The sentimentality of silence and the bustle of the surroundings. Seems so out of place.
Occasionally. Alone, watch the bustle of this town at night. The smile gradually faded from his face. What remains is loneliness.
Occasionally. Alone, silent, silent. The excessive silence seemed so incompatible with the surrounding hustle and bustle.
Night. The beauty makes me cringe and panic.
Lighting. The dazzling light made me confused and dizzy.
Fireworks. Let go of the fragmented memories of happiness.
Reality. It's so hypocritical that I can't see what is true or false. Life, life, after all, there is still something left.
Love. I can no longer piece together the beautiful memories about your promises that are just like lies. The eternal oath about eachother is the beginning of sadness after all. Such beautiful words make me flawless and as addicted as ever. That heart. Already mutilated and covered in bruises. That's a scar I dare not touch.
Injury. I don’t know when I started to get used to bearing all the pain alone, even if there is a smile on my face that is dozens of times uglier than crying, even if all my emotions are displayed on my face, I don’t care. Stubbornly thinking that this way the people who love him will not be hurt. But he was repulsed by the sentence "In fact, speaking out will make the people who care about you feel at ease." It turned out that it was just wishful thinking on my part.
Lonely. I don’t know when it started. I am used to using laughter to hide my turbulent emotions, even if I am not happy. I'm used to lying on the table when I'm bored, even if I can't sleep at all.
I like the sadness of being alone and lonely, even if I don’t know why. Like to go to an open place, even if it's just me. Like to stare at the sky, even if it's so hazy. I started to hate small spaces, they made me breathless. I began to hate the noisy surroundings and wanted a quiet world of my own. I began to hate the beautiful starry sky and fireworks, which made me miss the false promise.
Who can tell me,
what is safe?