The cold wind in early autumn and October, the chilling cicadas are mournful, and it is late in the pavilion.
The cold wind brushes against the face like a knife, seeming to indicate the coldness and sadness of winter.
I stood on the city wall, with desolation in my eyes. The pleasures in this world are so good even if they are half as good as mine.
Qi Liangan stood behind me, and I could feel the grief and anger in his eyes. Come on, I am not a chaste and martyr woman. Qi Liang'an's hand wrapped around my waist, and his voice was sad: "Ruan He, come with me. Even if you dominate the harem, how much happiness can he give you? It's already the sunset on the Western Mountain, but you are like the scorching sun at noon. He gives you I can't make you happy."
I broke away from Qi Liang'an's hand, with determination in my eyes, but tears in my eyes, and my heart ached slightly. I thought my heart was broken the moment I made the oath. He died, but now he feels compassion for Liang'an: Liang'an, happiness, how much do you and I know? Your Qi family has three armies in hand, and you are not afraid of the imperial power, but I am different. Everything in the Ruan family depends on me as a woman. Take it.
It’s strange that we promised too early and realized it too late.
I turned around and left, not daring to look into his eyes. In his failing eyes, he still smiled freely and said: "Ruan He, I, Qi Liang'an, swear that I will never marry you again in this life."
I looked at his running back, all stains of blood, Liang An, how could I not know your love for me, but this love is too heavy for you and me.
In the cold wind, I listened to Liang An whistling away. Ruan He, wait for me. When I return in triumph, I will marry you.
In the cold wind, I knelt on the ground, my ears sharp and piercing. In the eighth year of Dingjia, Ruan He, the daughter of the Ruan family, was made Concubine Jing. I was rewarded with ten boxes of gold beads and hundreds of pieces of silk and satin. I admire this. The old hand stroked my arm: "Ms. Concubine Jing, the Ruan family will surely prosper because of you in the future." Under his pale face, I smiled calmly. I am no longer a child. I understand that my compromise can bring great benefits to my growing family. What does the declining Ruan family bring?
In December of the eighth year of Dingjia, snow was falling sporadically outside the window. I looked at the water chestnut mirror with red makeup, bright red sand, and gold embroidery patterns. I smiled bitterly, I will no longer be from the Ruan Mansion tomorrow, and this red makeup will no longer be mine.
A bright red hippie covered her head, and tears were falling continuously. The girl Biluo put her hand on her shoulder, thin and cold: "Young lady, you can cry if you want."
There's no point in crying. I pulled off the wedding scarf, but the red makeup was stained: "Give this to me Go and give it to Liang'an." Bi Luo took the Xipa with a look of indifference.
I watched her walk away, Biluo, you have been following me for seven years, how could I not know that you also love Qi Liangan.
What kind of life will I have inside the red wall? My mother took off the jade bracelet in her hand and said, "He'er, you are a concubine. You need to let the Ruan family know that you can dance like a phoenix for nine days." Give the Ruan family unparalleled glory."
I smiled and said, "Mom, you know that the palace is full of blood and blood, and I may never see the saint's face in my life."
In this. Under my mother's stunned gaze, I turned around and got off the float. I was no longer a member of the Ruan family, so why should I be afraid of my mother, who was not my biological mother. There is a sharp and shallow voice in the ear: "Mother, I will take you to the Mirror Flower Pavilion."
The mirror flowers, water, moon, sky and hatred, the dripping water mirror shatters to leave lovesickness. Jinghua Pavilion, am I and everything in this palace just the flowers in the mirror and the moon in the water?
The atmosphere in Jinghua Pavilion is light and cold. The maid assigned to me is named Xue Ke. She has been in the palace for eight years. While I was bathing, Xueke said: "My dear, before you entered the palace, no one had lived in this Jinghua Pavilion for ten years. You were canonized as a concubine, and Long live the Lord sent people to clean it out."
I ruffled the petals and said in a slow voice, "Is this considered a favor?"
