The first chapter is the online reading of Zhang Ailing's poems.

It was in this year that we really understood. ...

It's "this year". We really get it.

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This year, we have passed puberty.

There is a gradual pursuit of social material.

For the future life, I have a yearning and longing that I have never had before.

This year, we have passed puberty.

Gradually, I got tired of those gorgeous clothes.

Like, ordinary, like, mature.

This year, we have a lot of living expenses.

Gradually, I learned to earn money and be self-reliant.

Just to make life better, just to make the family less burdened.

I had to grow up this year.

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Still this year, I have a yearning for my career.

However, no matter how hard we try, our dreams are always so far away.

This year, we have a heart of struggle.

But when I was young, I lost the best learning opportunity.

You can only make more efforts than others to make up for your mistakes.

This year, we have an eternal heart.

But lost in happiness, once the most beautiful love.

Only one person can wait silently, and the TA in life appears in our field of vision.

This is a year in which we must learn to economize.

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This year, we lost the topic of the past.

Once the topic becomes, who found a job, who bought a house, who bought a car … who got married.

Without those carefree conversations,

This year, we have lost our old feelings.

Once promised, I don't know when, it became worthless and vanished.

Once friendship, I don't know when, became silent and strange.

This year, we lost the happiness of the past.

Nobody, just kidding us.

Nobody cares about us anymore.

It was such a year,

Let me have the courage to face everything.

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This year, we have integrated into a new life.

In this way, I changed the people I know.

Keep dating people you don't know,

Neither pessimistic nor optimistic,

Open your eyes every morning to welcome a new day.

Try to live alone.

This year, we tried to make ourselves mature.

In this way, we gradually integrated into society,

I also constantly let myself learn the truth of doing things in society.

Go bad, not go bad,

Just smile at everyone around you every day.

A person tries to integrate into society.

This is a year that we must integrate into life.

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This year, we learned to adjust our psychology.

Because we know that when we are sad, only we can find happiness.

Because we know that when we are lost, only we can find the exit.

Because we know that mentality can decide everything.

This year, we learned to be grateful to ourselves.

Because we know that if we don't work hard now, there will be no chance in the future.

Because we know that if people don't push themselves, they will never understand that they are capable.

Because we know that hard work will win.

It is such a year, and we are going to pursue our dreams.

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It is this year, and we don't know how many years are left in our lives.

We know that life is limited, so we try to change ourselves and make life happier.

We know that dreams are far away, so we try to get closer to them.

This year is the biggest change for us.

We have grown up and learned that it is time to work hard.

We have changed and realized that we were wrong.

It was this year that brought us closer to our dreams.

It was this year that kept us away from our parents.

It was this year that allowed us to enter our own future.

This is this year. ...

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This year, we really understood.

Life always plays hide-and-seek with us, but when we pursue it tirelessly, we get nothing.

Don't lose heart, remember, work hard and stick to it.

Perhaps it is on such a sunny morning or afternoon that the whole world will begin to smile at us.

This year, we really understood.

Happiness can be met but not sought, just like love.

But happiness is as simple as that, as if we can embrace it with open hands.

Everything comes from magical and incredible opportunities and stays in our hearts for a long time.

So, remember, happiness is a kind of mood, dull, inclusive, warm and lovely.

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The author fell ill when he caught a cold. Collections

The moon at that time

She should have liked him first. She thinks, at least, she likes it a little more than he does.

They are old classmates. They haven't contacted each other for several years, and then they contacted each other at a party.

She likes writing, and she likes to write some inexplicable words. But he took it very seriously. Although he seldom commented, she was very happy. If someone is willing to read what he has written carefully, there is no reason to be unhappy.

Chat occasionally-online-in words. This is her favorite way to chat. She is all thumbs and can't express herself in long words. And the written words can be scrutinized repeatedly. She is very confident. It should be clear to express her thoughts in such thoughtful words, and it is easy to make language mistakes and embarrass her friends.

I remember someone told her before that it was a sense of loss to see her Q head light up in a few days. At that time, she was puzzled, but she just felt that the man was too melodramatic. Now, sometimes they don't chat, but when she saw his Q head shining there, she actually felt a sense of peace of mind. At this time, I discovered that everyone has a melodramatic side, but no one makes you melodramatic.

