Thoughts on the First Reading of The Golden Age
This book describes another life in the educated youth era, a life of repression and anti-repression. Wang Erhe followed instinct, naturally and frankly combined together, showing the truth of human nature. Here, the body has been completely liberated, so it is the golden age of youth life. Wang Er is a typical "nobody" and a "superfluous person". He is a 2 1 year-old young man with a keen mind. He endured hunger, leeches and heavy labor, as well as the oppression of such wicked people as military representatives, but he could not escape. He breeds hatred and falls into inner loneliness and depression.
He is a man who longs for freedom. He is like a robber, savage and strong. Like a hooligan again, doing something disruptive all day. He spent a lot of time hitting people and avoiding being hit. However, it is such a short tough guy, but his heart is soft. Only in this way can he be tough.
As the book says, "I was twenty-one years old that day, in the golden age of my life." I have many extravagant hopes. I want to love, I want to eat, and I want to instantly become a half-bright and half-dark cloud in the sky. Later, I learned that life is a process of being hammered slowly. People grow old day by day, expecting to disappear day by day, and finally become like a hammered cow.
But I didn't foresee this when I celebrated my 2 1 birthday. I think I will go on forever, and nothing can hammer me. "His softness was nowhere to be released, and finally he gave it to Chen Qingyang and his pig. It seems that he has always been like this, always fighting and never giving up.
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The heroine of the story is the very important woman "Chen Qingyang" mentioned at the beginning. At first, everyone was discussing whether the decentralized female doctor was a "whore". The masses say she is, and she is, and so is denial. But she knows she's not. It's someone else's label. She is anxious to prove herself. Once, when she was helping Wang Er to see a doctor, she felt that he was different from others, and she quickly proved to him that she was not a "prostitute". Wang er could have helped her at that time, but he didn't want to help, so he thought of a crooked trick for her.
She accepted and made a whore with Wang Er for the sake of "revolutionary friendship". In this coming and going, she and Wang gradually fell in love. As a result, when Wang Er was knocked unconscious on the bench, he ran down from the mountain with long hair and swollen eyes, openly exposing his adulterous behavior instead of sneaking around, and announced an indisputable fact to the world: Chen Qingyang was an adulteress. This is the most powerful resistance and ridicule to reality. At the same time, it also echoes the central argument of this paper: since we can't prove our innocence, we tend to prove our innocence.
Ironically, when she was really a prostitute, no one said that about her. This reflects the social phenomenon in the period of *. When people denounced Chen Qingyang on a large scale with * morality and style quality as deadly weapons, they didn't explore the criteria of judgment, but subjectively determined the crime based on their position without evidence and parachuted into self-righteous goals. Everyone was used to this kind of situation without reflection. It is difficult for a simple person like Chen Qingyang and a casual person like Rainbow Moore to survive in that absurd era.
She is like a child, willing to have all good ideas about the world. Just like her and Wang Er, she is willing to believe Wang Er's "righteousness" unconditionally, even if she loses something for it, she will not regret it. And she seems to have no idea why people do this. But she didn't want to understand, just like a child, naive to live in this illusory world.
Wang Erhe didn't love each other, they just exchanged the "great friendship" of the flesh. What is a great friendship? "As long as you are my friend, even if you are heinous, I will stand by and watch your side." This is the absolute trust and sincerity between people. Good and evil are inseparable in the world, and great friendship shines forever. This is Chen Qingyang's naive idea. She can't tell whether "that great friendship is true or fabricated to deceive herself", but "those words fascinate her like a spell, and even if she loses everything for it, she won't regret it."
Their love can only be fruitless, because their identities are different, because the times are not suitable, and they can only be predestined. Some people may only be suitable for love, but not being together doesn't mean it's not beautiful. As long as you once had it, you will feel happy and warm when you think about it in the future, which is enough. Just Rainbow and Chen Qingyang, they are destined to be "lovers" who warm each other, but not "lovers" who want to spend the rest of their lives together.