Xueke stirred the water in the basin: "My dear, everything in this harem is like this basin of water. , It’s so beautiful that even if there is no wind, there will be three feet of waves. This is not a blessing, but it is not a coincidence.”
I looked up at Xue Ke and said, “How old are you, Xue Ke?” p>
"Go back to your Majesty, I will be eighteen next year."
"Is she leaving the palace soon?"
You can't leave the palace until you are ten years old. A slave has to wait twelve years. "Twelve years, how many twelve years can a woman have?" So am I.
The days when I entered the palace were dull and peaceful. I just embroidered or looked out the window every day. I had never seen a holy face, but I received countless rewards. Everyone in the palace said that today’s Concubine Jing is the most favored. Juehou palace, but who knows that I have never seen the holy face.
"Concubine Jing, Concubine Yue invites you." The eunuch's sharp voice suddenly came from the door.
Before I could react, the man had already walked away. Xue Ke looked at the figure and said, "Who do you think he is? If it weren't for Concubine Yue, he would be just a dog."
"Why are you angry?" I stood up and looked in the mirror and performed the jade step.
Xue Ke walked up behind me and took over Bu Yao and said, "I'm angry for your Majesty, he is just a slave and he dares to show your shame."
I looked in the mirror With his skillful hands, he smiled and said: "Your combing skills are getting better and better." The less you care about these things, the more those minions will climb over you. Even if the emperor favors you, those minions will chew their tongues."
I took Xue Ke's hand and smiled: "I know. , only you are good to me.
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On the way to Yuexuan Palace with Xue Ke and the two other maids from Jinghua Pavilion, I was surrounded by white, which seemed to cover up the red walls. Xue Ke was wearing light makeup. , with a trace of solemnity on her calm face, I patted her shoulder and said with a smile: "I don't know, I thought she was going to die, so why didn't she meet the imperial concubine? ”
Xue Ke walked up to me and whispered softly: “My dear, you must be careful.” ”
It was the first time I saw Xue Ke so solemn after entering the palace, and I became serious unconsciously. In this harem of many women, the only thing that can stir up waves is fighting for favor.< /p>
I thought that as long as I stayed on my own terms, I could live a peaceful life, and the emperor’s favor might be the hands that pushed me toward the cliff.
“Miss Xueke. "While I was concentrating, I heard someone calling Xue Ke's name. I turned around and saw a little eunuch hiding in the rockery waving to Xue Ke.
Xue Ke came over and listened to what the man said. When I came back, I looked pale and didn't say a word for a long time. When I walked to Yuexuan Palace, Xueke grabbed me and said, "Mother, you'd better not go. "
"Why? "
Xue Ke leaned in my ear and said: "This morning the emperor has secretly left the palace. The day before yesterday, the imperial concubine Yu Yue asked for the pearl Yu Yue presented to her, but the emperor still gave it to you. Now the emperor has given it to you. It is not easy for Concubine Yue to find you after leaving the palace. ”
I smiled slightly: “Do you think she can let me go if I don’t go?” ”
Xue Ke was speechless.
I smiled lightly: “If you want to accuse me, why bother?” "
Outside Yuexuan Palace, Xue Ke and I stood outside the door. The heavy snow had fallen for a long time, covering the desolation everywhere. Liang'an, you are standing in the snow like me at this time. ***Xueke looked at me and lowered his head and said nothing for a long time: "It's been an hour, my dear." "
I looked at the closed palace of Yuexuan Palace and smiled: "Wait. "I have learned this word very well during my seventeen years in the Ruan family.
Another hour passed, and the snow fell heavier and heavier. The rabbit fur collar was covered with a layer of snow, and I still didn't wait until the moment. Inside the closed palace door, the doting harem woman exchanged half-hearted greetings.
The goose feathers of the snow turned into strands of snow and water gathered on the head and turned into ice. I finally saw the palace door open and turn around. His face was filled with a hypocritical smile: "Sister, why are you waiting here? Look at me stupidly telling these slaves that I won't let the idlers disturb me. How can my sister be the idlers? "After that, he slapped Xue Ke hard on the face with his sharp hand: "Your Majesty doesn't understand the rules, don't you understand either? "She then smiled and pulled me into the palace.
