Now, after a wave of disasters, Xu Wei has reached the other side of peace. In 2002, the third album "Time Walk" was released, which immediately received rave reviews. In 2003, at the 3rd Music Billboard Awards Ceremony, he was nominated by 1 1, and finally won four awards, including "Best Rock Singer" and "Best Rock Album". This glorious period marks that Xu Wei has become a famous musician recognized by the industry and the public. Last year, when Xú Zhēng released his latest album "Every moment is brand new", he held a small solo concert, which made the outside world call on him to hold a solo concert. In August this year 13, his first solo concert will be held in the Workers' Stadium. Everything comes naturally, but Xu Wei seems to have some disbelief that this is true.
With the change of life and world outlook, his music has become more and more warm, comfortable and clear. However, some die-hard fans who were full of despair and anxiety in his early days complained that Xu Wei no longer swayed.
Xu Wei said that they didn't know the pain. I can't give them such misleading again.
"You stand in this busy street.
I can't find the direction you should go.
You stand on this busy street.
I never feel flustered. "
-Xu Wei, "That Year"
It's probably the first time for Xú Zhēng to let the company publicize his album. Our interview was in a fast food restaurant. The star and the reporter sat opposite each other. We talked sentence by sentence, while he was eating a hot dog carefully. I don't remember what we talked about, only what he looked like that day. He wore the standard shawl long hair of a rock singer at that time. I don't know why, but I clearly saw something called kindness in him.
Later, Xu Wei held an album release conference in a disco. He sat high on a podium with his guitar in his arms, and a spotlight shot at the crowd from behind him. Xu Wei sang Persistence, Two Days, My Autumn and Elsewhere, and looked at him from a distance as if he were a lonely god. People around us are chatting without salt and light. Not bad, yes, he is really good.
After hearing the news, Xu Wei's life became decadent. Although it was not news that rock musicians were decadent at that time, everyone who said it felt sorry for Xu Wei. Because of his talent, I never wanted him to sink like this. He always hopes that he can create good music. At that time, there was a vague feeling that rock and roll is a kind of spirit, but people who do rock and roll should live a healthy life.
Years later, I told Xu Wei about that experience. He said that people's growth process is slow to find, and they should know how to live. Many things that were originally thought to be right were discovered later. Once, he liked the music of Nirvana, a famous American rock band, very much, and that kind of decadence fascinated him. Later, he learned that the reason why Kurt Cobain, the soul of the band, wrote such decadent music was related to his own living conditions. Coburn was extremely depressed and eventually committed suicide. "This thing misled many people. They think that rock music should be like this and should be decadent. " Wei Xu said.
The release of Elsewhere not only brought a good reputation in the industry, but also did not bring much practical benefits to Xu Wei. Due to the promotion of the company and many unfavorable factors such as the music environment at that time, Xu Wei's slightly advanced music was not recognized by the public at that time, so he did not live a performance life. In China, a performance is a prerequisite for a singer to make a living, and the poor market environment makes selling records a loss. Xu Wei didn't perform, and lived on a pitiful record royalty. It is hard to imagine that he is too poor to leave the house. He can only hide in his room to read and practice the piano every day. Even if his friend asked him out, he could only say, come on, I don't have any money on me. If I go to your place, I can't come back.
What makes him feel worse than living in poverty is mental confusion. For the ideal of music, Xu Wei once betrayed his family and gave up the opportunity to go to college. He used to be a soldier, a professional guitarist and earned money all over the country. He once formed a rock band and was once abandoned by the band members in the face of survival pressure. After several ups and downs, Xu Wei came to Beijing, the center of China pop music, with his musical ideal. He got a contract and released a record. When everyone, including himself, thought that his ideal had finally come true, he found that his music was ignored by few people, and he had no performance and no source of livelihood. Trapped in Beijing, Xu Wei doesn't know where his music direction and life direction are. His fantasy is shattered, and it seems that no one can help him change it. He struggled between inner hope and despair. "You run for so many years, tomorrow is illusory. Simple ideals are so fragile in the face of survival. " Xu Wei sang that year.
"That was born alone.
It grew inside me again.
My heart that has always been proud
No direction ... "
-Xu Wei, The End of the Road
At the end of 1997, a car accident occurred in Xuwei on February 3 1 day. On this day, the Rock Music Award of Beijing Music Station was awarded to Wei Xu's best album of the year "Elsewhere". He failed to receive the award, but his friend Luan Shu, a former lead singer in Black Panther band, accepted the award for him.
Wei Xu said that the car accident seemed to wake him up at once, and he suddenly felt that he should not be so decadent. He thinks it is wrong to immerse himself in his own world and pay attention to himself. He began to open his eyes to see the society, pay attention to reality and read all kinds of biographies. I met him at an event at that time, "Hello." He greeted me with a smile, his hair cut into inches, and he looked refreshed. He said that he lived a quiet life of reading and practicing piano at home every day. He began to write his second album "That Year" and began to pay attention to life.
1At the end of 999, Wei Xu, who was already suffering from depression, was almost on the verge of collapse due to long-term staying up late and insomnia. It was also at this time that his second album "That Year" began to be recorded. At that time, the Red Star production company, once regarded as a holy place for music by fans, was on the verge of bankruptcy. The company is in chaos, and almost no one is in charge of the business. Xu Wei's album recording was all left to him. Xu Wei, the first producer, took on all kinds of chores, even the musicians let him speak for himself. The company also asked him to tell others.
