Speaking of peasant women, the image in the world is that they work day and night, their palms are rough, they take care of each other and educate their children;
When they are together, they become different in the eyes of the cultivators. If their fame gradually rises, they will be called "peasant poets" by the city people. Such an identity, Yu Xiuhua has both.
He once became famous by writing Sleeping with You Across Half China. In just two years, he published a book, appeared on a program, became an official and made a documentary, and became a hot figure in the field of poetry. She doesn't like being asked: What has changed in your life since you became famous? She has answered this question many times: nothing has changed!
In the eyes of Sister Pink, Yu Xiuhua is not only a poet, but also a woman. She is naive and eager for love. These qualities are so strong that the aftermath will continue after she becomes a word.
Most regret: getting married
Hypoxia at birth leads to cerebral palsy. The disabled poet is another identity of Yu Xiuhua, because the congenital marriage defect caused by "disability" has planted the seeds of regret in women's hearts.
This marriage was arranged by parents. Yin Shiping was from Sichuan and was adopted by her husband. The man is older than her 13 years old. That year, Yu Xiuhua was only 19 years old. In Yu Xiuhua's view, marriage is a stranger to her, and she may have an extra playmate after marriage. She did not refuse.
However, there is always a big gap between reality and imagination. Yin Shiping is a heavy drinker, so let her make tea and wash her feet. They are often inured to trifles. He thinks that he is a healthy man ten thousand times nobler than Yu, and Yu Xiuhua should serve him well.
Yin Shiping's thought of rural villagers and small farmers is clear, but unfortunately he married a woman with strong self-awareness. Women want to break the cage of marriage. In the second year of marriage, Yu Xiuhua wanted a divorce, but the family didn't want to. After all, she gave birth to a child, more afraid of Yu Xiuhua old no one to rely on.
I have a great pain in my heart, and no one has talked about it. She wrote poems about her feelings to calm her complaints, indignation and anxiety. 1998, she wrote her first poem "Impression". "The poem is about me crawling in the mud. Now that I think about it, I almost predicted my life."
Time goes by, the years change, the children grow up slowly, my husband works outside all the year round, I write poems to feed rabbits, and sit in my yard waiting for the years to slip away quietly. Liu Nian, editor of Poetry Magazine, is a Bole in Yu Xiuhua. September 20 14, she recommended eight poems by Yu Xiuhua to be published in Poetry magazine, which also opened a new door for her.
After becoming famous, Yu Xiuhua is still thinking about divorce. She doesn't miss Yin Shiping, and even if she yearns for love, she doesn't expect to get emotional comfort from this man.
After waiting for 20 years, many days and nights, Yu Xiuhua was thinking about divorce. Fan Jian, the director who filmed her documentary, once said, "I couldn't get a divorce for a while. She cried badly. Complex family reasons and certain social reasons made her afraid to divorce. "
Yu Xiuhua was unlucky all her life. She was luckier than others. Her persistence in writing poems made her famous. Now, she has the ability to resist external obstacles and interference, and she did not hesitate to end this marriage that tortured her for 20 years.
She made a joke when she went to get the divorce certificate. The staff asked her, "Are you crazy?" Her sensitive self-esteem was stimulated and she slapped her hand on the table and said, "I'm crazy." In fact, this is just a routine question for the staff.
Marriage is a contractual relationship that makes women happy, and the only and legitimate reason for marrying each other is love. Unfortunately, not everyone has a fair choice. Some people passively accept it, others actively change it, but it is time that pushes everyone forward.
What I want most is love.
Looking through Yu Xiuhua's recent blog, I found an article "I love you with one twentieth of my life", which was written for a man named "Hu Tao". In the article, she confessed that I miss you now, my way, and I hate myself. I think reading is much better than missing someone. I think it's a sin to miss you.
Passionate about love seems a little crazy. She once worshipped a local host, often participated in his programs, confessed after being drunk, and even called the police110; During the filming of the documentary, she also fell in love with a scholar much older than her, but was rejected after her confession.
Yu Xiuhua has never been stingy to express his love. He is not even afraid of other people's eyes. In an interview with Lu Yu, Lu Yu asked her if she was still afraid of being so explicit. She replied: no, I'm not in the mood to do it … what will you get if you really do it? What will you get?
Love may become the poet's lifelong pursuit. Yu Xiuhua said that she saw life too clearly, so there was no hope. The terrible thing is that there will be another tomorrow, but unfortunately there will be another tomorrow! Since there is still tomorrow, flirting with people you don't hate and joking about' love' are also words that have nothing to do with' love' and' expectation'. Maybe you can understand her a little more.
No expectation doesn't mean you don't want to be loved. Between the lines, brow, lips and teeth, there is full of love, you don't have to get love, just live with expectation. Poets can still write poems, children will leave when they grow up, parents will die when they are old, and the days will still pass. Get rid of unpleasant ingredients and you can live for yourself.
A healthy woman and an unhealthy woman may be "loveless" people; Successful life and unsuccessful life are unique lives. Mushrooms, go ahead boldly ~
Selected Poems and Songs of Yu Xiuhua
In fact, it is similar to sleeping with you and being slept by you, but it is
The force of collision between two objects is nothing more than the flower driven by this force.
It is nothing more than the imaginary spring of this flower, which makes us mistakenly think that life has been reopened.
In most parts of China, everything is happening: volcanoes erupt and rivers dry up.
Some neglected political prisoners and refugees
Elk and red-crowned crane at gunpoint all the way.
I slept with you through bullets.
I pushed countless nights to sleep with you at dawn.
Excerpts from sleeping with you halfway across China.
If I send you a book, I won't send you poetry.
I will give you a book about plants and crops.
Tell you the difference between rice and barnyard grass
I tell you, barnyard grass is terrible.
spring
Excerpt from self-love you
At that time, they walked through the pond and their reflections were dancing.
At that time, the clouds were so white that I ignored such a dance.
I saw many things in the breeze: luxury and decadence living on a branch.
In their whispers, they abandoned the human disability.
The light surrounded them tightly.
Excerpt from "What I love is not mine"