From the countryside to the city, I became an enviable city dweller and fulfilled a wish of my parents. In the eyes of parents, the son finally got ahead.
12 graduated from university and didn't live in the house of the unit. Looking back, it's hard to find a job these days, so it's good to have a bowl of rice to eat. Compared with those who have neither a house nor a job, I am still very happy.
When I first left school, I lived in a water room in a unit. The house is on the top floor of the eighth floor. Summer is easy, winter is shivering. Sleeping in spring bed at night, tossing and turning, made the bed wobbly, and people downstairs knocked on the ceiling more than once. When I really can't sleep, I go out and stand on the roof, looking at the twinkling stars in the sky and the lights on the ground. There is an unspeakable loneliness and desolation in my heart, and a person's life is very difficult.
Later, before living in the office, the parties said a lot of good things to the unit leaders. There are only a dozen square meters, three people, a bed and a sofa. The space is so narrow that people feel very depressed. Q graduated from a university with me. He studied mathematics, but he especially likes writing articles. I also respect him and call him a teacher. His home is far from his work, so he doesn't go home at noon. When he was resting in his office bed, I had to wander around the street and walk in the street near my work for many times. At noon on a Sunday, I was so tired that I could hardly walk. When I opened the door of my office, I found Q and his wife sleeping in bed. At that time, I was embarrassed and repeatedly said, "Sorry, sorry." I turned to the street with heavy steps again. I remember one stormy night, Chen Xing's "Wandering Songs" was singing in the hall outside, and I listened to the tears gushing down.
During my days in the office, I also talked about several girlfriends. But people think that without a house, it's over. Looking back now, I can't blame those girls. If you have no place to live, where can people live? Seeing that I am getting older every year, I have no daughter-in-law, and I can't tell my parents when I go back to my hometown. Simply put an advertisement for marriage in the newspaper, and the effect is quite good. She is my daughter's mother now.
Getting married in the office is naturally not acceptable. Even if the daughter-in-law doesn't say it, she feels a little guilty. So, I rented a house of 10 square meter, which is the second floor, in the village in the city called "small artillery building" by the people. I booked 1 bed, bought 1 TV and 1 washing machine, and moved in. In this way, the so-called "home" was formed. This place is a small society, where everyone lives. There are small businesses, ladies in dance halls, singers from Shaanxi and even scavengers. My neighbor is a female primary school teacher. She is not beautiful, but she is kind. One night, it was deep, and a voice woke me and my wife. I didn't know until the next day that the woman teacher's man fell in love with a singer and didn't want her. My daughter-in-law told me not to let other women run away. I don't know how to answer her well, but I keep saying "don't worry, don't worry!" "
When the daughter was about to give birth, the daughter-in-law said, "It's a mess here. Besides, there is no toilet. Let's find a bigger house. " In the next few days, I was busy looking at the house almost every day. I used to blush when I saw people, and I also got up the courage to deal with the rental agent. These people only have a word "money" in their eyes, and the house is a tool to make money for them. After some tossing, I finally took a fancy to a one-bedroom house in an "old neighbor" housing rental agency. The landlord is a man in his 40 s, but he looks like a man in his 60 s, with gray hair and knife-like wrinkles on his face. The moment I saw him, I remembered my father who was far away in the countryside, and tears flowed silently in my heart.
That winter, shortly after the landlord finished collecting the rent, his daughter-in-law led her son and daughter to collect it. A few days later, I heard that the landlord was collecting rent, and his woman didn't know it at all. It is said that he found a country woman near the railway station and spent all his money on her. I sympathize with the landlord's wife, son and daughter. They are orphans and widows. How do they live this life? Nearly 10 years have passed. I wonder if they are all right now.
1 After we moved into this house specially rented for our daughter, our daughter came and we were overjoyed. Of course, neither my daughter-in-law nor I know about the difficulty of renting a house. Isn't there an old saying, "If you are poor, you will change." People only know the weight of this sentence when they are parents! Parents' love in the world needs no return. At this moment, I thought of my mother in the country. When I came home one year, I saw that my mother was much older, with no teeth in her mouth and all white hair, just like my grandmother who died in her later years. Why does mom age so fast? I remember when I was a child, one night, my mother washed my feet and a dim kerosene lamp was lit in the dark room. My mother rubbed my feet and said, "Baby, I am old. Will you wash my feet?" At that time, my mother was thirty or forty years old, so many years passed quickly. I seldom go back after leaving my hometown. The longest time is five years, let alone washing my mother's feet.
