?We often complain that God is unfair and our wishes have not come true, but think about it, have they really not come true? Or have we forgotten the wishes we made by the time they come true?
When I was in high school, I was under a lot of academic pressure every day. There were many novels and extracurricular books I wanted to read, I wanted to draw, I wanted to run, I wanted to write novels. I thought about many things but had no time to do them. I just thought about In the future, when you go to college, you can go to the library more often, read quietly, read all the books that you didn't have time to read in the three years of high school, and keep running every day. At that time, I often listened to the radio at night and wrote my homework, just hoping to get to college as soon as possible.
?When they go to college, there are too many young people. Many people want to change their appearance in college and do things they did not dare to do before. For example, I was very shy in high school and did not dare to stand in front of the stage. But before I went to college, I told myself that I must be brave and have the courage to stand in front of the stage and speak. So I actively joined the school club, actively competed for class cadres, and accidentally fell in love. In the first two years of college, I often went to KTV to sing all night with my classmates, often went to eat barbecue and drink beer. In the morning, I went to the library to occupy a seat with books, and then took it back in the evening in despair. At that time, I felt that the days were still very long, and I had inadvertently wasted them. Many times, although I was lucky enough to get a scholarship in the first two years, I really didn't study hard. When the third year of school started, I suddenly remembered my dream in high school. I gradually became alienated from the friends I used to play with, and started to get closer to my classmates who loved studying. I get up at six o'clock in the morning and go to the driving school opposite the school to learn driving. I go to class when it starts at almost eight o'clock. After lunch, I sleep for ten minutes and then continue to learn to drive. I wait until almost two o'clock in the afternoon to go to class. After class, I go directly to the library. I would do my homework in the library, wait until the library is about to close, and then go back to the dormitory to change into running shoes and run laps on the playground, and then go back to the dormitory to wash up and rest. That year was very fulfilling. I got my driver's license, received a first-class scholarship, passed CET-4, and lost ten pounds. It was that year that I discovered that I could accomplish a lot of things by myself, whereas I had always been too lazy to rely on others. I have not given up my habit of writing since I was a child. When I was in college, it was like working in the future. I must insist on collaboration and never give up my hobby. I want to write simple and charming poems like Chen Murong, I want to learn photography, I want to have a little money to travel, I want to I am afraid that I have visited the five mountains and seen the four seas. When I was in college, I really wanted to work quickly, become financially independent, and achieve things within my capabilities.
?Starting from my internship in my senior year, I gradually got a little money. The first thing I did was to go shopping like crazy. I bought all the small things I saw that I had no money to buy before. I received them by express delivery. I was really happy at the time, but those gadgets lost their freshness after a few days and lost my interest. I once wondered if I really had the problem of liking the new and hating the old. But the facts prove that it is not the case. Those things really have no long-term value and significance. I earned money at that time and bought a mobile phone for my mother. Of course, my father did not want me to spend money. At his insistence, each of us bought half of the mobile phone for my mother. When I was cleaning the cabinet at home last weekend, I saw it lying there quietly on the upper shelf of the cabinet. When I was working in Shanghai at that time, one of the happiest things happened was that during the National Day, my family went to Shanghai, Suzhou, Hangzhou and other places to play. Although there were huge crowds of people, the family was really happy together. When I was working, I discovered that I really knew and knew too little. Although I made progress every day, the progress was too slow, which made me doubt myself a little. My parents were both in Taiyuan, and my boyfriend at the time went there. I went to work in Hunan, and I was alone in the field. I was a little depressed. I bought professional books that I needed to study and just lay them quietly on the table. And I finished watching "Desperate Housewives" (season 10) and "Gossip Girl" (season 6). Seasons), "Grey's Anatomy" (10 seasons), "Prison Break" (4 seasons), "Pretty Little Liars" (4 seasons), "The Vampire Diaries" (4 seasons), etc. At that time, the only benefit of watching American TV series It’s just that English has not fallen behind. Maybe I am naturally fond of language, so I often make excerpts, using the power of words to heal my previous loss and loneliness. At that time, I thought it would be great if I could work in the same place as my boyfriend (ex), where I could see each other every day and look forward to living a better life.
?Later I did go to Zhuzhou to work, but everything was far from what I imagined. First of all, the difference in city, salary difference, loneliness without friends, and the most terrifying thing was that I had no words with my ex. It can be said that he is too lazy to do it when I like it. When I was in college, it was probably the summer vacation of my freshman year. I worked in a hotel for 800 yuan and got a scholarship of 500 yuan. My father sponsored 1,500 yuan, and my ex also asked for about 2,000 yuan from my family. I made an appointment with six classmates to go to Huashan Mountain in Xiyue and Hengshan Mountain in Beiyue. play. I only remember that I started climbing Huashan Mountain at 9:30 in the evening. Before climbing the mountain, I called my parents to report that I was safe. I have completely forgotten everything about the journey. I only remember that I was so sleepy that I fell asleep sitting on a stone. The only two trips we took together after working together were probably the first time we took me to Hengshan Mountain and to Zhuzhou Baiguan to see flowers. After that, we never went out alone again. Until they break up.