That night, he probably drank a lot and suddenly became very talkative. He told her that her hobbies were smoking and drinking. She never likes men drinking and smoking. However, perhaps because she likes it, she comforted herself. Fortunately, she just likes smoking and drinking. After watching so many tragedies, she finally broke up. Fortunately, he doesn't like her. Smoking and drinking alone are worrying. However, she probably doesn't remember the story of love me, love my dog. If this man tells her that he likes it, maybe she will come up with an excuse: fortunately, it is a small gamble, which is harmless. In this world, there are so many poor people who tolerate everything for a love.

She was startled when he said he would call her. Instant language communication is always easy to stutter. She told him that the phone might be disconnected, but in fact, if her mobile phone is low, it can't connect. So she asked him to give it a try, perhaps because he was in a gambling mood-the gambling phone couldn't get through. However, when the phone was connected, she was nervous, scared and happy. The voice on the phone is a little hoarse and confused, which may be the reason for drinking. She said nothing, happy for his independence, worried about his life habit of turning black and white, and even more worried about his work troubles. However, there is nothing she can do about all this. Life is like this. You are in hot water, and there are countless people around you who want to help. However, only you can get out of trouble.

It was already late at night when I hung up.

When she woke up in the middle of the night, she wanted to know if he slept well. You can't call. If you fall asleep, you shouldn't wake up. I logged in a Q on my mobile phone, which means I am offline. Maybe I should go to bed. Close your eyes and want to sleep, only to find yourself completely awake. Look out of the window with your eyes open and light up slowly. A ray of sunshine hits your face through the glass, and it is dawn.

The next day, she called him and asked him if he remembered drinking too much last night. He said he did, but he forgot what he did. She was speechless and hung up without saying a few words. Looking up at the rising moon, she suddenly remembered a story told by Zhang Ailing. One day, Zhang Ailing went out for a walk with her friends. At that time, the night was beautiful, and my friend suddenly told Zhang Ailing affectionately that she regarded her as her best friend and liked her very much. Ask her if it's the same. Looking at the beautiful moonlight and affectionate friends, Zhang Ailing knew that it would be a shame if she didn't like the answer at this time. In order to live up to the beautiful moonlight and affectionate friends, she replied against her will that of course she regarded her as her best friend and liked her. Many years later, Zhang Ailing apologized for her answer against her will. And he called her, probably like this story, in the right place at the right time, but no one accompanied him. Because he made this call not because she was her, but because she happened to answer the phone there at that time and place. Now he is harmonious, sober, and completely forgotten. He doesn't need to feel guilty, but he has hurt her for a long time.

Beauty cannot be displayed.

Some people say that Einstein is like a monkey, and I think so, but I still respect him. People still respect him, not because of his monkey-like appearance, but because of his monkey-like brain. His achievements far cover up his imperfections, no, but we only see his inner beauty. But in some cases, this is not the case. Usually, we only notice the external beauty of others.

Why is this happening? I think either your inner beauty has not been discovered or your inner beauty is not strong enough.

Beauty is a very broad topic. It can be roughly divided into external beauty and internal beauty. External beauty has its practical advantages, it is visible and the most intuitive, and its first impression can almost replace the beauty of the whole entity; Inner beauty has no actual advantage, is invisible and connotative, but it is often a beauty more powerful than external beauty. It's like the beautiful molecular structure in irregular stones.

It is often found that people who are ugly and short have better moral quality than those who are good-looking. The reason may be that the inferiority complex brought by external beauty gives them enough motivation to improve their inner beauty, which is entirely to make up for their internal shortcomings. If external beauty and internal beauty are not good, it is really useless, and no one wants to be useless.

People who are beautiful in appearance tend to degenerate, just like emperors in previous dynasties. Prosperity made them forget that they still had a broken heart. Beautiful roses have thorns, and ugly foxtail can never hurt people. This is the law of everything in the world. I don't know why, but I can only say that this is God's fairness. Of course, there is no denying that someone has broken this balance.

