Two people who love each other, missed it, and failed to come together after all.
Stupid, hopeless waiting;
One is unhappy.
Xiao Ming told me this himself, and he will be satisfied!
Tears swirled in his eyes and he held back. From his persistence in love for so many years, I know that he is a strong person and will not cry easily; Whether I was moved by him or sympathized with him, my eyes were full of tears. ...
I was deeply moved by Xiaoming's persistence in love!
His relatives and friends called him a fool and urged him to get married and grow up to complete the task of carrying on the family line. I was afraid there was something wrong with him, so I took him to see a psychiatrist.
I don't think so. I respect his choice, his persistence and his stupidity. In this increasingly impetuous world, it is rare and even more precious to have such a spoony man!
If I were a woman ... What?
Fantasy, ah bah!
It's been several days. To tell you the truth, I haven't walked out of Xiaoming's story yet. The story is simple and deeply touched me. I admire his persistence in treating love, so harsh and noble;
Look at the girl he gave, no, she is already a woman, waiting silently and endlessly. I really want to be that girl, live happily in his heart, be deeply loved and warm by him, but I don't know it myself. ...
I don't know if the person I love has feelings, so I communicate with him from a distance with my heart.
Will they have it?
It will definitely drip!
I think there must be drops! She should live with him in her heart, probably all the time! At least I think so!
An unknown love affair has influenced him for many years, no, all his life. ...
The girl has walked into his heart, to be exact, into the soul, permanently stationed;
Oh, yes, that is the sustenance of all Xiao Ming's love, even though she is a wife and a mother; Xiao Ming only needs to think about her, that's enough!
My heart is so heavy. Well, I talk too much. It's time to get into their story ...
At the beginning of that summer, I came back from working in other provinces and went directly to the provincial capital instead of going home.
Because I have dropped out of school, there is still some time before I leave school.
When I came to the provincial capital, I went to see Xiao Wei, a middle school classmate. In the room rented by Xiao Wei, the room is small and there is a bed. Fortunately, we can squeeze one more person.
After sitting in a green leather car for several days, one leg was swollen and Xiao Ming slept for several days in a row. He always seems to lack sleep, so it is difficult to sleep well. ...
In late spring and early summer, flowers and birds grow and germinate, and the weather is particularly sunny! People are stupid and always want to go out for a walk!
It was the first weekend in the provincial capital, with only the last day left. Xiao Wei took a day off to show me around the city. This is my first visit to the provincial capital. When I was young, I heard many historical stories told by adults, which happened in this city.
I was carsick, so Xiao Wei had to take me by bike. I also invited some college students to go to the city together.
We just learned to ride a bike, and as soon as we got on the bus, the car fell down and it was a mess.
"I'll take him!"
A beautiful voice, coming from behind, is obviously a girl ... she is a college classmate of Xiao Wei.
I got up from the ground, and before I could get rid of the dust, she grabbed my arm and let me sit in the back seat first, and then she got on.
Treat me like a child, or an old man. Sit tight first. ...
She is not strong or thin, especially her shoulders are narrow, her height is about 160cm, her ponytail is shoulder-length, and her mouth is smiling, giving people an inexplicable warmth!
Her cycling skills are much better than ours, and she left Xiao Wei far behind. Also remind me that the road ahead is long, sit tight! I suddenly became nervous, afraid of falling and being laughed at by her. As soon as I entered that section of the road, I was thrown off at a sharp turn ahead. This time, I feel worse. It was like falling on my back.
She, very nervous, quickly put away her bike, helped me up, asked me where I fell, and patted me on the dust. I quickly refused, saying it doesn't matter, do it yourself!
I want to go by myself and follow, but she insists that I take her car and take me. Xiao Wei came, laughing and laughing at my stupidity.
It's really stupid to let a girl ride me. ...
The road is still bumpy, and I am getting more and more nervous. She let me put my arm around her waist. I am embarrassed. I refused. The most I can do is grab the clothes on her waist with both hands. But she is clearly wearing a long skirt, how to catch her clothes!
I had to hold on to the back seat, and just like that, I was thrown down. Today, I was thrown three times, each time heavier. I pulled her down and fell on me ... I forgot myself, so I pushed her up first and said I was sorry quickly. When we dusted off our bodies, our heads met again. I kept saying, I'm sorry, she blushed, very red.
