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There are a lot of soul tortures and interpretations in Pessoa's Amazing Record. Every sentence can make a self-conscious and arrogant heart feel broken and leaking everywhere.
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The first time I met Pessoa, I had a similar experience with many people. I saw it in a magazine, and it was used to save people with depression. It quotes Pessoa's poem, "Every day you don't like is not yours, you just spend it". Why is it to save people with depression? Because some versions translate into "every day you don't like is not yours, you waste it".
No matter what version you watch, there is confusion between the lines that seems to cherish time but I don't know where it comes from. And this specious treasure fits the contradictory and complicated hearts of many people.
So I fell in love with Pessoa's writing.
Reading seems to see a truth. This truth is like, on quiet or sad days, I like to look for sunshine and look down at the sunflower tray, only to find that sometimes it is not the direction of the sun.
However, you can only hide your new discovery in your heart and have no courage to say it.
Because people know what you just found, they already know it, but they just didn't say it. So you kept it in your heart, and you thought no one would tell.
But suddenly one day, when you see Pessoa's words, you find that he said them, with a calm tone and a steady speech speed.
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"The monotony of everything surrounds me, just like I went to prison. Today is a day in my prison years. However, that monotony is just my own monotony. "
If we experience awkward conversation and sudden silence, under normal circumstances, we will blame ourselves and think that we may be ignorant and can't keep up with the pace of talking with others, just like his last sentence quoted above.
What about the previous sentence? It should be said that everyone should have such awareness. If you think monotonous life is like prison life, please blame the people and environment around you.
This shocking interpretation frightened many people. However, please don't hesitate. What you have done does not conform to the rules that are considered normal. If everyone has this awareness to improve themselves, then no one will live in prison.
"If you let yourself go, you will let others go."
There is a saying in Zhou, "I am unsociable by nature. Most of the time, I either find the other person boring, or I am afraid that the other person will find me boring. But I don't want to stand each other's boredom, and I don't want to look interesting. That's too tired. "
Zhou chose how to deal with this matter. He chose to be alone. When a person is alone, there is no so-called loneliness by dissecting his own mind. Loneliness is just that a person who is used to the excitement is suddenly exiled, and he is at a loss when he is exiled.
If you choose to bear all the joys and sorrows, you should be exiled to the wilderness.
As Pessoa said, you became a slave.
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"Anything unbreakable will disappear and die, and we will never see the sun pouring down the street again, nor can we think and feel ... They left without saying goodbye in the occasional efforts of life ..."
This is a fallacy for people who have just entered a relationship. "Love is eternal", "Long live friendship" and "Love is passed down from generation to generation" ... If you give them bricks and cabbage, Pessoa happens to be standing in front of them, Pessoa is undoubtedly in the hospital.
Because we don't think we will know what happened before and after our death, so who knows, rather than not believing, it is better to be romantic and believe.
But we can go and see other people. For example, after Qin's death, people talked about him for generations. But his contemporaries, such as a maid-in-waiting in his Xianyang Palace, may have planted flowers and swept the floor, and eventually died, but who is her surname? Who can remember now?
Maybe in the future, no one will remember who Zhao Haoqi of Qin is. "The deceased is like a husband, and the lost days disappear in the years."
People live to leave a mark on this world, hoping that someone will remember him after death. But when the last person in the world who remembered the deceased called the deceased also died, "they left without saying goodbye in the accidental efforts of life", no one remembered it again.
Maybe one day, archaeologists will find a large cemetery somewhere, and they will look at each other when they find the bones lying inside, the things buried with them, and the words engraved on the epitaph, because they can't verify it.
The only promise given to me during the day is that this day will run in a fixed way and eventually become another day. As the predecessors said, the only constant in this world is change.
Why the circle is the most beautiful figure in the world, because it hides the sadness about the beginning or end of time in the unknown starting point and ending point.
You can say that any point on the circle is the starting point, or you can say that any point on the circle is the end point.
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"In the chicken shed, the rooster is doomed to be slaughtered. It sings a song praising freedom because two perches provided by its owner temporarily occupy it."
Have you ever felt a kind of sadness, not thinking about which paragraph Pessoa's "The Record of Trembling with Fear" is put?
It's not a kind of sadness. If you burn incense in a temple and the Buddha tells you that your life is miserable and unhappy, promotion and wealth are hopeless for you, and suicide is not suitable for you and you can't achieve it, what will you do?
Happy people, learn to sing like a rooster. Pushkin said, when life deceives you, don't be sad or impatient.
Although you don't know it, the melancholy days may not pass.
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My morality is extremely simple, and I don't do good or evil to anyone.
If we think about this sentence carefully, we find that we have never done it. Please don't lie, don't deceive yourself, do good and do evil at the same time, but the balance between them is tilted.
But this sentence, most people will not say.
In their mouth, this sentence is like this. My morality is extremely simple. I only do good things, not bad things, and most people will clap their chests to assure you that I really did it.
Pessoa thinks that doing good is a whim and will disturb others, although most of us don't think so. But don't doing good and doing evil all produce an act? As for whether it is disturbing the people, it depends on the definition of "disturbing the people" by the parties concerned.
This was written by Pessoa in 193 1 year. We can see that in 1932, he probably didn't think so.
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The above part is taken from "Sudden Records" by Feynman Pessoa.