Therefore, ugly people don't have to feel inferior. You are only defective in beauty on the one hand. Try to improve your inner beauty and be an honest, helpful, kind and moral person. Everyone likes kind people, at least I do. They have a close affinity, just like we really want to hug a puppy. Just because your appearance is sentenced to life imprisonment does not mean that your virtue is also sentenced to life imprisonment.

To tell the truth, I'm really not very tall. Someone laughed at me before, and what's more, I took this as a joke, which has always been very useful. I'm not angry with them. On the contrary, I laughed with them. I am calm and feel nothing. I smiled and let others know that I thought so. If I am angry, others may stop laughing at me, but I will always laugh at myself in my heart. Just calm down, what you think from your heart is the most important thing for yourself.

I try to be kind. I turn off the light in the bathroom that nobody turns off every day. I save water. I'm frugal. I really insist on not paying attention to me for others every day, but only reassuring myself and making myself feel that I am trying my best every day, just as Confucius has always paid attention to his own behavior.

The above, written from the heart, is not boasting, not fiction.

The author picked up the anthology.

Be true to yourself

I like who I really am, and maybe many people don't.

I don't have a naturally beautiful face and charming figure, but I will never dress up or even have a facelift in order to win the envy of others. I am me, such a unique me, the only me in the world.

There is no soft language, no insincere expression, but I will never flatter or even grovel to cater to some people's tastes. I am me, such a maverick me, the unique me in the world.

Of course, I have lost a lot in order to be true to myself, but this does not prevent me from continuing to be true to myself. I always believe that only by being a real person and doing one thing can we live a generous and practical life.

The author's anthology of spring grass in February

Begging for the return of good times

Has been wasting time.

Regardless of the vicissitudes of the world, the world is cold.

Never blessed anyone in person.

I have never received considerate blessings from others.

Willing to be at the mercy of fate

No, my body is very cold these days.

But time has cooled my heart.

Degenerate time, I deserve punishment.

I am as poor as a beggar in the street.

Begging for the return of good times

Begging for your beautiful reappearance

Begging life

I hate false time.

But I won't wear such a coat.

Separation of body and mind

Behind people are smiling faces and tears.

In fact, time illuminates every corner.

Where soft light flows.

All the places are bathed in the twilight of the morning light.

But I have been dyed by time.

Involuntarily, I have reached youth, and time is getting old.

Those times are over.

There's something that breaks my heart, and it tore my heart apart.

Continue to wander in time, regardless of running.

A collection of the author's dreams

Oh, I'm used to it.

Oh, I'm used to it.

Who knows, this may be the saddest sentence.

Habit is sometimes a bad state.

It doesn't matter how sad you are, just get used to it.

Yes, no matter how difficult it is, it doesn't matter if you get used to it.

Accustomed to loneliness, emptiness, indifference, and a strong and brave person living their own life in this world.

There is too much reluctance, which may have become a habit. When we faced it again, we forgot our initial resistance.

There are too many habits in this world.

Just, are you really used to it?

Who knows, when saying this sentence, there may be too much helplessness.

Selected works of author He Lvhe

Inner loneliness

I really don't know what's wrong with me recently. I have an inexplicable aversion to watching netizens on QQ. It was they who spent many lonely nights with me, and now they are really disgusted. There is an inexplicable loneliness in my heart, and I can't see the hope of the future. I live silly every day, but I can't see the future with a silly smile every day. I'm tired of my present life. I want to change, but I can't. I want to escape, but I can't escape. Time seems to be still, a little scary, a little wronged, and a little want to cry. ...

Life is unfair. When can people grow up, mature and have their own world? Inexplicable troubles, inexplicable sadness, inexplicable helplessness, inexplicable loneliness, everything is so natural and everything is so appropriate.

Thanks to a good friend who gave me some strength and courage. Always cared about me. A signature can tell me what I am now. He knows what I need. Without too much comfort, too much words, and the reality of false promises, he knows my mood at the moment without any language. A word, a QQ expression, can be understood in one word. I don't want to say anything if I'm in a bad mood today. I don't need to say that he really knows.

I found my weakness, I found my weakness, no matter how well I disguise, one day I will make a prototype. I need protection, I need silent comfort, and I need care more.