I looked at her strangely. Why am I not angry or laughing?
I'm determined not to be her back seat!
I still couldn't beat him, so I sat up again.
This time, she insisted that I must hold her waist to avoid falling down again. I'm a little shy. When I hesitated, she held her left hand, stretched out her right hand and put my right hand heavily on her waist ... I didn't refuse!
Seriously, I'm not afraid of jokes. It's the first time to get in touch with a girl at such a close distance. It seems to be a simple action, but my heart is pounding. When she asked me anything, I was incoherent and irrelevant!
She is thin, but her waist is soft. ...
She thought I was nervous and shy, and we were silent for a long time until our destination. She just put the car away and disappeared before Xiao Wei and others arrived.
"Drink some water!"
I was surprised. I should have bought water, but I didn't expect her to do so! Pass me her handkerchief and let me wipe my sweat. ...
I took the handkerchief and put it on my forehead when it stopped. This handkerchief smells good. This smell has never been smelled before. It's refreshing and exciting!
This is probably the smell of girls mentioned in the book!
I'm a little reluctant to use a dirty handkerchief, fold it and hand it to her!
We played late and didn't go home until 10 in the evening.
When I came back, she took me. This time, I was obedient and put my arms around her waist as soon as I got on the bus. My waist is very soft. ...
On the way, she asked me a lot, saying that she often contacted me, all from other places, and had a care; I am very happy to come to a strange city. Besides Xiao Wei, I made a new friend. She is still a girl. I was busy with the college entrance examination in middle school and didn't say a few words to most girls in my class. ...
This was the first time we met. In the continuous fall, we deepened our impression of each other!
I know her name, Xiao Ni!
She asked me to call her Xiao Ni from now on.
The long semester is finally over. Don't go home for a month to find a place to work and help make up for the living expenses for the next semester.
I came to the provincial capital again. After all, in this province, not far from home, I have to go back during the Spring Festival after taking a bus home all night.
It's very cold in winter in the provincial capital, so it's really difficult to find short-term jobs and accommodation for a month. I looked through several newspapers to see if I had a job. As a result, I had a diploma and had to work for a long time. It seems that we have to enter the employment agency.
I remember the last time, when I lived in Xiao Wei and went to town, I saw several employment centers, which I thought were very good.
I went directly to the one with the biggest facade; There are many people in it and the facilities are very simple. A table is facing the door, and there are two rows of benches on the left and right sides of the door. The walls on both sides are covered with various job advertisements. There is a middle-aged man sitting behind the desk.
"Young man, what job are you looking for?"
The middle-aged man asked me what job I was looking for before I could speak. This is probably a professional habit.
I told him that as long as the salary is high, food and shelter will do. ...
He said there happened to be a restaurant here that needed people. This restaurant is large and lacks staff. It needs three women and two men. Just at two o'clock this afternoon, I will take someone there. There are five people, but one person is needed.
There are many men sitting in the room. They are all too old. They asked me if I would go. I didn't even think about it, so I said I was going. Fortunately, I found a job on my first day. It seems that my luck is not bad!
65438+ arrived at the employment agency early at 0:30 pm and left at 2 pm. I picked up a newspaper and watched today's news. Ten minutes later, people who had lunch came back one after another, and the room was noisy again.
"Xiaoming, Xiaoming!"
A beautiful girl's voice came into my ears, not calling me, right? In this city, only Xiao Wei knows me!
I didn't look up and continued reading the newspaper.
A hand, patted me on the shoulder, I looked up, no reaction to come over:
"You forget, I am xiao ni! I'll take you to Xiao Ni by bike! "
I came to my senses, Goose, Xiao Ni, it's Didi, it's her!
She cut her hair short to make it look slimmer and taller, with a smile on her lips. I deeply remember the smile on her lips, and I will always remember it!
When she learned that she and I were going to the same restaurant and we were going to work together, she was very excited and said that I had a good relationship with her. I said it several times, and suddenly she blushed and took her hand away like an electric shock. We stared at each other silently, but it was a drop, as if we had an appointment in advance. So coincidentally, is this fate?
Sitting in the car, we didn't speak, as if we were still immersed in the surprise just now, relishing it!
Let's hurry to work, Xiao Ni is at the bar, and my eyesight is poor. I was assigned to the back kitchen to do odd jobs in the kitchen It's really too much at the end of the day After the guests have finished eating, it is our turn to eat. Everyone ate two steamed buns and a bowl of soup.