Wang Er said that it was the golden age of his life. No matter how colorful life is in the golden age, without Chen Qingyang, the golden age will be eclipsed.
Chen Qingyang said that it was also her golden age. Although she was called a prostitute, she was innocent. For the sake of their great friendship, even if it is a sin, she doesn't know where it is.
"Great friendship" can be forgiven, but the illegal love between two unsuitable people was unforgivable at that time. Maybe it was Chen Qingyang's fault to fall in love with Wang Er. But what about this? She still loves him, and she is willing to take all risks to love him. She is willing to remain simple and risk everything to love him. Even if she loses everything for it, she will never regret it. This is desperate love. No matter what happened after Wang Er, and no matter how many women he had, when he recalled that he was 2 1 year-old and Chen Qingyang jumped the queue in Yunnan, he would definitely experience it repeatedly, full of regrets and sighs.
At that time, they separated, ending the golden age of life.
Random thoughts on the re-reading of Golden Age
In recent years, due to the development of communication means, celebrities have more channels to speak from the media. So in Weibo, which is surrounded by many people, many mysterious and slightly cold people have gradually revealed their side of life, whether it is good or bad, but an unexpected consequence after doing so is that some literary and artistic creators (literature, film and television, etc. ) has begun to show a different side from the values in the works. I still remember that many years ago, a friend of mine was particularly fond of a domestic director, and he began to pay attention to it as soon as he knew that he had opened Weibo. As a result, in several major events at home and abroad, the director's statement made my friend feel sad: "If I had known this, I should not have paid attention. I'd rather he is what he should be in his works in reality! " After a pause, he said, "How good his early works are! They have become more and more amazing over the years!" "... but as an adult in his thirties when he said this, I find it hard to believe that his values have suddenly changed a lot, just because the content expressed in his works is limited, so he didn't show many of his ideas ... Finally, in Weibo, a three-dimensional tool, he showed his values and position judgment in all directions.
But there are some people, I will never believe that they will change their value judgment because they are known by more people-Wang Xiaobo is one of the few.
Although Wang Xiaobo died young, he left us a rich legacy. In addition to novels, there are a large number of essays circulating in the world. These essays full of personal values will enable us to fully understand Wang Er's thoughts. Autobiographical novels will give us a more hazy understanding of his many experiences when he was young.
Slightly different from Wang Xiaobo's prose, his three autobiographical novels, Golden Age, Standing at the Age of 30 and Time flies, all contain many absurdities, such as violent conflicts that appear many times in the text, or other shocking descriptions, such as the "young monk" that he repeatedly shows off, and various scenes with primitive flavor.
Does the content in the novel have a real shadow in his life? Obviously there is. Looking through Wang Xiaobo's personal experience: he experienced the Great Leap Forward, worked as an educated youth in Yunnan, and worked as a teacher after returning to Beijing ... almost all of these can be found in this book.
However, it is obvious that Wang Xiaobo hides many facts behind the description of magical reality, among which the truth is false, and the truth can only be grasped by the reader's own sense of smell.
Reflections on the Third Reading of The Golden Age
After reading Wang Xiaobo's three novels, I have to admire this writer, who is quite low in the eyes of China readers, and finally understand the reason why he was rated as a master. In "A maverick pig", I read Wang Xiaobo's natural and unrestrained understanding of this pig's "disregard for life setting". In Silent Majority, I read out his understanding of the art of silence and some social problems that only thinkers can ponder. In the golden age, I read youth, madness, freedom and even an era. Compared with the calmness when I watched the sad movie "A Story More Sad than Sadness" two days ago, this novel said nothing about sadness, but it almost brought tears to my eyes and made me feel deeper. This may be because Wang Xiaobo's sincere understanding of life and people touched me. As the protagonist Wang Er once said,' I was twenty-one years old that day. In the golden age of my life, I had many extravagant hopes. I want to love, I want to eat, and I want to become a half-bright and half-dark cloud in the sky in an instant. Later, I learned that life is a process of being hammered slowly. People grow old day by day, hoping to fade away day by day, and finally become like a hammered cow. But I didn't foresee this when I celebrated my 2 1 birthday. I think I will go on forever, and nothing can hammer me. "It is not hard to imagine that Wang Er, like us now, used to be a passionate, strong-willed and fearless young man. Wang Erhe's "golden age" is a crazy experience with laughter and tears. Perhaps, it is the dream of all young people to escape with someone, do crazy things that go against the times, and have youth that can be recalled in detail when they are old, at least I think so.