?When I was in high school, I also clearly realized that I spent three days fishing and two days drying nets, so I always made a wish in my heart and asked God to send me a person with positive energy and positivity. People stayed by my side, always encouraging me and leading me to work hard together. Later, I discovered such a person in our senior year class, and it turned into a secret crush. In fact, it is normal for someone to fall in love for the first time, but instead of treating them rationally, their parents scolded and insulted them. The one I remember most clearly is: "Look at you, you have the nerve to fall in love early, how shameless!" But then! At that time, I just had a secret crush and didn't tell anyone. It was my mother who read my diary. So from that time on, I didn’t dare to fight for anyone to like me, and no one of the opposite sex seemed to like me. I also watched helplessly as the person I had a crush on at that time (of course he was a top student, a handsome top student), and another narrow-minded person. The squinting girls are together. At that time, I decided that falling in love was something that could not be done openly and was a shameful thing. So when I met my ex in college and said he liked me, I was flattered because he was considered handsome in the eyes of girls at that time, so I told myself to treat him well. I didn't tell my parents right away, but only told them in my sophomore year. At that time, my mother often said: "It's OK to fall in love, but not to get married." This sentence still stimulated me to a great extent. I didn't think about getting married at that time, but my mother's response made me feel certain. To be together well is to get married. Indeed, during the seven years they were together, on the basis of not violating my own inner principles, I treated him wholeheartedly and thought about getting married with him. However, the ending was not satisfactory. Although thinking about it now, he was not the type of person I liked in high school, but he was the first stranger to say he liked me and was nice to me, so he forgot his own standards during the relationship.
?Now I sincerely envy those people who have met their sweethearts from the beginning, have never been hurt in their relationship, and are pampered like little princesses. Emotional setbacks can sometimes be really frustrating. . Later, when I met the kind of person I had been longing for for a long time, I didn’t know that he was the person I had always wanted. When he appeared, it was at the lowest point in my life. Especially emotional people would doubt themselves to the point of being worthless when their relationships are frustrated. At that time, I became a hedgehog, sarcastic and willful, but this person endured all these and helped me through that trough. When many people objected to me being with him because of my material conditions, I clearly knew that this was the person God gave me who brought me positive energy and sunshine. This wish of mine has also come true. It took me so many years to realize it. How could I give up?
Regarding my desire to write poems and novels, just a month ago, I read out the poems I wrote ten years ago. Some of the artistic conceptions are really good. I cannot write like that at my current level. A concise and refreshing poem. I tried to write a few songs, but the level I write now is more like a narrative than a poem. I have read a lot of online novels, including fantasy, romance, costumes, etc., and I do feel that some of them are poorly written. I also feel that my own writing will definitely be better than theirs. I also have a lot of material to write about. But I have been hesitant to start writing because I feel that I am not good enough to write a novel at this stage. So whether you open a public account or register, first write about your daily feelings and thoughts, and it’s not too late to accumulate some before writing. First complete a small goal: write 100,000 words of short stories. Then I’ll conceive the novel in my mind. This can also be regarded as a curve to save the country, and step by step to realize the desire to write a novel.
Looking back, honestly. The wishes I made in high school were barely fulfilled in college. The dream I had when I was in college was barely fulfilled when I was working. But when I realized these wishes, I felt vaguely familiar, but I didn't know why. Only now, I understand why. Because we always easily forget the wishes we have made. We all worked hard for that wish in the beginning but did not try our best. Therefore, the realization of the wish took a lot of time, so that by the time the wish is realized, Our sense of accomplishment and joy seem to have been diminished. But the most important thing is that our wishes actually come true, but the degree of effort really affects the speed of its realization.
Later I thought about it, why do we forget the wishes we once made? It's because when we make a wish, we hope that the wish will come true immediately. If not, we can wait for two days to come true. But they forget that realizing wishes also requires time and effort. Saying something and doing something are two completely different things. We cannot always feel that once we say something, it will be realized immediately. No, we need to do what we need to do immediately to see the possibility of realization. Everyone is always saying that when I have money, time, and whatever, that will be all. But many things cannot afford to wait, but need to be done immediately. This is how I am now, I don’t need to wait to do things, I just do it immediately when I think of it. I want to realize all the wishes I have made. I like photography, so I use my spare time to learn photography techniques and composition, which also trains my color matching and sensitivity.
I like to draw, even though I am a novice, but I should start free online learning and buy the necessary tools; I like running, then I will run a marathon, run ten kilometers, and use the power of running to give My own sense of accomplishment; I like flowers and plants, so I will look up how to grow them, and either buy or make beautiful vases to decorate my home; I like the outdoors, so I will go out and cycle 20 kilometers on weekends Go around to look at the scenery and bask in the sun; I like writing, so I will record what I see, hear, feel and think in life, and live up to every word and my own heart. All I want to say is: do whatever you want, and create conditions if there are no conditions. Always making excuses will never get anything done.
I write this article to remind myself: Time waits for no one. Do what you want to do immediately and put in 100% enthusiasm and effort.
What I want to do next:
1. I am learning the ocarina recently, and I must ensure one hour of practice time a day;
2. Go to bed early and get up early and keep running in the morning;
3. Organize the bookshelf and tidy up your room neatly and orderly;
4. Don’t fall behind in reading and practicing calligraphy;
5. German language learning and professional courses must continue.
?For your dreams, you must seize the time, be full of enthusiasm, and work hard and work hard! come on!