I'm really hungry after a tiring day. The restaurant staff gathered around a big round table, and all the food was delicious. ...
I picked up the bowl, took two steamed buns, sat next to me and started my dinner. Xiao Ni saw me holding a bowl, came and sat opposite me and asked me if I was tired. I said I was fine, and suddenly I took my dish bowl, put the dishes in her bowl in mine, and gave me an extra steamed bread. I was shocked. Everyone looked at me and gave me strange eyes. ...
Then she lowered her head until the meal was finished and asked me if I had enough with a smile. I said, enough, enough, really enough. ...
This scene took me back to the past. My mother in my memory always gives me the dishes in her bowl every holiday, saying that I can't finish them, for fear that I won't have enough to eat! Except my mother, I was deeply moved by the way she treated me. ...
I can't be calm for a long time. After eating, I just don't know what it tastes like. I sat quietly in the yard behind the restaurant, still thinking about the scene just now.
Does she regard me as her little brother?
About half a month before the Spring Festival, a heavy snow covered the city and the temperature plummeted. When I came, I only wore a thin sweater and a light coat, which can withstand the winter above 5 degrees. I didn't escape.
One afternoon, I had a little fever. I don't care. Rural children are not so delicate. They just need to take them with them.
In the middle of the night, I began to have a high fever and felt cold, as if I had not covered myself with a quilt. At dawn, I was weak and sore, and I couldn't get out of bed at all. My roommate's chef called in sick for me. At noon, I still have a high fever. My boss sent someone to give me some medicine. If I eat it, it won't work. And I threw up.
I am groggy, waking up and sleeping, and my upper lip and nostrils are burning. I know, this time I will burn another blood bubble.
For people like me who don't catch a cold easily, once they have a fever, it is always like this. You have to lie down for at least a week, and finally you have to leave a mouthful of blood bubbles, which will take half a month to disappear. I'm crazy. I wanted to earn some money by working, but in the end I got sick in another country. What bad luck
Sneak under the covers and cry. ...
In this way, I am in a daze at night. I don't know what time it is, but I know it's night.
Someone knocked at the door and knocked several times in a row. I barely got up and opened the door. Ah, it's Xiao Ni. What is she doing here?
I quickly hid in bed. I thought she was in the wrong place. I said:
At some point, she touched my forehead with her hand. To tell you the truth, I like this feeling very much. I haven't felt this way for a long time ... every time I catch a cold, my mother touches my forehead with her hand and takes my temperature like a thermometer to see if I have a serious fever!
I really hope that her soft hands will never be removed, forever, forever. ...
In front of her, I became very independent, like an obedient child, without any resistance. ...
In this way, I went to a clinic near her rented house.
The doctor weighed me, and I went straight to the infusion bag or bottle without saying anything.
Xiao Ni, she has never left. Wait quietly by my side, yawning one after another. I said, Xiao Ni, you go ahead, you have to work tomorrow.
Listen to her as if I were her family!
In front of her, I have to obey!
After the injection, I lay in the clinic for more than two hours. I got up and said to Xiao Ni:
Xiao Ni pursed her mouth and said to me angrily:
I don't know why, in front of her, I have no resistance! Let her go.
The house is small and warm, especially Xiao Ni's room, which feels like home!
I seem to have returned home, and everything is so natural!
Xiao Ni asked me to stay in her room, but in fact she slept in her own bed. I am embarrassed. How can I sleep in her bed? Boys and girls, lonely men and a few women ... it's late, what can I do?
Although I had an infusion bag or bottle, my temperature dropped and I was still very weak. I slept in Xiao Ni's bed, and she sat in the living room, watching TV, and came over from time to time to ask me if I wanted to drink water, was it better?
Late at night, I woke up after a sleep. When I looked at the clock, it was already 2 o'clock at midnight. Xiao Ni is lying on the sofa, covered with a long cotton-padded jacket. She may be tired and asleep.
I gently took out the quilt and covered it beside her. I sat next to her and looked at her. The way she sleeps is really beautiful, just like her heart!
Xiao Ni woke up and insisted that I take the quilt away. I can't beat her. She put the quilt on the bed again, pressed me to the bed and turned to the living room ... At the moment when she turned around, I suddenly hugged her tightly. I said I wouldn't sleep if she didn't want a quilt, and I would stay up until dawn!
