Many people know Dai Wangshu because of his famous work Rain Lane. At that time, Xu Zhimo's Rain Lane and Farewell to Cambridge were the two brightest stars in the literary world at that time.
Rain Lane expresses the author's longing for love and a better life.
Yearning for yearning, yearning for yearning, Rain Lane Poet has three love affairs, but they all end in tragedy. Dai Wangshu is brilliant, but he makes a mess of his love life.
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1After the failure of the Great Revolution in 927, Dai Wangshu lived in the home of his good friend Shi Zhecun and strengthened Shi Zhecun's sister Shi Jiangnian. /kloc-Shi Jiangnian, 0/7 years old, has smooth and delicate skin and a good face. Dai Wangshu fell in love with Shi Jiangnian the first time they met.
In the case of getting along with each other day and night, the seeds of love in Dai Wangshu's heart grow wildly. He wrote to Shi Jiangnian: "I will tell you that my lover is a shy person." She is shy, with a peach face and lips and a blue heart. "
Rain Lane was born in 1928, which made Dai Wangshu famous as a poet in Rain Lane.
Lilac girl naturally refers to Shi Jiangnian.
God gave Dai Wangshu talent, but he didn't give him beautiful skin.
Although Dai Wangshu is tall, his skin is dark and his face is pockmarked. Delicate and impulsive, but melancholy and introverted, this completely extreme mind makes Dai Wangshu's character look strange.
Seventeen-year-old Shi Jiang is in the prime of life, lively and cheerful, but without losing her ladylike demeanor.
One is the rising sun in Ran Ran, and the other is the changeable September day.
Besides, Shi Jiangnian already had someone he liked at that time. Faced with Dai Wangshu's pursuit, Shi Jiangnian hinted many times, but Dai Wangshu always thought he still had a chance.
In front of Dai Wangshu, Shi Jiangnian always respected Dai Wangshu as his brother and could not bear to surpass him. Besides, Dai Wangshu and his brother are good friends, and Shi Jiangnian also laughed off Dai Wangshu's pursuit. She hopes that Dai Wangshu can understand her indifference to him day after day.
He continued to write love poems for Jiang Nian: "Girl, give me your heart under your shirt 18 years old. There is blue love there. "
People in love are all poets, let alone poets themselves!
In fact, it is terrible to be pursued by poets. Being sought after by poets is also an indirect contribution to China's literary world.
At the end of 1928, Dai Wangshu proposed to Shi Jiangnian. Shi Jiangnian did not like Dai Wangshu, and Shi's parents strongly opposed it, but Dai Wangshu even threatened to die. Shi Jiangnian was afraid that Dai Wangshu would do something stupid, so he agreed to Dai Wangshu.
193 1 year, they got engaged. After the engagement, Shi Jiangnian made a condition: Dai Wangshu must study abroad, get a degree, and get married after returning with a stable income.
For this matter, Shi Jiangnian is just a delaying tactic. Although Dai Wangshu didn't want to, he went to France to study Shi Jiangnian.
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During Dai Wangshu's three years in France, Shi Zhecun has been helping Dai Wangshu. In this relationship, Shi Zhecun has been fixing Dai Wangshu and his sister. However, Shi Zhecun knows that as a brother, he can't force his sister to submit, and he can only look at the emotional things himself.
After Dai Wangshu went to France, Shi Jiangnian began his love affair. In order not to let Dai Wangshu know, Shi Jiangnian kept it from Dai Wangshu. In fact, Dai Wangshu can see Shi Jiangnian's refusal and indifference in his letter.
Later, Dai Wangshu wrote to Shi Zhecun, and Shi Zhecun also kept it from Dai Wangshu, just saying that "Jiang Nian is still not so angry, but he is too lazy to save."
Not long after, Dai Wangshu heard some rumors in France. After careful consideration, he chose to return to China.
Sure enough, the rumor is true, and Shi Jiangnian has moved on. Angry Dai Wangshu slapped Shi Jiangnian and ended this eight-year relationship.
Many years later, Shi Jiangnian was still criticized by the world-why do you accept others when you clearly don't like them? Speaking of which, Dai Wangshu threatened to die. If it weren't for Shi Jiangnian, we might not see Dai Wangshu's poems today.
Whenever, no matter what, whether you are in love or together, please don't force yourself to death in the name of love, because that is not love, but pity.
Love is not "what you can't get is always in turmoil" or "wanting to die". Very pure, just like that "lilac-like girl".
Dai Wangshu, who was cheated, was in great pain. Maybe he "will always be in chaos if he doesn't get it". He was immersed in his own world for a long time and could not extricate himself. His good friend Mu Shiying couldn't bear to see Dai Wangshu so sad, so he introduced his sister Mu Lijuan to Dai Wangshu.