Speaking of this book, I have to talk about its description of sex. In that "non-sexual" era, what Wang Erhe did was not worthy of symbolizing the pursuit of freedom, but was the most direct expression of resisting spiritual imprisonment, implying irony and resistance to the times. In the period of taboo, chaos and hopelessness in China, Wang Xiaobo deliberately described sex as the most direct way to protest against closed thinking. In this book, sex is a symbol of free and unrestrained life, and a closed mind is a plastic film that people need to pierce.
After Wang Xiaobo's description, the sex in this book is also different from most other sex novels. In those books, the description of sex is either too beautiful or too ugly, which is the most disgusting in Wang Xiaobo's view. He believes that human sexuality is normal, and sex itself should be natural and irresistible. And deliberate hypocrisy in sex is the crime and the most hateful. Sex has always been human nature, and deliberately binding it is the most cruel and hypocritical. After getting along with many people, Wang Er realized:' It is a sin to dare to say that you are innocent. In my opinion, everyone is lazy, lustful and greedy by nature. Diligence and thrift are guilty of melodrama, which is more hateful than laziness and lust.'
Wang Xiaobo's Golden Age is not only sincere and interesting, but also allows me to observe the world from a broader perspective. I hope I can treat life as sincerely as Wang Xiaobo in the future.
Thoughts on the Fourth Reading of Golden Age
In recent years, I have developed the habit of reading famous books every night and not surfing the Internet at night. Look every day, look every day, buy every day. Daxirun Supermarket in Dong 'e has a special book area, and you can get a 20% discount on books. It feels cheap. I once saw an album of Wang Xiaobo, which contained four books: Golden Age, Silver Age, Bronze Age and Black Iron Age. I haven't seen Wang Xiaobo's works before, but I have heard of his name, especially the newspaper report about his death in front of the computer a few years ago. Besides, I know that he used to be a university teacher and later resigned as a teacher to write, so I am full of respect for him. I also mentioned the cause of his death in a short story, Divorce. It's against my style not to buy his books. But I don't know what the content is, so I buy the golden age first, and then I buy something else.
Now, after reading this book, I feel something and remember it.
Generally speaking, Wang Xiaobo is not a classic writer. In fact, there are few classic writers in contemporary China, and we should not ask him. I thought it was a long story, but I didn't know it was a combination of five novellas until I bought it. But the central figure in each novella is named "Wang Er", and the events in each novella are also related. This gives people an illusion that it seems to be a long story.
From the positive point of view, we can sum up the following points: As Wang Xiaobo said in the "postscript" of the book, he wrote about the life of that era. However, in his works, the so-called life of the times is a life that has changed its flavor, highlighting the writer's feelings and impressions, and it is a comic life. The characters in the book, in the double poverty of material and spirit, are so poor that only "sex" is left, and it is not for appreciation. Another point is that in his narrative, he used the most vulgar, indecent and indecent words to tell it. The above two points were really maverick writers in the literary world of China in the 1980s and 1990s. I think this is recognized by some literary critics. We can also see why most of his works can't be published in China, but only after his death in 1997.