She gave me a push, but I held her tight. I don't have any dirty thoughts. I just want to hug her thin body tightly ... our breathing becomes short, as if it has stopped, and finally only the sound of heartbeat is left, and the heartbeat is getting faster and faster!
Xiao Ni suddenly collapsed in my arms. I gently put her on the bed, covered her with a quilt and got up and went to the living room. She held my hand tightly:
"Just sleep here, the cold is still good!"
Her voice is very low, close your eyes!
I lay down, my heart beating faster and faster, as if to jump out of my body. ...
We hugged each other tightly without any distractions.
My shoulder is wet, Xiao Ni is crying, and her eyes are wet with tears, as well as my shoulder! I asked her why she was crying. Did I offend her? I said, hit me ...
She said, no, she is very happy at this moment. For the first time, she lay in a boy's arms and slept with a pillow. She felt very safe. She also said that she was grateful to me!
I feel like a heavy burden. I swear in my heart, Xiao Ni, this shoulder will always belong to you as long as you like!
In this way, we hugged each other tightly and slept quietly until dawn. She has no defense against me, and I have no wild desire to possess her body!
I really hope I can stick to it forever and never part; Seriously, hug someone you respect and appreciate.
Girl, it's my first time to sleep together. I hope she will sleep sweetly forever, don't wake up and don't leave!
It was dawn, and when I woke up, the pointer on the clock was 9: 35.
Xiao Ni didn't know when she left, leaving a note on the bedside table:
I fell into a sad and happy mood!
What can I give such a kind and beautiful girl?
I can't give her happiness, I can't make selfish promises, I can't give her happiness, but I hope she is happy!
My heart hurts ...
Xiao Ni, I'm sorry, I can't promise you for the time being! When I can give you happiness, I will kneel down with roses in my hand and formally announce to you: I like you! Marry me!
I washed in a hurry and left before Xiao Ni came back!
I left a note:
……
After a long time, we didn't contact each other, and there was no way to contact each other.
I remember that in the first semester of Senior Two, near the Mid-Autumn Festival, I received a letter from Xiao Wei, saying that he would come to see me and spend the Mid-Autumn Festival together. I haven't seen you for almost a year. For so many years, as a child, I have never seen you for so long!
I'm glad that someone still misses me in other places, and I've been looking forward to his arrival.
Xiao Wei called the dormitory before getting on the bus and asked the administrator's uncle to tell me the arrival time and license plate number of his car.
I arrived at the long-distance bus station early. I waited for more than two hours for the bus to arrive because it was late.
I squeezed into the car door and shouted Xiao Wei's name. Xiao Wei waved to me through the glass. As soon as Xiao Wei got off the bus, he grabbed my hand and asked me if I was cold, like a big brother!
"Xiao Ming, look who's here!"
Suddenly, a man came out from behind him and grabbed my arm. ...
"Xiao Ming, I'm Xiao Ni!"
My heart is pounding. Why did she come? I never dreamed that she would come directly to the station from the place where she did odd jobs without cleaning.
We went directly to the school without taking a bus, found a small private hotel and booked two rooms, one for Xiao Ming and the other for Xiao Ni.
Along the way, I didn't dare to look Xiao Ni in the eye. I'm avoiding her eyes! Xiao Ni has become very beautiful and feels more mature, and her mouth is always smiling. ...
In late autumn, it is neither too hot nor too cold. After dinner, we wandered around the city for a long time and talked all over the world. Xiao Ni has been smiling silently and listening to us. I think she looks at me from time to time. ...
In the middle of the night, Xiao Ni went back to her room to sleep!
Xiao Wei and I have a lot to talk about. I asked Xiao Ni why she was here, and whether he was talking about friends with Xiao Ni.
Xiao Wei punched me and called me a fool. I can't say who Xiao Ni likes!
"Xiao Ni likes you", silly brother.
My heart is beating harder!
This sudden love, I am at a loss! That night, I stayed up all night.
What should I do? Seriously, I like her very much, like her kindness, like her tolerance, like my mother. ...
After several encounters, I have long wanted to be integrated with her heart. It's just that the reality makes me unable to accept her. The more people you like, the more you want her to be happy ... if you don't have enough to eat one day, you can barely make a living by working at school!
What can I give her?
