After several years of mistakes, the cold window sells thin. Looking back at Longmen now, I am no longer that ignorant boy. After the college entrance examination, whether to jump into the sea or not is our later choice.
Yesterday, I happened to pass by the gate of a high school. My short stay actually touched me for many years. Three years ago, my family was among the people waiting outside the examination room, and I was quietly answering questions in the examination room. Three years of cold window, three years of shadow. I still remember the girl named He. The article "Why do you want to go to Peking University" inspired me to move forward silently for a long time. In the last year of senior three, everyone was on that string, and no one dared to relax easily.
After all classes are finished in the night with few stars, I often lie quietly on the balcony alone. Think about Li Bai's poem: "Being single is like a flower, with the cloud as the center. There is a high sky in the world. Below, I see the green and the agitation of water." All persistence, all waiting, just to squeeze through the narrow wooden bridge of the college entrance examination.
I stopped for a short time in front of Si Qi Building, looking up at the stars. It turns out that I am not alone, and there are so many shining stars. Once I walked past Huixian Building with an umbrella, holding fallen flowers in my hand. What I didn't take away in time was the floral fragrance in my memory. Once I stared at the window of the hospital, listening to a cold rain that came late. It turns out that the changes in the four major movements have gradually made us go further and further in our youth.
On the day when the college entrance examination ended, my heart was never calm. Holding a book, I walked quietly along binjiang road from Dongcheng Station, a small town, to the port pier. Then I suddenly turned around, as if all the lights were on just for me. This spring blossoms, only that night, only belongs to me.
I learned to live a good life alone in the later days. As Bi Shumin said, "Love yourself and learn to be strong." People have to walk some unknown roads, meet some people by chance, and then see several unforgettable scenes. The experience of that life slowly tempered you, and you experienced the sudden collapse of the earth. It won't matter to you if you meet again in the future.
A person's world of mortals flows, and the road is boundless. This is the practice in the foreseeable future. Since I have chosen to go on, I will go on until the lights are shining. If you are a ferryman on a boat by the river, then you can cross the floating life with bright paddles, and it is common to watch misty rain; If you are a player who walks with Lantai, you will have all kinds of feelings in a drama, and you will live in the drama and live outside the drama; If you are a passer-by who travels all over the world and draws a thousand books with an inch of pole, you will never stop thinking.
I remember that Da Bing once wrote in the book: "All people in the world are vulgar, but there are always some people who are vulgar." I am also an ordinary person in the crowd. I once flew to announce that I had written one or two small words in red, had a cup of tea, smoked a cigarette and listened to a piece of my favorite music. My heart is quiet and clear, and I want nothing more.
I only hope that you who are reading this article can also do what you want, the person you love, and see what you want in the world of mortals. Live a wonderful life in an ordinary life, wait until the scene of spring blossoms and walk on the brightly lit road.