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Mu Lijuan worships Dai Wangshu very much. Before, she heard her brother talk about Dai Wangshu and his poems. I have memorized the song Rain Lane. Faced with such "fans", Dai Wangshu naturally satisfied his unsatisfied self-esteem in Shijiang years.
Seeing Mu's shy face and elegant and gentle temperament, I can't help but sigh, "She is the lilac girl I have been looking for!" .
1936 Dai Wangshu and Mu held a grand wedding in Shanghai.
After getting married, they gave birth to a daughter named Dai, with many nicknames.
Married life is harmonious. Mu Lijuan never interferes with housework, and she doesn't have to take care of the children. She has a nanny to do everything.
However, Dai Wangshu is still obsessed with Shi Jiangnian. Dai Wangshu and Mu basically have no communication. Poets spend most of their time reading and writing poems every day, just like two strangers living together.
In marriage, what is more terrible than quarreling is cold violence.
At that time, Dai Wangshu wrote lyrics for the theme song "First Love Girl" of the movie "First Love". When writing the lyrics of this film, he wrote:
"You took me to a dream, but I forgot you in other dreams. Now I water the roses every day, but the orchids are withered. "
At that time, discerning people knew at a glance that the orchid in the lyrics refers to Shi Jiangnian and the thorny rose is Mu. This song was widely circulated at that time, but it hurt Mu's heart to a great extent.
Who can stand such a thing? After so many years of marriage, my husband has been deeply in love with another person, even if that person has hurt him. He is still obsessed with it, pouring so much love into him, but treating himself like this.
People always know they can't go back before they miss each other.
Mu Lijuan said: "He has no feelings for me, and his love has been given to Shi Jiangnian."
There are no people who can't forget, only the heart door that can't get out.
In this relationship that may break up at any time, the real fuse is Dai Wangshu's male chauvinism, which breaks Mu's heart.
1940, Mu Lijuan's brother was assassinated and her mother died. However, Dai Wangshu withheld the telegram, otherwise Mu knew, and Mu, who didn't know the situation, went to the party and wore big red clothes. Others ridiculed him, "Your relatives are all dead, and you are still dressed so brightly."
After learning the truth, Mu Lijuan was heartbroken.
1940, Mu asked for a divorce, and Dai Wangshu staged another drama threatening death. He wrote a "suicide note" to Mu Li Juan. He drank pesticides at home, and later, he was found to have been sent to the hospital, never letting this literary star fall prematurely.
Dai Wangshu wrote in the letter:
From the day we had reason to get married, I had a premonition that this marriage would bring us endless troubles. But I have been thinking that maybe you will love me in the future. Now my fantasy is shattered, I choose to die, and I refuse the request for divorce. Because Dodo (daughter Dai) is 5 years old, we can't let the children worry, so I use death to solve our problems. He's like a divorce, liberating you.
Since we predicted from the beginning that there would be endless troubles in the future, why should we stay together?
/kloc-in the winter of 0/940, Mu divorced Dai Wangshu.
Their love reminds me of a classic line in a movie: "There was a sincere love before me, and I didn't cherish it. You will regret it if you lose it. The most painful thing in the world is this. "
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The feeling of being frustrated again and again makes Dai Wangshu hardly believe in love. He was disheartened, but fate arranged for Yang Jing to appear beside him.
When I married Dai Wangshu, I was only sixteen years old, while Yang Daiwangshu was twenty years old. Although they got married despite their parents' various objections, the beautiful story of their marriage to the poet did not come to Yang Jing as scheduled.
As always, Dai Wangshu is still in love before, or he was before. Without communication, they live together like strangers.
When they 1946 returned to Shanghai, the income of the whole family was not as good as before. After the marriage was diluted by daily necessities, Dai Wangshu faced divorce again.
Rainy alley is beautiful, and poetry is also beautiful; However, it does not solve the real problem.
They met 1942 and divorced 1948, with only six years in between.
Dai Wangshu wrote many love poems in his life, but in his three relationships, he never understood what love is, which is a bit pitiful. "Lilac Girl" was written by Dai Wangshu himself, but the girl never seems to be in the rainy lane.
Fate seems to have played a big joke on Dai Wangshu, always sending hope when he was most disappointed, but failed to fulfill him. Laughing at Dai Wangshu's "death force", he also lamented the impermanence of fate.
All three relationships ended in failure, and Dai Wangshu fell into the abyss of suffering. His illness became so serious that he had to rely on lutein injection every day.
1On February 28th, 950, Dai Wangshu increased the dose privately, and finally died suddenly at home. Only 45 years old.
Bian's good friend once said, "Dai Wangshu died suddenly at a young age. The old social system made it impossible for him to give full play to his talents. Seeing that a new society is about to emerge, Dai Wangshu left. "
In the long river of life, there is always someone who will make you feel distressed and regret it; The only thing we can do is to let go of what we have missed and cherish what we have.
The lilacs were still there, and the girl with the oiled paper umbrella never appeared again.