After three years of waiting, at the age of 28, she became the joke of Fangshan Middle School. She no longer pays attention to her appearance or trivial matters in life.
In the eyes of others, she has become an old girl who smokes and lives by Shaanxi opera, which makes people curious and scared.
Waiting all the year round made her realize that she needed to put down her "high opinion" of men and learn charm.
This made her understand that if she had understood the ordinary and ordinary life early in the morning, she would not have wasted ten years. Yu Yousheng, a young scholar, also wrote poems. He had a relationship with Li Linyan because of talking about poems, but he never really wanted to get married. But Li Linyan doesn't love him very much. At the age of 30, all she wanted was a plain life.
However, when he was transferred to the provincial capital, he ended his relationship with peace of mind by "drifting away".
What he left to Li Linyan was the ironic title of "Cradle of Writers". No matter how ironic and humiliating the title is, as a 32-year-old woman, she didn't have the courage to leave again, so she chose to be stupid, cheeky and harmless. And cigarettes are just a prop that she pretends to be strong, supporting her to survive in this small ravine.
On New Year's Eve, out of kindness, she left her student Cai for the New Year. Perhaps because the atmosphere of the New Year is so good, Li Linyan began to let go of himself and tell his story willfully. Cai shouted with her. From American writers to Yu Yousheng and Cai, Li Linyan has seen three men cry in front of her. Every time they cry, it is a bad feeling.
Cai proposed to him on New Year's Eve. Young seeds of love can't tell love at all. This wishful proposal is just a disguised reward for Li Linyan, a reward for her being his relative, a reward for her willingness to help him go to college, and a reward for her willingness to cry in front of him as a "man". Becoming Cai's wife is to compensate herself and get back at the American writer and her fate.
Four years later, Cai He came back to get the certificate together, but due to their own concerns, they temporarily chose to separate.
Separated, the age gap and Li Linyan's experience over the years, she has been living in fear, and the fear of the future makes her live very tired.
With the decrease of Cai, it's time to go home.
The girl came to her, forced her to divorce, and told her that Cai had told herself her love history and the humiliating nickname "the cradle of writers".
On the other hand, Cai explained to her that the girl seduced him first, and now she is threatening him to find a job.
Facing Cai, I believe this student, husband and relatives are relatives after all.
Desperate for life, she hacked the little girl to death with an axe in order to help Cai for the last time.
Although the ending of the novel is unexpected, what I see in this story is-
For many people, whether men or women, the illusory reverie about love and objects is the most time-consuming and emotional. No one is perfect, and everyone has different demands and needs in their feelings. We can't always expect the real object to be the love we expect.
Maybe life is plain, maybe the person who is destined to be is not a hero driving colorful clouds, or maybe the person who is accompanying the old is neither gentle nor amazing. Sometimes there are not so many expected encounters, and you can gradually create surprises in the future. If you make an amazing opening early, you will sigh for life. There is not much expectation, and there will not be too much disappointment and waiting.