From what the man said, I guess the woman in the poem must have fucked him quickly and decisively under some circumstances. He probably just got along on the spur of the moment, and the two sides didn't last long, but he lost the courage to continue to associate, and even had some dissatisfaction and even resentment against her.
I admire this woman's provocative question, which is really hitting the floor. Although the other party's accusation against her is probably true, she must be in an extremely active position in this entanglement of love, but she is still very confident: "You said: I am the female bandit? You said I kidnapped you? When you are thirsty, I don't want to give you my blood? "
Anyway, love is not a crime. More importantly, under the circumstances at that time, the other party must like and love her, and maybe she made some wishes. She feels that she is so sincere and generous to each other, and the other party should never back down when she still loves him.
"Do you think my poor youth has paid off?" The woman who asks this sentence is not only provocative, but also desperate. From this point of view, it seems that the time of communication between them is not short. She may have a lifelong commitment to him, otherwise it is impossible to ask such a painful and resentful question.
Creative features:
There are many love poems in Yu Xiuhua's poems. As a woman who has lived at the bottom of society for a long time and is physically disabled, she has a deep understanding of the lack of love. Her love poems are not satisfied with the poetic presentation of love desire, but try to show the rich, complex and distinctive female subject image.
The female lyricist in her poems is a "fool" and a "sick man" wandering in the mirror with a deep sense of inferiority (meeting a mirror), and also a narcissist who is extremely lofty and proud and loves her rust spots more than "you" (love me). Is a devotee, when "you" are thirsty (face to face), willing to sacrifice "you" with the blood of his youth.
Another decided to "throw things away" and pick up "bone clearing" (firewood in the field); It is lonely people who let the cold flame of love light up the deep scars and then put them out ("trembling"), and it is spoony people who will "love their loved ones again and hurt them again" if they go back to the past ("people reach middle age").
Her poems are full of complex meanings, such as the agitation and call of love, the disillusionment and realization of love, etc. Love is not so much the theme of her poems as the core proposition that causes the poet to ask metaphysical questions such as existence, truth and death.
But even in the face of such a provocative and loving woman, such a sharp and sharp question, what I see is the last thing I want to see and the most likely ending. "He didn't speak. He turned around and said nothing." This man seems to understand the truth that silence is golden. He "doesn't talk" probably because he thinks he has nothing to say to her; He turned away, but maybe he felt embarrassed to face each other's efforts; And "not saying a word" may be that he does have some ulterior secret.
"Face-to-face" is just "face-to-face", and an opportunity finally arrived, which ended in one party's chatter and the other party's silence; Since the man doesn't even have the sincerity and action to explain, the so-called love between them has already turned into a zombie, or there may be no reciprocal love between them from the beginning, and the man is probably just curious and joking with her.