In p>1931, Xu Zhimo, a "Cambridge poet", died unexpectedly at the age of 35. As a representative poet of the Crescent School, Xu Zhimo was once a professor at Nanjing University and Peking University. He is young and promising. However, compared with his achievements, the world seems to be more interested in his emotional experience. In pursuit of true love, he resolutely divorced his first wife, Zhang Youyi, and returned to China to pursue Lin Huiyin. Why did Lin Huiyin never accept Xu Zhimo's pursuit? What is the relationship between Xu Zhimo's death and Lin Huiyin? Pay attention and start talking right away!
Xu Zhimo and Zhang Youyi were not in free love. In that feudal era, Zhang and Xu took a fancy to each other's family background and arranged their marriage. In 1915, 15-year-old Zhang Youyi married 18-year-old Xu Zhimo. For this marriage with no love foundation, Xu Zhimo said:
"The life of the matchmaker is subject to the parents."
actually, I am very dissatisfied. Xu Zhimo studied in Peking University and accepted advanced ideas from the West, thinking that love should be won by herself, while Zhang Youyi was a typical old-time woman with conservative thoughts. Because of the ideological gap between husband and wife, there is always a layer of estrangement. In 1918, shortly after Zhang Youyi gave birth to a son, Xu Zhimo went abroad to study. The purpose of his trip was to find a good way to save the country from the revolution, but by coincidence, he met the love of his life.
At that time, Xu Zhimo was confused about the road ahead, and the appearance of Lin Huiyin undoubtedly gave him great psychological comfort. Lin Huiyin is a completely different woman from Zhang Youyi. Her family is well-off, and she has received the most advanced ideological education since she was a child, so she has developed an independent and free character. At the same time, she has a beautiful skin. After seeing Lin Huiyin, who is both talented and talented, Xu Zhimo had a heart-warming feeling for the first time. How fierce his pursuit of Lin Huiyin was, Lin Changmin's words were enough to explain:
"The intensity of the first step is shocking, and the emblem is also scared and I don't know what to answer."
When facing Zhang Youyi, Xu Zhimo is a cold and arrogant husband, but when facing Lin Huiyin, he is a knowledgeable and humorous gentleman. Soon, Lin Huiyin was defeated under his gentle offensive, and their hearts kept getting closer. As for love, Xu Zhimo has his own opinion. He once said:
"True life strives for itself, true happiness strives for itself, and true love must strive for itself."
It can be said that Xu Zhimo gave all his enthusiasm to Lin Huiyin, but he didn't forget that he still had a wife. In 192, Zhang Youyi came to London to reunite with Xu Zhimo. Unexpectedly, what was waiting for her was her husband who was empathetic. During the days when Zhang Youyi came to London, Xu Zhimo never stopped contacting Lin Huiyin. He wrote to Lin Huiyin every day and poured out his thoughts. When Zhang Youyi recalled these days, she even felt ridiculous. After two years' separation, she forgot that Xu Zhimo had always despises herself.
Lin Huiyin also loves Xu Zhimo, but she understands that love doesn't come first, but she is born as a human being, and needs courtesy, integrity and shame. Her biological mother lost her position in her husband's heart forever because her father married another woman. Therefore, she doesn't want such a tragedy to happen again, and she doesn't want to be the one who destroys other people's families. In October 1921, Lin Huiyin, who calmed down, chose to give up this wrong relationship and left without saying goodbye with Lin Changmin.
how many people will be hurt by an unhappy marriage? After Lin Changmin returned home with Lin Huiyin, he still felt uneasy. He speculated that Xu Zhimo was likely to divorce Zhang Youyi and continue to pursue Lin Huiyin. In order to cut off Xu Zhimo's thoughts, Lin Changmin said a marriage for Lin Huiyin, and the other party was Liang Sicheng, the son of Liang Qichao. Liang Qichao is Xu Zhimo's teacher. Lin Changmin's move is to curb Xu Zhimo's feelings for Lin Huiyin with this relationship, but he obviously underestimated Xu Zhimo's madness.
In p>1921, Zhang Youyi was pregnant again. She wanted to take this opportunity to arouse her husband's compassion. Unexpectedly, Xu Zhimo was not happy, but insisted on letting Zhang Youyi have an abortion. Zhang Youyi didn't want to, and Xu Zhimo simply walked away, leaving her alone in Shaston. After Lin Huiyin left, Xu Zhimo was in great pain. He made up his mind to fight for his love, so he asked a friend to divorce Zhang Youyi. In February 1922, Zhang Youyi gave birth to his second son, Peter. Not long after, Xu Zhimo personally delivered the divorce papers. At this time, Zhang Youyi didn't want to stick to this painful marriage. On March 3rd, the two agreed to divorce.
