Lord, I killed someone. 00 It was me who personally killed that woman who was extremely important to me. 00Looking back, I have been quite timid since I was a child. 00The so-called "others" are always extremely scary existences to me. 00The world as I perceive it and the world as perceived by others. 00The feeling I feel and the feeling others feel. 00I feel unbearable horror at this "difference". 00And that is related to "rejection", and I can understand it secretly. 00Even if it is a happy conversation, I am afraid to join in it. 00I can't understand at all the smiles other people show in order to get closer to each other. 00 might as well become like air. I kept my lips tightly closed. 00And it was she who spoke to me like that for the first time. 00Beautiful girl (person), gentle girl (person). 00 An impressive girl with a smile as soft and elegant as the moon. 00After the initial confusion, I quickly fell in love with her. 00I learned a lot from my long-term relationship with her. 00The so-called "difference" is actually just "personality", something that people use to "identify" with the so-called "others". 00What is important is not "the same thing", but "mutual understanding" between people. 00However, there is only one thing, she and I are "completely different". 00The crazy fire of love burned me, causing me great pain. 00I couldn't help myself because I "had fallen in love with her". 00I mustered up all my courage and confessed all my feelings to her. 00However, my feelings were "rejected" by her. 00The words she spoke at that time were so sad. 00I finally understood that the decisive "difference" was actually "incomprehensible". 00My memories up to this point are incredibly objective. 00She ran away crying, and I chased after her. 00Trolling down the stone steps as if entangled, the girls of "Gender Inversion and Distortion" (Baroque). 00While cursing love, he rolled down the stone steps... 00This twisted heart, this twisted shell, 00My red pearl has also been twisted? 00My confession does not expect anyone to forgive me. 00The reason for this sin is the bond between me and her. 00This sin is so serious that even God cannot forgive it...
00 "Then, let me forgive you..." 00 The twisted pearl-like girl passed away on the day of twisting... (Baroque Vierge, Baroque zi le fine...)