In the gorgeous palace, the little eunuch was lying on the ground, covered in blood. Seeing my confusion, Concubine Yue said: "This palace is full of gossips. of slaves. Xiao Qizi, pull out. ”
It was the little eunuch who had just reported the news to Xue Ke. Now he was beaten and only had half his life left. Xue Ke looked at him with no surprise in his eyes, but there were still red fingerprints on his face With a half-smile.
“My sister has spoiled the harem as soon as she entered the palace, which is really enviable to her. Look at your face, it's so delicate. "I could see the jealousy in her eyes. When my mother was still here, my aunt also looked at my mother like this, and then said harshly: "You look like a vixen who confuses the master. ”
“Your Majesty is really a shameful concubine. "I bowed my head timidly.
Yue Xuan smiled and said: "I entered the palace at the age of sixteen, and it has been more than twenty years now. I understand everything you want, so don't play tricks in front of me. . "
"I don't dare. "
Yue Xuan's hand held my chin, and I had to look at her. There was hatred in her eyes: "Why don't you dare, sister, remember that I will destroy your Ruan family. It's like crushing an ant. "The gentle smile on that face is peaceful and natural, with warmth, but also cold.
"My slave understands. "In front of her, I am not worthy of the word "concubine."
"My sons and ministers pay homage to my mother and concubine." "The young man in green clothes walked into the house, his face covered with frost and snow. Yuexuan saw him and smiled and said: "How come Lin'er is covered in such snow? . "
The young man is handsome, his handsome face is like frost and snow, and he looks cool but also has a cold look: "Haier went to practice martial arts with Master Qi.
Yue Xuan looked at the young man and smiled and said, "Don't learn these things in the future. Your mother and concubine did not give birth to you to fight against the enemy." You have to understand. "After that, he glanced at me with a smile.
The young man ignored me and turned to look at me: "Who is she?
Yue Xuan smiled and said, "Don't be rude, this is Concubine Jing." "
"Jing Fei..." He read a sentence and looked at me and sneered: "Is it because of her that your father plays the flute outside Jinghua Pavilion every night? "
I was shocked when I heard his words. After entering the palace for a long time, I only heard the lonely sound of the flute every night. I had a dream when I was a child. If a man loves me in the future, he will play the flute to lure me. Falling asleep.
When leaving, Yuexuan said: "You have no relatives in this harem. If I call you sister and you call me sister, we are close to each other. You are in the heart of the Lord now." , Peiliang also needs your kind words in the future. ”
I nodded. How could I not lower my head when I was under the eaves? I lowered my head for a moment and saw the familiar black boots. When I looked up again, Qi Liangan looked at me with astonishment, and finally called me “Mother.” The young man left with me, and when we passed by, his voice was light: "Remember, my name is Long Peiliang.
”
There was no flute sound for a long time that night. I sat in front of the window and the cold wind hit me. The flute player. ”
I turned around and said with a smile: “You knew the flute player was the Holy One!” "
Xueke remained silent for a long time and then said to me: "This slave has known about it for a long time. "
"Then why don't you tell me? "I turned around and saw that the marks on Xue Ke's face had been covered up by rouge, but the purple color could still be seen.
"What's the difference between me telling the queen and not telling the queen? The queen can't do it after all. What? "
"How do you know what I can't do? "I turned around and sneered at Xue Ke, Xue Ke, at your age, you are so thoughtful. Are you doing it for me or for yourself?
Xue Ke smiled: "Since the queen has her own plans, , Xue Ke will no longer disturb the empress. "Xueke finished speaking, and the sound of the flute came at the end of the words.
I looked up and saw that there were only two people with a lamp in the small solitary pavilion. Under the vast moonlight, I finally looked I didn't know whether it was the one playing the flute.