But to Xu Wei's surprise, the company fooled Xu Wei by threatening to renew his contract with the recorded samples. In the later stage of the sample, Wei Xu was not allowed to participate. Xu Wei didn't know when the album would be released until one day, the singer Wang Feng called him and said that his "That Year" was released, and he thought it was good. Xu Wei just bought it in the street. When he saw it, what happened? The photo of the album cover was not taken, but cut from the MV he had taken, and the album's mix was completely wrong, and the proportion of music was not what he wanted. This is undoubtedly a great blow to Xu Wei, who has placed a lot of hopes on this album. Although, for Xu Wei, the Red Star is a blessing in disguise.
In the summer of 2000, Wei Xu of Xi 'an received a phone call from Song Ke, then the music director of Warner Records China Company, and asked him if he would like to be the producer of the new album of the company's singer Ye Bei. He said, "You also make some money." Xu Wei returned to Beijing as the producer of Ye Bei's album Pisces. At that time, many people did not know that Xu Wei's depression was the most serious. He can't sleep well every day, almost all night, and feels that he can't adapt to a strange environment. After finishing Ye Bei's album, Xu Wei returned to Xi 'an.
At that time, many record companies approached Xu Wei and wanted to sign a contract with him. However, Xu Wei didn't want to do it anymore. It seems that his life related to music scares him. When he was in Beijing, he was invited to perform by a TV station and stood on the stage. He feels very uncomfortable. He is very skeptical about the way to make music. The impact of the first two albums made him feel that the music he made was meaningless. He doesn't want to do it anymore. He said that his life of practicing piano every day was too lonely, so he just wanted to get stuck in the crowd and feel warm. Yes, warmth, another word repeatedly sung in Xu Wei's music, is what he sincerely yearns for. He even found a bunch of "little hair" in Xi 'an and wanted to ask them for help. He wants to open a small shop to support himself. However, all his "little hair" disagreed. They thought he was a musician.
Wei Xu made up his mind not to do it himself. He refused to sign a contract with his record company, and someone just invited him to participate in a large-scale performance of rock music. He thought, this is just the last time to bid farewell to his music career. When he appeared, to his surprise, all the fans shouted "Xu Wei! Xu Wei! " At that moment, he was moved and felt that he had said goodbye completely.
So, Xu Wei returned to Xi 'an, still living a lonely life of running around every day and not wanting to see his parents.
"In the long years.
You made me feel the pain and sorrow in this world.
In the long years
In my heart, you will always be happy and always be home ... "
-Xu Wei's innocence
From 2000 to 20001year, people who knew Xu Wei were often heard talking about him in the Beijing music circle. Besides feeling sorry, many friends said they had to help him.
My friends in Beijing have been calling Xi 'an. When someone asks you that you have no money, I will send you some. Luan Shu got married in Qingdao and specially called Xu Wei to come over. Friends hope that he can go out to play. He is vague and cannot tell his friends that he has no money. It happened that another friend called at that time and found Xu Wei a job to perform in Changchun. He is very happy because he can make money to attend Luan Shu's wedding. Xu Wei went to Qingdao, and when he saw that everyone was particularly happy, he felt even more lonely. Luan Shu saw that something was wrong with Xu Wei, and forced him to return his plane ticket and let him play in Qingdao for a period of time. Luan Shu played with Xu Wei every day and kept cleaning him up, but Xu Wei finally returned to Xi 'an.
Finally, one day, Zhan Hua, an old colleague of Red Star Production Company, called Xu Wei and asked him that there was a small company without singers. Do you want to sign it? He told Wei Xu that there were two former Red Star colleagues in the company who were familiar with each other, which would make him relax. Moreover, the company has no requirements for him and can give him a lot of space. That company is Xú Zhēng's Shanghai Yifeng Music Company (now under EMI EMI EMI Records).
Wei Xu said the company treated him well. Knowing that he had no money, he paid him royalties in advance and rented him a house in Beijing, which made Xu Wei feel particularly warm. Finally, he returned to Beijing. But he said that when signing the contract, the general manager of the company got up and hugged him and said, "Welcome to our company!" " "He didn't even dare to look into his eyes.
After signing a new company, Xu Wei finally started a stable life. With his own efforts and the care and help of people around him, he gradually got out of the shadow of depression and began to recover. He said that he 17 years old began to wander and lead a turbulent life, and it was not until he was 34 years old that he began to be practical. This life is precious to him. He began to find the concern of people around him, and he began to love others. Luan Shu once said: "You are so confused, so many parents, family and friends around you are concerned about you, but you can't feel it!" So, he learned to be grateful.
He said that because he had depression, he looked it up on the Internet and found that so many people in China had depression! He walked out of himself and saw the society around him. He saw that someone was laid off and life was so hard. He began to feel that his life was not so bad. He reflected on himself a lot and greatly changed his view of life. In this process, he gradually and completely got rid of the intrusion of depression.
In 2002, Xu Wei's third album Time Walk came out. The music of this album is completely different from the desperate, angry and noisy style of the previous two albums. It was sad, warm, comfortable and beautiful, and immediately touched a large audience. It is said that it has become the favorite of white-collar workers and college students. Xu Wei's music finally approached the public, unlike his friends in Xi 'an who told him when the first two albums were released, "That's too far away from us." In 2003, the third Music Billboard Awards Ceremony won a great victory, which finally brought positive confidence to Xu Wei. On that day, Xu Wei stood on the stage and the audience applauded him warmly. He is radiant as never before, and his friends under the stage are as excited and happy as he is on the stage.
"All this has changed.
It's as simple as that
The transformation of this moment
At your accidental moment ... "
-Xu Wei "Every moment is brand new"