When my daughter came home from the hospital, everything was strange to her, including my wife and me. In order to welcome her daughter's arrival, the daughter-in-law's brother-in-law specially sent a crib, all made of wood and very strong. I sincerely thank him for my daughter and sincerely thank him. However, it is such a kind-hearted person who broke his spine in a car accident, resulting in high paraplegia. Five years later, I still can't walk and need to be served like a child. He is forced by life, because it costs a lot of money to buy a house before working for someone. Although it is a one-bedroom house, there is no place for people to go when the children's bed is put down. But with my daughter, my daughter-in-law and I have a sense of accomplishment. To be honest, I didn't love her less because she was a girl. In my opinion, children are a gift from heaven, and they can't be separated from this life. No matter where she goes in the future, she is the person that my daughter-in-law and I are most concerned about, just like my parents care about me, although I will enter the age of no doubt, although I am already a father. In the eyes of parents, we will always be children!
When my daughter was more than three months old, my daughter-in-law went to work. My mother-in-law found a little girl named Dongming from her hometown to look after her daughter for us. We put a picture of the spring bed on the balcony. At that time, just after the Spring Festival, it was freezing, and people living in the dormitory could hear the sound of the cold wind whistling outside. For these, the little girl from the countryside has no complaints. She has the simplicity and sense of responsibility of a countryman. My daughter was brought up in Dongming. At that time, my daughter was in poor health and often caught a cold. Dongming was scolded by his daughter-in-law after her daughter left home sick. In fact, the daughter-in-law is just a knife mouth and a tofu heart. After so many years, she regretted her impulse. When I got home that day, I saw a bunch of keys on the table and my crying daughter was crawling on the ground. After a long time, my wife and I also looked for Dongming in various ways, but we couldn't find it. According to acquaintances, she went to Xinjiang. Dongming should be in his twenties, and maybe he has his own sweetheart. Today, my daughter-in-law and I still feel deeply guilty about Dongming. I don't know where Dongming is now, but you can forgive us, can't you?
We live in 704,703, a couple selling fruit, and we are at the bottom of society. In order to make a living, she and her man go home every night 12. In this way, you can't earn much money all year round, but you are often harassed and bullied by industry and commerce and taxation. One day, when she saw me, she said shyly, "I'm really sorry that we come home so late every night and disturb your daughter's sleep!" " "I don't know what to say to such a simple and kind person. I can still see this couple from time to time, although I have moved far away. Whenever I see my daughter-in-law and I leading her, she always says happily, "Your daughter has grown so big, how beautiful!" "My daughter responded sweetly:" Auntie is good! " My wife and I are happy, too.
Daughter-in-law's uncle is from Dunhuang Petroleum Administration Bureau. He wants to buy a house in Lanzhou and says he will live after retirement. Dunhuang has a dry climate and high altitude, so you can go sightseeing. It is difficult for people to live there when they are old. My wife and I ran around the real estate company to see the house. House prices are rising every day, which makes people panic. There is a news in the newspaper. The boss of a real estate developer said, "House prices have risen so fast that we all feel a little embarrassed when counting money." The higher the house price, the more people buy and the more active they are in paying. It is said that this is buying up and not buying down. I still can't figure out why. After reading the quotations from several real estate companies, we chose a comfortable house for our daughter-in-law's uncle in the suburbs. The name is Anjufang, and the price is welcome. It cost hundreds of thousands. For ordinary people, this is simply astronomical. Before retiring, my daughter-in-law's uncle said, "I don't want that house in Lanzhou." Just give me the money. " That night, my daughter-in-law and I lost sleep. Hundreds of thousands! Hundreds of thousands! All night, these worrying figures were in my mind.
Time passed a year under the condition of our high psychological tension. Just after dinner, my daughter-in-law went out and the phone at home rang in a hurry. It's my daughter-in-law's uncle: "How did you prepare the money?" I said, "Thank you! Thank you! " I know I answered irrelevant questions, but what can I say?
Helpless, I dialed the phone of my hometown with the mentality of trying. The father replied, "Who are you?" Say what? "After I repeated it several times, my father still didn't understand what I meant. At this time, I really feel that my father is old, and my father is really old! At this time, I suddenly felt the sad feeling of "all my life, all my plants are autumn". My father didn't like talking all his life, which hurt me the most. I am the eldest son. When I was admitted to the university, he was happier than me. He bought me a 15 yuan electronic watch in the county seat. I've been wearing it for four years in college, but unfortunately I left it in the Jinta on a business trip after work. Can you be unhappy that there is a "public servant" in a family that has been farming for generations? My father was not at ease when I went to school for the first time. After I was put on the train, I slept in the waiting room for one night to save money. It was many years before I learned about it. Mom answered the phone, and after I told her about borrowing money, she said, "Baby, don't worry, I will try my best with you!" " "What can farmers do with their backs to the loess? Selling food? Borrow from relatives?
After half a month, my brother called and said, "My mother and I have prepared 20 thousand yuan for you to remit to you." I can't help crying again.
In the eyes of my parents, I am a city dweller, even though I don't have my own house.
? (2 March 2008)