Last night, I prayed for 30 days to prepare myself for self-challenge, which shows that I am serious about this matter, because I know I need it very much, because I have tasted the sweetness of running my family and mind. In the process of practice, I unconsciously adjusted many of my bad habits and formed good natural habits. The home is clean and bright every day, and my heart is bright. I will further develop more good habits through challenges, from appreciating the tidy home to appreciating myself.
I was interrupted by my mobile phone in Shanghai, and I was too busy to feel and tidy up after I came back. I can't stick to it like Cai Fen, so this time I chose to start over. Over the past decades, I have been looking at myself with a wrong eye and a blind eye. I can't see anything, and my whole body is not so admirable. It ruined God's masterpiece, offended the creation of God's fatherly love, and became the chief culprit of self-curse. Although I have changed a lot since I believed in God, I am still far from God's eyes, so I am now determined to return to God and learn to stare at myself in God's eyes with God's eyes every day. God is love, and everything is good for him. Only with his eyes can we see the original beautiful scenery of our life completely, because many lies, fantasies and pull-rod jumps in the world have blinded our eyes and made us think that we are like this. Without a living God, we created our freedom and identity. I believe that when I turn to learn to align with God's eyes, I can see myself with God's eyes, accept myself and appreciate myself. I believe that I will meet the beautiful self in your eyes. Give a little cheer for this goal. Oh, you will challenge for success and give you a compliment.
D2-May D2-2003
A new day, a new beginning, I get up 40 minutes before morning prayers. During these 40 minutes, I felt that God was guiding and renewing my thinking, so that my heart and ears stopped feeling, touching and listening to God and everything around me. It is not as big as it used to be. I can be integrated with God and nature in my mind. It's related, Lord! Thank you for such a beautiful morning and such a beautiful reward. Praise your favorite little god.
Waiting for God in the living room after lunch is like the lightness and beauty that housekeeping brings to the family after cleaning up every day. Waiting for God to do a quiet, updated and clean job in life and bring a fresh and pleasant sharing. While waiting, the presence and touch of God made me cry and I lost my voice. God helped me see that little thing. Over the years, although my memory is not as good as that of others. I am not good at doing it, but if I am moved by God and still do it after struggling, I will say to God before going to bed, Lord, I will get up at your time tomorrow morning, open my eyes every morning, get up before dawn, praise God, pray for God's kingdom and God's love, and you are willing to receive people from afar. . . You are not worthless in the eyes of the heavenly father. You long for the Lord and are willing to follow him. You are the baby of the heavenly father, and you are loved, loved and appreciated by the heavenly father. Amen! Father, thank you for helping me to see the insignificance with your eyes. Small is your masterpiece. You carve, care and elaborate every day. You like small. From now on, I will also cooperate with you to appreciate the smallness, cherish the smallness and bless the smallness, because everything experienced in this small life, transformation, is a sign of your grace. This is your work, love you, my dear heavenly father, love you, my dear little guy.
I also thank my father for his work in Cai Fen's life. My good sister is loyal to God. She is loyal, earnest and serious in every big and small matter, which makes people feel distressed. Because of the high price behind this loyalty and seriousness, my father trained her in many ways, making my good sister shine around like a treasure, emitting fragrance, dripping honey in her mouth, full of wisdom and having a heart eager to love the Lord. Dear heavenly father, thank you for giving us good sisters. You should bless her more and her marriage and children more. Make this home full of your love. Hallelujah
D3-05-04
When I woke up in the morning, the rain outside the window fell from the sky and cheered. It was a heavy rain, and it was a long time ago. Listening to the rain in my ear, my heart is filled with grateful prayers. I thank God for letting Eun Woo come, nourishing the earth, everything and everyone's heart. I also thank the heavenly father for timely rain to raise and take care of your people and everything.
The sunshine in the morning and the fresh air after the rain attracted me to walk out of the balcony and look around, watching flowers and trees, potted plants on the balcony, vegetable seeds sown the other day, and jasmine flowers next to them are in full bloom. All this has been baptized and moistened by a heavy rain last night. It is particularly beautiful, with green leaves and jasmine fragrance blowing in the breeze. I can't help breathing the fragrant air brought by this beautiful morning after the rain and enjoying the smell. My heart smiled, my face and eyes smiled, joy filled my heart, and my life seemed to bloom like a flower. .
My God, my Lord, I haven't enjoyed nature and my balcony so attentively for a long time. You know, on this beautiful and pleasant morning, thank you for guiding my heart to feel all this, to appreciate and discover the beauty around me, and to enjoy it.
Lord, I see your love in every ray of sunshine, every drop of water, every leaf, every little flower, every breath, every smile, every greeting and every blessing. Your love is everywhere, and everything tells you that you are love. Amen! Yes, my heart and mouth will praise you, raise my voice and declare that you are love and God is love.
D4-May D4-2005
? On Monday, the group prayed, and we shared (a strong camp) before praying. What is a strong camp? It is the thinking mode and self-judgment that we have been used to since birth. This camp is very strong, full of mistakes, lies and darkness.
For decades, I misjudged myself in this firm camp of mistakes and lies, and that's it. I feel inferior, just like teacher Rui Xin said, (all these may be true, but when I immerse myself in it for too long, we can't see my true self).
In this impregnable camp, the usual mode of thinking is to confront the truth with God. The mind often knows that this is wrong, but the heart is still obsessed with it. If others touch this, they are still anxious with others. You have no idea of the pain in my heart. You cling to these thoughts, embrace lies, let the true light of God shine, and the truth cannot enter. Then you ask God with these questions, why don't you listen to me? My question is still the same!
It's not that God didn't help us, but that we didn't choose the way God taught us (truth; ) Come on, fight those lies and break the solid camp with the sword of truth. When I realize this more, I will pray and declare that I will rely on the Lord and break the structure of these lies one by one with my confidence and ability to believe God's word, so that I can surrender myself and make the Lord great.
When I woke up this morning, a burst of old negative thoughts came back to me, and my spirit was a little heavy. When I was depressed, I called on God to fill me up and help me, so God reminded me once again to declare the truth, to confront and break these dark forces that always want to come back and suppress me. I immediately woke up, applied the truth, and soon won, and my heart recovered.
Thank God for training me to fight mental battles. Although we seem to understand, we still need to practice in real life experience. Let's use truth to overcome old wrong thinking and become our habit. Brothers and sisters, let us live a free life in the Lord! What's your camp? We need to recognize it.
Ge caijing
Although I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I am not afraid of evil, because you are with me; Your staff and your pole comfort me. (Psalm 23:4 NIV) Though you pass through the valley of the shadow of death, you are not afraid of harm. Thank God for being with you and protecting you. I am grateful to you. It's good to start serving, leading and sharing today, which is a big step forward. There is a kind of power that accompanies you, turning your previous weakness into strength and strength. Bless you! Every day is new, and you will become better and stronger. This is heaven. We're going together. Hallelujah