Of course, I tried. I think, I want to use my actions to prove that I can also be an extraordinary one. I thought of what Kobe once said: "Have you seen Los Angeles at four in the morning?" So I have to get up early, not at four, but at five. Five o'clock is very early for our dormitory. Then what are you doing up? Go running! To be different, you must first have a healthy body. Well, since then, I have started to get up early and run every day. While my roommate was still sleeping, I dressed up and went out for a run. The world is never what you think. When I thought I had taken a different first step, I found that some people had already taken it.
Looking at the crowded playground, I deeply realized my smallness. Looking at them in their sportswear, I deeply despise myself in my overcoat. Take off your coat and join them. This morning made me feel very different, tired and refreshed. I want to run every day, I said to myself. Of course, the reason has changed from "to be different" to "to keep up with them". When I got back, I happily told my roommates about my new discovery and invited them to run with me. But they just said "ah" and "ah", and then they never mentioned it again. I persisted in this matter for two months and gave up.
Although running gave up because of "the weather turned cold" and other reasons, I didn't give up because I wanted an extraordinary heart. I started to work out. I want to have a perfect figure and make myself look unusual. I began to do self-esteem training every day, such as sit-ups, push-ups, Russian turns, pull-ups, squats and so on. Maybe it's because my method is correct and the early effect is obvious. This time I persisted for 3 months. Three months have passed, and I have changed a lot. First of all, of course, I became thinner, and then my figure became better. The once fat meat has turned into muscle, and there are six abdominal muscles. My roommates said I was awesome, and my satisfaction at that time was beyond words. I thought I could continue practicing, but it turned out to be a holiday. When I get home, I ... I won't say anything, I know everything. After the holiday, I was beaten back to my original shape.
I still don't want peace. I always want to do something. I joined the lab of our school again. At first, I helped seniors or teachers learn software. When you have learned about software, you can participate in the project of seniors and sisters and help with some small processing within your power. But it is also because I participated in the project that I found that the essence of this project is far from what I imagined, and this thing is not what I really want to do. So it's over again.
Of course, more than that, I also went out to do part-time jobs, delivered couriers, participated in various competitions, and seriously chased a girl and so on. These are my efforts and attempts to break away from the ordinary. I used to think I worked hard, but why am I still so ordinary? I even want to squat in the dormitory immediately and become the most common otaku college student in my mind. Once helpless, confused, escape. In order to escape, I stayed in the dormitory to play games and watch TV to kill time. At that moment, I suddenly understood why they like playing games so much, and maybe they are also escaping from the sense of powerlessness in reality. Perhaps it is to seek that sense of accomplishment in the game to satisfy yourself, because the sense of accomplishment in the game has a long shelf life and will not dissipate as quickly as in reality. I joined them, I started playing games, and I made rapid progress. I was once unable to extricate myself from my success in the game.
But soon I got tired of it again. The sense of accomplishment in the game cannot represent reality. I'm not a game anchor, and I don't have that hard game technology. The so-called sense of accomplishment is only based on ordinary people. I'm nothing. I am worried again. I've tried.
Soon, I saw this sentence, "Your efforts only touched yourself." I was hit hard.
"My efforts only touched myself."
"My efforts only touched myself."
"My efforts only touched myself."
I did try, but my efforts only touched myself. I have tried, but as a college student, who hasn't tried? Efforts are not for yourself, and efforts are not used to touch yourself. Therefore, we should not stop, even if it is only once, we should work hard and continue to work hard. If you are confused, read more books. If there is no way out, you come out. If you don't know how to choose, just choose the one closest to you. This is not a question of right or wrong, don't ask right or wrong, choose and go on. Keep walking, keep walking, keep walking, crawl on your knees. And when you have walked a long way, look back at the long road behind you. I think you will have a beautiful smile.
I think there is no right or wrong choice, and there is no right or wrong effort. However, we are all struggling with different struggles in our struggling youth. We all have a heart that is unwilling to be mediocre. We all work hard at a mediocre age and endure loneliness and loneliness. We don't agree or understand. But I think, no matter what, we can't give up easily. We should not only work hard, but also wait for the dawn and the moment to spread our wings and fly.