Without the bondage of marriage, Xu Zhimo was finally able to pursue Lin Huiyin with confidence and boldness. In December, he returned to Beijing with great expectations. However, when he came to the Lins' home, he learned that Lin Huiyin had been engaged to Liang Sicheng, and he was once again in pain. But soon, Xu Zhimo found that Lin Huiyin and Liang Qichao were only engaged, and they had not been formally hired. He felt that he still had a chance. Then, Liang Qichao sent a long letter to Xu Zhimo, urging him not to base his happiness on other people's suffering. What's more, it is still unknown whether he can really get happiness. This "other person" is not only Liang Sicheng, but also Zhang Youyi.
Although Liang Qichao appreciates Xu Zhimo's talent very much, he can't agree with his life style. He abandoned his wife for Lin Huiyin, which Liang Qichao did not agree with. Now, he wants to take away his prospective daughter-in-law. How can Liang Qichao sit still? In the face of Liang Qichao's advice, Xu Zhimo also responded:
"I visited my only soul mate in the vast sea of people, and I was lucky, but not my life."
In pursuit of true love, Xu Zhimo doesn't care about other people's eyes. He often invites Lin Huiyin to visit Xiangshan at night and tell her his love. Once, in order to find Lin Huiyin, Xu Zhimo went to Songpo Library, and at this time, Lin Huiyin was with Liang Sicheng. When Liang Sicheng saw that Xu Zhimo always made an appointment with his fiancee privately, he was naturally unhappy. He simply put a note on the door "Lovers don't want to be disturbed", which drove Xu Zhimo away. Nevertheless, Xu Zhimo still did not stop pursuing Lin Huiyin. Together, they founded the Crescent Poetry Society, published poetry collections and performed together, playing the loving hero and heroine in the lyric drama Zidra. Liang Sicheng sat under the stage and looked at the two affectionate people on the stage. His mood was very complicated.
"You go, I'll go, and we'll break up here; Which road you go to, you can rest assured. " This is the sentence in the love poem "You Go" written by Xu Zhimo to Lin Huiyin in July 1931. At this time, the two have been separated for many years, and Xu Zhimo has already married Lu Xiaoman. After Lin Huiyin and Liang Sicheng got married, she didn't forget Xu Zhimo. She asked Hu Shi to tell Xu Zhimo:
"Tell him that I absolutely don't blame him, but I hope he will forgive me for my previous ignorance."
The marriage between Lin Huiyin and Liang Sicheng is not perfect. Similarly, the marriage between Xu Zhimo and Lu Xiaoman is full of holes. After being rejected by Lin Huiyin, Xu Zhimo left a big hole in his heart. Just at this time, Lu Xiaoman appeared. Lu Xiaoman was beautiful and moving, and he knew how to treat others. He quickly captured Xu Zhimo's heart and they got married under great pressure.
Liang Qichao is very pessimistic about their marriage. He once said half-admonishing and half-sarcastically that he hoped this would be their last marriage. And the truth is just like what he said. Lu Xiaoman lived a luxurious life, and later became infected with opium. The huge expenses at home could only be maintained by Xu Zhimo. For Lu Xiaoman, Xu Zhimo even borrowed money from Zhang Youyi.
Perhaps because of the great pressure after marriage, Xu Zhimo thought of Lin Huiyin again. In November 1928, when Xu Zhimo revisited Cambridge University, he looked at the Kanghe River in front of him and thought of the days when he spent two months with Lin Huiyin. He couldn't hold back his thoughts and wrote the well-known work Farewell to Cambridge. And his feelings for Lin Huiyin were also noticed by Lu Xiaoman. Lu Xiaoman hated Lin Huiyin very much, and even thought that he was just a substitute for Lin Huiyin.
In p>193, Xu Zhimo was sent to Peking University to teach, while Lu Xiaoman chose to stay in Shanghai, thus separating the two places. To this end, Xu Zhimo often travels back and forth by plane. At the beginning of 1931, Xu Zhimo went to Shenyang to visit Lin Huiyin, who was seriously ill. They looked at each other and were filled with emotion. Soon after, Lin Huiyin was sent to Beijing for treatment, and the two got more time together. Xu Zhimo's warmth melted Lin Huiyin, but her physical condition was not optimistic. She was worried about how Xu Zhimo would handle herself if she left. In order to dispel Lin Huiyin's worries, Xu Zhimo wrote a poem "You Go", which reads:
"When you are far away, I will stride forward. This wilderness is full of fresh night dew ... What's more, it will always shine through my heart and have that pearl that never sleeps. I love you!"
Xu Zhimo once wrote many love poems to Lin Huiyin, but none of them were as profound as this one. Unfortunately, the days when they confided in each other soon came to an end. On November 19, 1931, Xu Zhimo flew from Nanjing to Beijing overnight. Unexpectedly, the plane suddenly happened, and Xu Zhimo died on the spot, and his body was burnt to coke. He was desperate to get on the plane just to attend Lin Huiyin's academic lecture.
After learning of Xu Zhimo's death, Lin Huiyin was in agony. This great regret became Lin Huiyin's eternal pain, but she knew very well that she didn't love Xu Zhimo enough. She loved her family more than anything else. Even if Xu Zhimo was still alive, she wouldn't abandon everything for him. Not loving enough is the reason why she never accepted Xu Zhimo.