I ran out of Jinghua Pavilion and ran towards the small pavilion. The cold wind blew my thin body until I saw his gentle face and the flute. The voice continued to be sad.
"My concubine Ruan He, long live my emperor. "I knelt on the ground, my single clothes wet with frost and snow.
After the sound of the flute ended, he looked up at me. He was not as old as he imagined, but seemed to be in his prime, full of vigor: "Get up. Bar. "
I stood up and he walked up to me: "You are so old, but you still don't know how to feel sorry for yourself. "After that, I took off my hair and put it on me.
At that moment, my heart seemed to melt. I looked up at the man, and he smiled fondly at me: "Girl, it's cold. , go back. ”
He hugged me and walked back to Jinghua Pavilion in the vast snowy night. His feet made a creaking sound on the snow, like a wonderful song. Xue Ke was waiting at the door and saw me lightly Smiling. Kneeling down to welcome the Holy Master into the pavilion.
That night, he stayed in the Jinghua Pavilion, just me and him. He sat on the couch and watched me fall asleep and called me "girl" over and over again, as if he had never seen me before. There once was a woman like me.
He stayed at my bedside for three days when I had a cold, and never left me. No one has cared about me like this since I was born, not even Qi Liangan.
“Why are you so nice to me? "It took me a long time to finally ask that question. At that time, he was sitting in front of my window with a bowl of porridge and a calm look on his face.
"Are you different? "
"Why is it different? I am just a member of the Holy Emperor's harem. "
He smiled at me: "You are different from them. "After that, he handed me the porridge and fed me one mouthful. As I ate the porridge, I couldn't stop crying. After all, I cried like a mess. I didn't know why I was crying, but I couldn't stop the tears. < /p>
He wiped my tears and said, "Why are you crying? Girl, whatever you don’t have, I will give it to you. ”
What I don’t have, Ruan He has had nothing since he was born. What can you give me? You have your harem, and I have my Qi Liang’an.
Dingjia In August of the ninth year, General Qi Liang'an of Mobei had meritorious service in retreating from the enemy. He was given a special gift of ten thousand gold coins and granted the title of First Grade Imperial Order to Mrs. Qi.
Liang'an, you said that I, Ruan He, would never marry again in this life. Now there is Mrs. Gaoming. If I remember correctly, your wife's name is Ruan Biluo, which is the name I gave her. The red scarf was sent, but Biluo has not returned.
He looked at the station. I didn't bother me in front of the window. I sat on the chair and played the song "Wrong Farewell" that you often play at night.
I turned around and he smiled at me. With warmth, he always gave me a lot, but he didn't understand my heart.
I just forced a smile with him.
Next to the pavilion, he drank alone and said to me: " Girl, do you still remember that year in this lotus pond, you said that when you were a child, you fell into the hall and no one rescued you. Your mother rescued you and you lost your breath. ”
I was only seven years old at that time. I cried for help in the water at such a young age. After all, it was still my biological mother. She risked her life and jumped into the lake. After saving me, she lost her breath. I will never forget that day. She was pale. The relief on her face, she doesn't have to live on. All this is deeply buried in my heart. When did I tell him, I was still standing here.
My mother often said that this world is not the same. There is a person who truly loves you, and all the sweet words are nothing but arsenic poison. If you eat it, you will never survive.
And he and I were just like arsenic poison that night. Sitting in front of the window, looking at the falling frost and snow, he said that he had never seen such a beautiful snow scene in his life.
Yue Xuan said angrily: "What nonsense. The one who plays the flute is not your father. "
The young man sneered: "Why bother lying to yourself, mother and concubine? Everyone in the palace knows this. "
"You..." Yuexuan stretched out her hand but still failed to lower it.
I looked up at him, with a bit of coldness and a bit of emotion in my dark eyes. It seems to be with me but also with someone else.
When leaving, Yuexuan said: "You have no relatives in this harem. If I call you sister, you call me sister, we are close friends." It's my fault, you are in His Majesty's heart now, and Peiliang will also need your kind words in the future.