It's dawn It happened to be the Mid-Autumn Festival. After breakfast, we went to the park and returned to the city with several famous scenic spots nearby. It's already night. After dinner, we took a box of moon cakes, went to the school playground, spread newspapers on the grass, bought two bottles of beer, and Xiao Ni had a drink, thus finishing the Mid-Autumn Festival!
Autumn is crisp, the sky is exceptionally blue, and the moon seems to be very close to us, as if within reach. To tell the truth, I have been struggling for tuition and livelihood since I graduated from high school. I haven't sat down to enjoy the moon like this, especially with my childhood friends. We can eat moon cakes together in a foreign land, talk about our ideals and life. ...
"Come, touch a glass, I hope we can grow up together, realize our respective ideals, and be good friends forever!"
I don't know why, my tears rolled out of my eyes, and I couldn't help it. I washed the floor and it came out. Xiao Wei asked me something, and my voice changed.
Xiao Wei said and went to the toilet.
Xiao Ni saw me crying and handed me a handkerchief. She cried with me ... suddenly, she stood up, leaned against me, clung to me, and wrapped my head on her chest ... I felt warm, like a mother ... Her tears dripped on my face, so sweet!
I held her tightly and let the tears roll. She kept crying. ...
We were silent for a long time, wanting to hold together forever, feel each other's temperature and never part. ...
"Cry, cry out, you will feel better, and I will be there in the future!"
Xiao Wei is back. When you see us, speak first.
"Well, don't be sad, I know I'm homesick!"
Time flies, it's nearly twelve o'clock. Kind of cool. We went back to the inn. On the way, Xiao Wei said that he would meet a friend tomorrow, and he would come early the day after tomorrow to go back to school with Xiao Ni.
The next day, Xiao Wei left the hotel early in the morning to meet friends, leaving Xiao Ni and me alone. She offered to visit our dormitory and classroom, especially where I work on weekends.
I can't beat her. Go to my work and ask me what I mainly do. Xiao Ni's eyes are red after hearing it!
Time flies. At night, Xiao Ni may be tired. She will take a long-distance bus tomorrow and go back to her room to sleep.
I can't sleep. I know Xiao Ni's mind very well. She cares more about me than ordinary friends! I felt her heart was with me for the last time! This is love!
After 3 o'clock in the middle of the night, I got up and wrote a letter. ...
I really don't want to read that letter again. ...
I refused Xiao Ni, saying that I didn't like her, and I already had someone I liked in my heart. ...
I cried while writing letters!
I silently prayed in my mind:
Xiao Ni, I turned you down because I love you! I hope you are happy! In fact, I already have a heart, and this heart has long been on you. The girl I am talking about is you! I refuse you, because I can't give you a better life, let alone happiness ... you will find someone better than me!
Have a nice trip!
Xiao Wei came at dawn. I gave Xiao Wei my letter to Xiao Ni and asked Xiao Wei to give it to her. I left early without saying goodbye to Xiao Ni. ...
……? ……
When Xiaoming finished his story, I burst into tears. ...
Out of the window, brightly lit, quiet at night, I suddenly asked myself:
What is love in this world? Is it really a promise of life and death?
Xiaoming's love story seems to come from art, which beautifies the plot! So beautiful, so pure, so real, so simple, waiting to grow old!
Reminds me of love rat.
I wonder, why does the world go to two extremes? God assigned such noble love as Xiao Ming to escort, and the arrival of the despicable love rat devil made the world ice and fire?
Angels pursue the spiritual enjoyment of the soul, while the devil love rat pursues the sensory stimulation of the body;
Messenger and devil, sublime and dirty, spirit and flesh, perform on the same stage. What script is this? To interpret good, evil, beauty and ugliness? What kind of games do they have?
Sad things happen all the time. ...
There are fewer and fewer messengers pursuing pure love, and their existence seems so out of place in real life!
Forgotten and laughed at by love rat; Disappointed with love, I finally left the order.
It seems that beautiful and pure love can only be found in the fairy tale world in the future!
There are fewer and fewer escorts, devil love rat, but there are more and more. ...
What logic is this!
It is quiet at night. What is Xiaoming doing at the moment? Maybe he is standing at the window wishing Xiao Ni well!
Well, it's time for bed. The unfinished thinking about unrequited love is left to relatives to explore. ...
The night is still sultry!