I was seventeen years old that year, and I was a sophomore at Taigu Normal School. A day in a year is a day in a month. I am already very vague, but what happened that day is very clearly left in my memory.
It was cleaning day, and all the students in our class went to the meeting room to clean the glass. The window is so high that I have to stand on the arm of the sofa to reach it. The sofa happens to be so soft that you can't keep your balance standing on it. Soon after I started working, I felt myself shaking, and I had an ominous premonition that I was afraid I would fall. However, seeing that all the students around me are doing this, I reluctantly continued because of weakness and instability until I fell down. I collapsed on the edge of the tea table, and the glass on the tea table broke immediately due to the vibration, but I still felt lucky in my panic, because it was only the glass that broke, not me. I fell from a height and didn't get hurt at all, but I have been blessed by God. A little muscle pain is nothing.
After what happened, I knocked on the door of the principal's office. I don't know why I didn't go to the class teacher, so I went to petition. Maybe it's because I have a natural distrust of the head teacher! Our headmaster and I come from the same town. He is the famous iron fist-Lei Xiutang. The unanimous evaluation of the outside world is: unique ideas, brilliant talents, and resolute style, and he is a big shot in the industry that cannot be ignored. But I hardly have a chance to appreciate his style, and the distance between a school leader and a student is still far away. However, we also had an intersection. When I was in the first grade, I met the unified examination of normal schools. The last paragraph of the headmaster's mobilization speech came from a manuscript I handed in. At that moment, when I heard the familiar local accent and words, a warm current surged from my chest, and the feeling of being appreciated made me happy all the time at the age of sixteen.
Now I stand in front of him. He knows me. I had a classmate friendship with his little daughter in junior high school. Maybe this is one of the reasons why I trust him! When I stammered out the whole story, I only saw his smiling face. He immediately asked me, "Are you hurt?" I shook my head and asked, "Do you want me to pay?" The smile on his face deepened and he replied kindly, "I hope you are not hurt." You don't have to pay, not to mention that you didn't mean it. " His words immediately brought tears to my eyes because of his understanding and consideration. This is really an unusual moment. In my eyes, he is no longer a high-ranking principal, but a considerate, wise and open-minded kind old man. He eliminated all my sadness and unhappiness in one sentence, and my sky was full of sunshine again. I walked out of the office with great relief. This is a very unfortunate day for me, but on the other hand, how lucky I am!
On the second day of the incident, the class teacher found me and filed a claim on behalf of the school as soon as we met. Inside and out, he stood on my opposite side and judged my motivation for performing free fall yesterday. From beginning to end, he only cared about the loss of the school and didn't care about my safety. Maybe in his opinion, the weight of that glass far exceeds my safety. Under his indifferent questioning, I told him calmly: "I have already reflected this matter to the principal, and he said that I don't need to pay." If you don't believe me, you can ask the headmaster. " For an instant, I saw the panic and consternation in his eyes behind his glasses. I suddenly got tired of this face, said, "If there is nothing else, I will go back to the classroom" and turned away. However, his meanness still hurt me deeply, and I couldn't untie my heart until graduation. He became a person I wanted to stay away from.
It's been a long time, and today is really a trivial matter. But at the age of seventeen, he is young and ignorant, immature and naive, and can't bear too much pain. Therefore, I am even more grateful to President Lei, because of the kindness of an old man, because as a teacher, he and my class teacher have completely different positions! Now that President Lei has retired at home, he heard from his father that he is still exerting his residual heat, engaged in theoretical research and training party member to join the Party. He may have forgotten the story I told, but I will always remember that moment. In the washing of years of sandstorm, it is never power and terrible violence, but the brilliance of human nature that goes straight to the depths of people's hearts! At this moment today, please let me express my heartfelt thanks to you in words!
2. I remember you
I often wish that time could go back and let me choose those choices again. But time flies, fleeting, suddenly looking back, only to find that youth is just a blink of an eye!
It's a pity that I have little contact with my young partners, and we have all forgotten each other in the ruthlessness of the years. Occasionally open the guest book and old photos, in which a face and a name inadvertently came into my field of vision, involving a memory I thought I had forgotten!
The person in the photo is Gui 'e, my normal classmate. I spent the youth of fifteen to eighteen with her. But I have common sense with her and have never been good friends and confidants. Now I feel sorry for it!
Gui E is from Lingshi County. She is delicate and shy. When talking to people, I often hang my eyelids and look very stiff. On weekdays, she doesn't talk much At such an age that she is unwilling to keep her position, she seems to keep a low profile to the extreme. Because she and I are not in the same dormitory, and the seats in class are far apart, we just passed each other in meetings again and again. She seems to be a born loner, withdrawn and unreasonable, and her life can be said to be calm and deserted!
I thought her days would slip away from the calendar, but in the second grade, she became a news figure. The reason is that someone saw her take out the steamed bread thrown into the toilet slop bucket, rinse it on the tap, then put it in her mouth and swallow it in a hurry. When she found someone, they looked at each other and exchanged thousands of surprises. Guie ran away in despair. But the fact that she is too poor to eat can no longer be concealed. It turned out that she had been struggling with hunger.
After learning about this, the class teacher made a mobilization speech in a evening self-study. He described Gui 'e's miserable experience emotionally, hoping that his classmates would lend a helping hand. There was no electricity that day, and the classroom was lit by candlelight. The atmosphere was very heavy. I didn't get a chance to see Guie's face. But now that I think about it, how lonely, helpless and hesitant her heart should be when her hidden pain is exposed to the public! Since then, no one can make eye contact with her. Even if she did, she would panic and get out of the way in a second. She seems to have lost the courage to look directly at human beings!
Everyone expressed their wishes that day, and then this matter was reported to the school, and the student union organized donations from the whole school. Since then, the school has given her free meal tickets every month, and her hunger problem has been effectively solved. But she never showed happiness, even less talked and hurried. After the incident, the class teacher asked a good student in the class to write her a thank-you letter. A week later, Zhang greatly's red paper hung outside the hall of the library, with a thank-you note written by her. Many students stopped to watch, and after seeing her, they couldn't help pointing and talking.
Strangely, her roommates had discovered her life predicament before, but no one spoke. I have no way to know how Guie's roommate felt after learning about it for the first time, and of course I have no right to stand in the moral court and condemn anything. There is no denying that at that time, everyone felt that it was natural and beyond reproach to help others generously. I don't think so when I think about it today, because we can find a better way than this, can't we? People's goodwill should be unconditional and unrequited. Moreover, well-meaning help should give the recipient respect and courage! If the helper can imagine this: if it is not Gui E who is in trouble, but ourselves, what kind of help do we hope to get? Then the result may be closer to human nature! Some good intentions put on the mask of love, which hurts their dignity and makes the recipients unable to live with peace of mind and swagger! No wonder Hong Zhanhui, who moved China, refused any charity, because he thought that dignity was more priceless than the material temptation he got!
In the year of graduation, Gui E took part in cross-country running and got a good ranking. She seems to be in love with running. Her graduation message to me is: running more will make you healthier! After many years, I can't help but speculate that maybe Guie can only release himself when he is running too fast! Compared with her peers, her youth suffered more loneliness and cruelty! Friend, I regret that I just stared at you silently, but I didn't get close to you and warm you!
Things have changed, we have been apart for ten years, and you and I will always be frozen in a strange time and space, but I really remember you. I ask you on this piece of paper: How have you been these years?