I received your letter and wanted to reply immediately. However, when I read your letter, I had a lot of thoughts. I don’t know why, but it suddenly reminded me of a pine tree I saw two years ago in Qiaxi, Gongliu County, deep in the Tianshan Mountains.
It was a tree that had grown for three to four hundred years. At an unknown age, a deep scar was artificially carved on it two meters above the ground, and it still flows with turbidity. Tears (some people call them pine rubber), and a horse yellow nail nailed next to it, which is said to be used to tie horses.
The tree grows diagonally and is fifty or sixty meters high, a bit like the Leaning Tower of Pisa in Italy. When looking up at its grace, it always feels like it will topple down at any time. It's heart-wrenching and worrying. There is also a pine tree lying down at its feet for unknown reasons and ages. The wood has decayed and turned into dust; but what about this tree? Looking from a distance, it has green branches and leaves and a canopy like clouds. It really becomes a unique scenery. So some good people built a yurt under this tree. There was no moon or stars that night. Many people gathered around a bonfire and listened to a long-haired young man playing the guitar and singing the melodious oriental serenade "Night on the Prairie." The evening wind brought chills, the scarlet flames flickered, and the songs floated in the wind in the dark valley, with lingering lingering sounds; while I was busy with my thoughts, thinking about the growth of this tree, and thinking about Many past events in life...
Since that day, I have always wanted to write an article about trees to express my emotions, but I have never been able to find a breakthrough. The state of mind you described in your letter, especially the sigh of "physical and mental exhaustion, the ideal wings have been broken, and it is difficult to take off" makes me feel desolate. I am middle-aged, my career is not completed, and my life is not finished. The child grows like a flower, but I am already gloomy and desolate...
To be honest, I don't know what to say when faced with your state of mind. Once a scholar has no spiritual pursuit or loses his direction, it will naturally feel very painful. What may follow may be insensitivity and despair. This is a terrible mentality. I wanted to encourage you to cheer up and put you in a good mood, so I thought of the tree leisurely, and the emotions in my heart flowed out like a trickle of water, and unknowingly mixed with some thoughts. The branches and leaves are connected together to form a small boat, floating on the river of my literary writing.
After I finished writing, I wanted to send this article to you for a look, but I felt that it was immature. The article was written in a hurry, and it was inevitably immature and weak. I will stress it out according to my habits. However, the remaining two days made me feel that in middle age, all habits have become stereotyped and it is difficult to change them. Living like a tree in the wind and rain is too hard, not to mention your body. It’s indeed not as good as before, and it’s hard to do what you want!
So, I don’t know how to write a reply to you. During the Qingming Festival, a friend invited me to go to Yining County, an apricot town, to enjoy the apricot blossoms. The apricot trees all covered with white were blooming on the hillside and in the valleys, and they were covered in misty clouds. The mist of rain is shrouded, moist and wet, which makes people's hearts wander. I feel that my body is floating, and I don't know the depth. It suddenly seems like I am in a dream. I don't know whether it is a person walking among the flowers or a tide of flowers surging around me. move. Somehow, I remembered the joy of leisure. I think that although the brilliance of apricot flowers is short-lived and regrettable, the important thing is that there are fruits after the flowers bloom. It is difficult for an impetuous person to have a leisurely state of mind to enjoy the joy of the apricot blossoms in full bloom, and it is difficult for a hasty passer-by to understand the true meaning behind the flowers and the moon. People living busy lives nowadays, while pursuing fame, wealth and enjoying material life, most of them have unknowingly lost some of the most precious things, such as family and friendship, such as warmth and care, such as leisure...
In fact, leisure is a healthy lifestyle. It is an elegant taste that should be under the strong humanistic feelings. Especially when people are in adversity or unsatisfactory situations, seeking a kind of leisurely happiness is beneficial to people's physical and mental health without any harm. You know, Su Dongpo from the Song Dynasty was the most talented writer of his generation, and he was also the one who had gone through the most hardships. However, the hardships did not make him collapse, but instead became his wealth; the troubles did not make him look sad, but made him more wise than others. Therefore, after a period of hardship, no matter what situation he was in, he could treat life optimistically, as if he was still bathing in the spring breeze and rain. He drank wine, composed poems, drank tea and admired the moon; he wrote and painted, and wandered around the mountains and rivers; he created things Po fish and Dongpo elbow are still delicacies that people admire. So I thought, maybe a good mentality, inner elegance and comfort are a good medicine, which not only healed Su Dongpo's trauma, but also achieved his literary achievements. Without Su Dongpo, the brilliant literary sky in ancient my country would have been much bleaker.
Of course, I can’t ask you for anything like young people, although it is a pity that your talent has been lost like this. Pursuing something deliberately will only make you more physically and mentally exhausted if you fail to do so. Because we are all middle-aged after all, and I think literary creation is the same as marriage. Without fate, no matter how talented you are, you will hardly achieve anything. The key is to see whether you can be comfortable, or whether a mountain spring water can naturally flow out of your heart.
Writing this, I suddenly realized something about the pine tree mentioned above.
In fact, isn't the style displayed by the pine tree that has experienced hardships just a leisurely attitude? You see, it is so green and vibrant, so prosperous. Even if the heavy snow is heavy in winter, it still stands tall and green, leisurely and relaxed, quiet and contented. It is rarely heard that it emits anything. An unpleasant sound came. I think it has a soul. Is its soul the root that penetrates deeply into the barren soil?
As long as the soul does not die, the branches and leaves of the body will always pursue the infinite vast sky. Only in this way can it live leisurely and casually, live silently and tangiblely, and have a state of admiration. Just like some people with lofty realms, after a few years, the people and things of the past have disappeared. Perhaps only the souls of those who have endured hardships and persevered are still in the warm spring breeze or a desolate road. It moves forward on the road, and shows how the later people can build their own life character, inherit the fire of civilization, and create an idyllic life in the Tang Dynasty, Song Dynasty, Yuming Dynasty and the Moon.
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Only by living like a tree can your soul be immortal and stay youthful forever; only then will you always retain a sense of elegance and poetry, and live a happy and healthy life; only then will you be able to read all the vicissitudes of the world. , the character remains! (2071 words) Previous page12Next page