”
I nodded. How could I not lower my head when I was under the eaves? I lowered my head for a moment and saw the familiar black boots. When I looked up again, Qi Liangan looked at me with astonishment, and finally called me “Mother.” The young man left with me, and when we passed by, his voice was light: "Remember, my name is Long Peiliang. ”
There was no flute sound for a long time that night. I sat in front of the window and the cold wind hit me. The flute player. ”
I turned around and said with a smile: “You knew the flute player was the Holy One!” "
Xueke remained silent for a long time and then said to me: "This slave has known about it for a long time. "
"Then why don't you tell me? "I turned around and saw that the marks on Xue Ke's face had been covered up by rouge, but the purple color could still be seen.
"What's the difference between me telling the queen and not telling the queen? The queen can't do it after all. What? "
"How do you know what I can't do? "I turned around and sneered at Xue Ke, Xue Ke, at your age, you are so thoughtful. Are you doing it for me or for yourself?
Xue Ke smiled: "Since the queen has her own plans, , Xue Ke will no longer disturb the empress. "Xueke finished speaking, and the sound of the flute came at the end of the words.
I looked up and saw that there were only two people with a lamp in the small solitary pavilion. Under the vast moonlight, I finally looked I didn't know whether it was the one playing the flute.
I ran out of Jinghua Pavilion and ran towards the small pavilion. The cold wind blew my thin body until I saw his gentle face and the flute. The voice continued to be sad.
"My concubine Ruan He, long live my emperor. "I knelt on the ground, my single clothes wet with frost and snow.
After the sound of the flute ended, he looked up at me. He was not as old as he imagined, but seemed to be in his prime, full of vigor: "Get up. Bar. "
I stood up and he walked up to me: "I am so old, but I still don't know how to feel sorry for myself. "After that, I took off my hair and put it on me.
At that moment, my heart seemed to melt. I looked up at the man, and he smiled fondly at me: "Girl, it's cold. , go back. ”
He hugged me and walked back to Jinghua Pavilion in the vast snowy night. His feet made a creaking sound on the snow, like a wonderful song. Xue Ke was waiting at the door and saw me lightly Smiling. Kneeling down to welcome the Holy Master into the pavilion.
That night, he stayed in Jinghua Pavilion, just me and him. He sat on the couch and watched me fall asleep and called me "girl" over and over again, as if he had never seen me before. There once was a woman like me.
He stayed at my bedside for three days when I had a cold, and never left me. No one has cared about me like this since I was born, not even Qi Liangan.
“Why are you so nice to me? "It took me a long time to finally ask that question. At that time, he was sitting in front of my window with a bowl of porridge and a calm look on his face.
"Are you different? "
"Why is it different? I am just a member of the Holy Emperor's harem. "
He smiled at me: "You are different from them. "After that, he handed me the porridge and fed me one mouthful. As I ate the porridge, I couldn't stop crying. After all, I cried like a mess. I didn't know why I was crying, but I couldn't stop the tears. < /p>
He wiped my tears and said, "Why are you crying? Girl, whatever you don’t have, I will give it to you. ”
What I don’t have, Ruan He has had nothing since he was born. What can you give me? You have your harem, and I have my Qi Liang’an.
Dingjia In August of the ninth year, General Qi Liang'an of Mobei had meritorious service in retreating from the enemy. He was given a special gift of ten thousand gold coins and granted the title of First Grade Imperial Order to Mrs. Qi.
Liang'an, you said that I, Ruan He, would never marry again in this life. Now there is Mrs. Gaoming. If I remember correctly, your wife's name is Ruan Biluo, which is the name I gave her. The red scarf was sent, but Biluo has not returned.
He looked at the station. I didn't bother me in front of the window. I sat on the chair and played the song "Wrong Farewell" that you often play at night.
I turned around and he smiled at me. With warmth, he always gave me a lot, but he didn't understand my heart.
I just forced a smile with him.
