Mortal Love
Perseverance will destroy hope, loss will bring loneliness, and looking far away will tear the heart. Only poetry, as his lifelong lover, will accompany him to the end.
He loved the sea all his life. Perhaps, lying on the train and dying was not his original intention.
As a recognized genius, he is lonely, sad and painful. He is even called a genius. In the contemporary era of new culture such as Xia, he has become a household name due to his outstanding talent.
He seemed to have lived under the shadow of broken love all his life. God gave him not only abundant talents, but also a lifetime of pain. When I gradually began to read his poems and experience his world starting with "Facing the Sea, Spring Flowers Bloom", I found that his talent was blended with his extreme sadness.
Haizi, known as one of the "Three Poets of Peking University", lived in a poor rural area, and books became his entire world at the beginning of his life. Perhaps it was because he had a deeply loving mother that he chose love first in the face of poetry and love. It was his talent that allowed him to have love, and it was also his talent that made him suffer throughout his life.
He used his persistence to firm up the scars of Bo Wan in his memory. As Bo Wan's teacher, Haizi won Bo Wan's heart with his outstanding talent. Perhaps Bo Wan was just a child at that time. Maybe, they really fell in love at that time, and their love was so sincere. Even when Bo Wan left him, she still loved him. Maybe their breakup was not a punishment from God. People inevitably have to experience falling out of love before they can learn to grow.
Did Bo Wan’s departure hurt the lonely Haizi? Indeed, Haizi was injured, and he did not believe that his first love, which he had wholeheartedly maintained, would be ruined. More than once, they said to each other that forever; more than once, they said to each other that they would grow old together; more than once, they made a promise to each other for a lifetime? But what you want to lose will eventually be lost, and you can't keep it even if you want to. His love is short-lived, but also full of romance and beauty, just like blooming fireworks. When Bo Wan left, maybe Haizi was crying, and Bo Wan might know it.
The appearance of Shifen is the moment when Haizi chooses poetry in the face of love and poetry. Shifen may be the woman that Haizi loves him most in his life, but she is also the woman that Haizi cherishes the least. Because of Shifen's accommodation, Haizi became more like a child. It was precisely because his mother loved Haizi too much that Haizi never learned to grow up in the end. Indeed, Haizi has never loved Shifen, but who dares to say that he deeply loves Bowan. In the end, Shifen did not have the courage to continue loving someone who loved poetry more.
Dancing with poetry
Haizi’s hair is messy. His hair is messy in almost every photo. He is a poet who does not pay attention to appearance. It seems that all the time is spent on poetry creation. Poetry is everything to him, and it is his lover who depends on each other for life. A person who falls in love with poetry is lucky, but it is unfortunate for Haizi to fall in love with poetry.
He was a born poet, but with his innate talent he took a marginalized path. Perhaps, he shouldn't have loved in the first place, to love a mortal.
Most of the women in Haizi's life fell in love with his talent and romance. Haizi's life as a poet is integrated with poetry.
As Haizi’s spiritual harbor, Bai Peipei, Haizi regards her as his sister and his beauty. The rational Bai Peipei did not think that Haizi was passionate about her feelings. At that time, Haizi was just a child mentally. He was too scared to be alone. Bai Peipei, who was his only support, also became the sustenance of his feelings. Bai Peipei shouldered more than just Haizi's love also includes family affection and friendship. At that time, Bai Peipei was more like a mother in her relationship with Haizi. Bai Peipei's love for Haizi is more akin to compassion than appreciation.
When Haizi discovered that Annie loved him deeply, it was the time when his feelings were the most empty, and he began to lose his mind. Anne, who is already a wife, still loves Haizi, but what about Haizi? From the moment Haizi had a secret meeting with her, it had been proven that Haizi did not love this girl named Annie.
Li Hua, Haizi’s last emotional supporter, was the only modern Chinese poet he admired. He regarded this woman as his god. He also began to fantasize about his love with God. At this time, he truly lost love and truly gained love.
He lost his love with women. Similarly, poetry became his true lover. He devoted himself to poetry. He had never loved a person so deeply. He put all his love and hate into it. All told poetry and gave poetry.
He wrote poems when he was in love, but when he fell out of love, all the poems became the edge of his pain, making him trapped and unable to extricate himself. He wrote more and more poetry, and then got deeper and deeper into it, until eventually he loved poetry more than he loved himself.
If Haizi and poetry are singing a song, then this song would be too distressing; if Haizi and poetry are dancing a beautiful dance, then this dance is enough to dance It's so heart-breaking; if Haizi and poetry are drinking together, then this cup of turbid wine can easily make people drunk.
Haizi is a person who doesn’t understand love, but he gets the most pure and beautiful love; perhaps, he is a person who understands love, but he just doesn’t understand love between people. Haizi really loved, but he loved poetry, not women. He never loved any woman more than he loved his poetry. In his opinion, poetry is worthy of the vow he made, and only poetry will always accompany him.
The paper recording the poems is innocent and is burned together with the poems, and in the end the people who are burned are also taken away with them. Whose departure are those pitying voices in pain for? Is it the burning person, the innocent paper, or his beloved memory?
You have to say who is the woman Haizi loved?
I think that person is Luhua, because Haizi has never grown up, and Luhua, as a bamboo horse, may have become the clearest shadow in Haizi's heart. Luhua is the woman he looks at from a distance, a woman whose purity he will not violate with dirty thoughts, as pure and innocent as his love for poetry.
Love is a cup of intoxicating wine, but poetry is a cup of rich wine.
After writing a heart-wrenching poem into my life, I spent my whole life writing it again.
Love is a cup of poison without an antidote. Anyone who drinks it will become a prisoner of love.
The seeds of passion were blown into poetry by the wind, and the poetry turned into painful memories.
The ruthless pen is lonely. It can burn too many scars but never hurt itself.
Is the passionate Haizi lost in poetry, or is his heart lost in love? Having lost himself in poetry, does he use death to realize his eternal love with poetry?