home. When she grows up, she longs to be loved. She is devoted to every relationship, but she has no perseverance. During the war, she got nothing.
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There are many images in Xiao Hong's works, and the overall image of her life is escape.
She escaped from war, hunger and love ... her life is an escape life.
First of all, she is poor and has been displaced by hunger. She said, "Only hunger, no youth".
Secondly, she is a woman, freedom and love are what she pursues, but in the end, she dies in the pursuit. "All my misfortunes are because I am a woman."
She never got true love, so she never knew how to love.
In her short life, she took love as her whole. Love is so anxious every time, but it hurts so much every time.
She longs for family and love; She is naive, enthusiastic and willful; She pinned all her hopes for freedom and love on men, but none of the men she entrusted was her warm harbor.
The so-called "heart is higher than the sky, life is thinner than paper", which is roughly the case.
Die first, unwilling, unwilling.
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Today, Xiao Hong's name seems to have overshadowed her works, and the society generally likes to consume her love, but selectively ignores her works.
As far as literary achievements are concerned, I think Xiao Hong is underestimated. Her writing transcends age and times and directly questions human nature. She is sincere, brave, loyal to her heart, sensitive and persistent. For everything in life, she wrote down her life intuition with a pen.
Xiao Hong is self-centered. In the field of life and death, all life and death are from her unique female perspective. What she cares about is not the war itself, but the humanity in the war. Her brushwork transcends the nation and country, depicts life and death, writes the tragedy of women, and depicts the human tragedy of "being born strong and struggling with death".
Maybe Xiao Hong doesn't really understand life and death, but both life and death in her works come from her life intuition, which is her most real and unforgettable feeling.
"In the countryside, people and animals are busy living and dying together."
Xiao Hong has integrated herself into the characters in her works, and her writing style is warm. In Biography of Hulan River, she looks back at the back garden, childhood and family with the purest eyes, because those are exactly what she is attached to in her life. At the same time, she wrote about poverty, ignorance and numbness. She is straightforward, but not worldly and does not make moral judgments. We can feel the faint sadness in joy and the dawn of hope hidden under sadness.
From her works, I see her innocence and nature, warmth and hope. She is calm and enthusiastic, sober and confused.
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Today, the debate about Xiao Hong is still endless. Among them are appreciation of works and moral judgment.
History is complicated, and so is human nature.
I am not qualified to make a moral judgment on Xiao Hong. I just like her work. I just saw a woman who longed for love, wandering all her life in an era of war.
I just saw a female writer, who was hungry all the year round, couldn't sleep well and was afraid, but insisted on writing and described human nature from the perspective of women's life.
I just saw a woman, a woman who originally wanted to have family and love, but lingered in the real life and love world. She has children, but she can't afford them; A woman who had lofty aspirations but failed to realize them left this world with endless regrets at the age of 3 1.
For Xiao Hong,
I only have a sigh.