Next to the pavilion, he drank alone and said to me: " Girl, do you still remember that year in this lotus pond, you said that when you were a child, you fell into the hall and no one rescued you. Your mother rescued you and you lost your breath. ”
I was only seven years old at that time. I cried for help in the water at such a young age. After all, it was still my biological mother. She risked her life and jumped into the lake. After saving me, she lost her breath. I will never forget that day. She was pale. The relief on her face, she doesn't have to live on. All this is deeply buried in my heart. When did I tell him, I was still standing here.
My mother often said that this world is not the same. There is a person who truly loves you, and all the sweet words are nothing but arsenic poison. If you eat it, you will never survive.
And he and I were just like arsenic poison that night. Sitting in front of the window, looking at the falling frost and snow, he said that he had never seen such a beautiful snow scene in his life.
My eyes were cold in his arms. After all, it was not as warm as I wanted.
Leaning in the barrel, I closed my eyes and meditated. This palace is more complicated than I imagined, and Xue Ke is even more extraordinary. She knows how to control everything for me, but she is not bright. Future.
"My Lady, it is not common for the Emperor to be so obsessed with you. You must know how to think about the future.
"
I looked up and saw her smiling sweetly under the silk fabric: "What do you mean? ”
Xueke smiled and said, “How can you not understand the meaning of this slave if your Majesty knows how to take the initiative to approach the Emperor?” "
I smiled faintly: "If you want to say something, just say it. I won't blame you.
Xue Ke put down the wooden spoon and said: "I just want to listen to what I have to say and don't take it to heart. The emperor has been seriously ill ten years ago and is still suffering from serious diseases. He has become even weaker in recent days." Secretly looking for a solution outside the palace, the servants don't know why the emperor wants to appoint the empress as his concubine, but there must be something unknown. Now the palace seems peaceful, but inside it is turbulent. Every prince has the desire to seize the throne. It's obvious. After the emperor's death, the empress was just a concubine in the cold palace, and would never succeed. In this situation, the empress should find a suitable backer to have hope in the future. "
"Do you have a good candidate? "
"The eldest prince, Long Peixuan. ”
It’s really him, Xue Ke, you have called that man’s name in your dreams more than one night, that is your frost poison, what kind of man is Long Peixuan to make you so shrewd? The woman worked hard for it.
I put on red makeup in front of the mirror, the plum blossoms were gorgeous but always cold, and there was heavy snow outside the window, with a crystal but clear confusion: "The deep courtyard is quiet. The house is dark and cold. Yellow leaves cover the steps and the wind is unstable. Drunken for no reason. Dew wet small garden path. Quietly she cried in response. Half-smeared, the remaining shadow of the candle remains. The night is long and the people are alone and cold. ”
“Half-smoked and remaining candle shadow. The night is long and the people are alone and cold. You were so lonely in your heart. "I recognize that voice. Remember, my name is Long Peiliang.
Looking back, I saw playfulness in his eyes. I was secretly relieved. Fortunately, I didn't say anything else. "When did you come in? ?
Long Peiliang smiled slightly, took my hand and hugged me: "It doesn't matter when I came in. What's important is that you won't be alone tonight." ”
After that, his red lips were covered with a hint of moisture in the coolness, and he and I became entangled like this. After a long time, he pushed me away heavily, with a trace of blood on his lips. , not angry but smiling: "You bite me..."
"So what?" "I looked at him, not afraid of anything. If I were afraid, I wouldn't bite him.
He wiped the blood from his lips, with some love and affection in his eyes. After a long time, he said: "After all, One day, you will be in my arms. Remember, Ruan He, your future is in my hands. ”
Seeing him leave, panic rushed into my heart. I fell to the ground, and the soft carpet could not block the coolness of winter. I am his woman, why? But my heart was so worried about that. The thin red lips are confusing, after all, I am a woman who has tasted love, but I understand that to Long Peiliang, I am just a move in the fight for power.
The Holy Spirit came again that night and pulled me to sit by the window. The political affairs of the past few days gathered between my eyebrows, and the word Sichuan was heavy on my eyebrows. I stroked my eyebrows and asked, "Are you tired?" ”
His love for me is more than just love. He never refuses what I want. He will get what I like even if he works hard to get it for me.