China wrote a lot of * and later "The Waste Capital", but after reading it, he still left some "fun" for readers, while Wang Xiaobo's "sex" was boring and only made people feel "tired". I have also read many foreign classics. Lawrence wrote the most about *. He never wrote about sexual intercourse between two men and women directly, but only focused on two of a kind, giving people a beautiful feeling and thus gaining aesthetic pleasure. I think Lady Chatterley's Lover is a classic about men and women. The process of "appreciating ugliness" is also the enjoyment of reading, but Wang Xiaobo's sexual description can't give people this feeling. He probably played this narrative as the theme of *?
Wang Xiaobo's sexual narrative reminds me of his wife, Ms. Li Yinhe. Li Yinhe is a sociologist in China. She often talks about the sexual problems of men and women. I think these two couples really have something in common! "I sincerely hope that Wang Xiaobo will be immortal," she said in "Writing in the Front" written for Wang Xiaobo's album. It seems that this is probably wishful thinking?
If I want to buy another one of his books to read, I think I can learn more about this writer. The reading process is boring and easy to get tired. I just fell asleep at eleven o'clock, which is a good sleeping agent. Buy or not, then decide.
You raw cows are eggs. To be honest, you need a hammer.
Humorous writing, very good at poking fun at life.
I just think his overall speaking level is very appetizing. Generally speaking, he doesn't always swear, but he always feels that he is paving the way for swearing, and his words are fluent.
I don't know why. This book is so fascinating to read that I can't stop listening to his stories. Yellow, but not colored. Sometimes when you read his story, you will inadvertently think about the development of the story according to your own ideas, but the author just writes according to his own meaning. This is a master of nonsense. Whether it is a fact or a fictional part, this book is neither the first person nor the third person. Although it lacks a positive theme and can't inspire people to go up, its writing attitude is arrogant. This is a veritable orthodox school.
Thoughts on the Fifth Reading of Golden Age
Wang Xiaobo said: I was twenty-one years old that year. In the golden age of my life, I had many extravagant hopes. I want to love, I want to eat, and I want to become a half-bright and half-dark cloud in the sky in an instant. Later, I learned that life is a process of being hammered slowly. People grow old day by day, hoping to disappear day by day, and finally become like a hammered cow. I also imagined my golden age without much trouble. Occasionally in a daze when sitting quietly, confused about the future when I am alone, reading poems in my spare time, having intimate friends, the distance I want to reach, and a happy love. For everything you love, stick to your brave pursuit, even if the mountains and rivers are dangerous and the road is far away.
In the golden age, we were always young and frivolous. Maybe we don't know what we want, but we are still so confident. We don't like all kinds of social injustice, and we don't want to compromise with the world easily.
But there is never absolute fairness in this world, and everyone has different abilities given by God. Some people have beauty, some people have wisdom, some people have wealth, and some people have diligence. Everyone has their own characteristics, carefully carved, and one day, they will shine brilliantly.
However, in our impetuous society, the theory of fame and fortune, the theory of skins and the theory of politics always occupy our barren mind. We always believe that there are shortcuts in this world, how to catch up with the goddess in one month, how to graduate with an annual salary of one million, and how to get back together in three months. This is a common problem for many of us, and we think about these problems every day. Just when we haven't thought about these problems clearly, our golden age seems to have slipped away.
We are always busy, but busy things are not so meaningful; We are always confused about life, but forget to take every step of the moment; We are always self-hypnotized, self-moved, self-Buddha-like, and step by step we become less like the self we want to be. The love, friendship, ideal and distance that people yearn for in the golden age seem to have become a dead letter.
The world is big, our heart is small, and what it can hold is limited. Once a person is insatiable and expands his heart, it will break into pieces. In our golden age, what lives in our hearts should be important people, beautiful things and pure self, not irrelevant people, impure distractions and ourselves that we all despise.
Everyone has his own golden age. Some people have become high-end players in the golden age, while others have become stubborn bronze men. Many controllable and uncontrollable factors have written different answers for everyone. I hope we are all people sleeping in the stars and living in the sun.