I I like plum blossoms, and he personally planted hundreds of them in front of my window. He also decreed that my mother should be crowned my mother. Now I have a relationship with him. This has been my dream since I was a child. The only difference is that the man is no longer a hero. You must not grow old together with me.
He shook his head and said with a smile: "I'm not tired, I won't be tired if I have you." "He took my hand, and his huge palm was filled with warmth, but his face was pale and weak. "Ruan He, do you hate me? "
"I don't dare. "I hurriedly knelt on the ground.
He pulled me up and smiled bitterly: "You should hate me. If it weren't for me, you and Qi Liang'an would have been a good match. "
I raised my head, and it turns out that you know everything and are just a bit of a face to face with me: "I have nothing to do with Qi Liang'an anymore. Ruan He is now the Holy Concubine Jing. "
He gently raised my chin and met those amber eyes: "In the past ten years, you have learned smarter than I thought. I thought he was still that stubborn child who only knew how to squat in the corner and cry. "
"Your Majesty, you are not talking about Ruan He. "
The Holy One touched my head and said with a smile: "It was you. I will never forget those eyes of yours. It was you who handed me a bowl of water when I was desperate and protected me the whole time. Three days. "
For three days, the Holy One and I, all this was too ridiculous.
The Holy One looked at me and frowned and said with a smile: "Do you remember, ten years ago, when you entered the palace to pray for blessings? thing. Ten years ago, in this Jinghua Pavilion, you were only seven years old. ”
After all, out of curiosity, I dragged the boy who was praying together and ran into the house from the back door at midnight.
The room was very dark, with only one case and a bed. There was a person paying tribute to Guanyin on the case. I stepped forward and took a piece of cake.
When I heard a hoarse voice calling for water, the girl ran out in fright.
< p>I was afraid to run, but I couldn't help but look forward curiously. In the darkness, I heard the sound of the lips gently asking for water, as faint as if there was only one breath left.I had just lost my mother at that time and felt that life was too fragile, so I took the water on the table and fed it into the man's mouth little by little.
That night, he gained some consciousness and understood. I want something to eat.
I took a piece of soft and glutinous osmanthus cake from the bed and fed it to him bit by bit.
In this regard, I went quietly every night, just to accumulate merit for my dead mother. Later, there was no food in the house, so I brought the leftovers we had eaten. He didn’t know anything in the dark. Don’t say anything, just eat them all.
Another night, I was beaten severely by the eunuch for stealing food. I hid in a corner and cried. He reluctantly sat up and asked me hoarsely why I was crying. I wiped my tears and knew that it was useless to talk to him, so I Nothing was said.
Seven days later, while I was still kneeling, someone came to see him. The noble woman, with a cold face, walked past us and left a thick scent of incense.
Miss Qi told me that she was Concubine Qi, and she wanted to call her aunt. When the woman came out, her face was gloomy, and she told the eunuch beside her to leave after a few words.
When I went back that night, he was able to get up. In the darkness, I couldn't see his face clearly, but I could feel that he was still weak.
That night, he asked me a lot, and the seven-year-old child told him everything without reservation.
That night he opened the window with water chestnuts on the north side, pointed to the lotus pond not far away and told me that the lotus flowers there in summer were so beautiful that it was eye-catching.
I just told him that Ruan He would not like lotus flowers anymore, and told him repeatedly why his mother died.
I remember the last time I talked to him, he said, remember, I will give you whatever you don’t have.
His hand gently attached to my shoulder, and his voice was light: "Do you remember?"
"You are..." I was incoherent and didn't know what to say. .
"I am the person you have taken care of for half a month in Jinghua Pavilion. I remember that you were crying but refused to tell me why. Later I found out that you were killed in order to steal food for me. The eunuch beat me severely." He looked at me pitifully, with tenderness in his eyes.
I no longer know what to do. At the age of seven, that time has long been forgotten, but he still remembers that the poor and ignored patient was him. I only regard him as a down-and-out sinner. Those who stutter will live.
"I said that I will give you whatever you can't get. I have sealed this Jinghua Pavilion for ten years just to wait for you to come again."
"So Holy I am your concubine and you will give me all kinds of love?" I had tears in my eyes. People often have many adventures in their lives that they never thought of.
He smiled faintly: "I know that you are married to Qi Liang'an, but you are a commoner, and you will not be happy if you marry him, so I canonize you as my concubine and give you all kinds of love. If I leave first, I will also pave a way out for you."
"A way out..."What kind of escape will I have if I enter this deep palace?"
He held my hand and became more and more powerless: "Back then, I was seriously ill, and Concubine Qi used this to force the palace to rebel. If it weren't for you, I wouldn't have been able to wait for the Yuexuan mercenaries to come to rescue me."
Back then, Concubine Qi's rebellion was implicated in a serious matter. The Holy Emperor killed countless people for this reason. Everyone who was even remotely involved with the Qi family was executed. The Ruan family, who was related to the Qi family by marriage, escaped. I finally understood that that disaster was for today, ten years later.
"Why are you telling me this?" I asked him, crying, unable to stop my tears.
He smiled at me and said: "I don't have much time left, and I don't want to die without knowing anything about it. Telling you is just a worry."
He held me in his arms. In my arms: "For ten years, I thought about loving you like a child and giving you everything you want but can't get in this world. I didn't expect that I would only have these short days with you."
Me Covering his mouth: "Don't talk nonsense, I still have many dreams, give me whatever you can give me."
He smiled bitterly: "Qi Liang'an is right, I am already sunset on the Western Mountain, you But it's like the blazing sun at noon, you and I can't be happy, so..."
It turns out that he knows all this.
That night he was lying in bed, coughing blood intermittently before getting up, and I was the only one standing by the bed. Not leaving even an inch.
Not many people know about this. He doesn’t want to be a doctor here, he just wants to spend more time with me, but the news will eventually leak out.
I remember the last time Xue Ke looked at me, with a hint of joking in her eyes: "I underestimated you after all. No woman from the Ruan family is as ignorant of the world as you."< /p>
I closed my eyes and watched Xue Ke swallow the cup of Hedinghong. If you told him about his current condition, the world would be as it was ten years ago. It would be pointless for him to do all that.
Yue Guiren walked from behind the tree and looked at the dying Xueke: "Yin Xueke is also the leader among the Yin girls, but it's a pity that she fell in love with the wrong man."
I didn't look at it. She only felt that life was too far-fetched. Yin Xueke's body would be sent to Long Peixuan. How would that man look at Xueke? She had regarded him as her husband since she was thirteen years old.
In December of the ninth year of Dingjia, the eldest prince Long Pei Long Peixuan was also affectionate and righteous. He buried Xue Ke and wrote about his beloved wife. All these things are useful, Xue Ke and him are finally separated by nature.
In January of the tenth year of Dingjia, Long Peiliang was enthroned as the prince. On that day, he told me: "Pei Liang will be your future, and he gave you happiness."
< p>Happiness, now I only want yours, not to stay with you and grow old, as long as you live one more day. That night he held my hand, touched my head and said, "Don't cry. If you cry, you won't feel relieved if I leave.""
I wiped away my tears and looked at him again. He had already closed his eyes, but his hand was still holding me tightly: "My fault in this life is that I am not the same person as you." ”
“You were born before I was born, and I was born before you were old. You hated that I was born late, and I hate that you were born early.” "
That night he said: "Girl, come and see the snow with me once. "
After waiting for several hours, Xue didn't come after all. He leaned on my shoulder and was breathless. The national seal and I have been handed over to Long Peiliang. Long Peiliang, You must have known for a long time that you and I were destined to be married.
On the day of his burial, I sat alone in the Jinghua Pavilion, without your loving eyes in the empty palace.
Except for you, what do I have to do with everything in the palace...
Reward from the Imperial List, looking for it