This famous saying by Zweig is well known to many people because it vividly tells a simple law. After all, there is a price to pay for taking things that don't belong to you.
The story of Li Ying's involvement in other people's marriages and love that she shouldn't belong to is a kind of verification.
A good hand is disconsolate.
Li Ying was born in an ordinary family in Beijing. Her parents are postmen, and her life is quiet and peaceful.
She studies hard and has no junior qualifications. By studying hard, she was admitted to Peking University. She loves literature, especially poetry, and has some talents, so she is called a talented woman.
Her graduation thesis is a poem about the poet North Island. The ideas in the paper are profound and unique, and the tutor is very satisfied. I'll introduce her to some people in the literary world then.
This is a good start. It seems that Mars has a good condition and a good start. If she continues on the road of literature, she may get good results, but this is not the case. Her story goes in another direction.
Under the guidance of the tutor, Li Ying met some famous writers and poets in the literary world at that time.
She just graduated from college, young and beautiful, full of enthusiasm, and somewhat talented, quite eye-catching in the crowd. At a rally, Liu Zhanqiu, the deputy editor of Poetry magazine, met her and was attracted by her.
They talked happily, and Liu Zhanqiu asked her to dance. Mars accepted generously, and the two of them ignited an ambiguous spark.
As the deputy editor-in-chief of the important magazine Poetry Magazine, Liu Zhanqiu is a successful "uncle", more than 20 years older than Li Ying, and has a wife and a daughter at home.
Nevertheless, Li Ying is still in his arms. Perhaps the naive little girl who has never experienced the world was bewitched by his mature charm, perhaps a bosom friend who also loves literature, or perhaps Liu Zhanqiu can satisfy her vanity as a successful person at this time. ...
But in any case, Mars is now an immoral third party, interfering in other people's marriages.
And her life, which was as clean as a blank sheet of paper, was stained with ink from this moment, which doomed that it was impossible to fall in love as an ordinary person.
After being with Liu Zhanqiu, Li Ying asked to work in the editorial department of Poetry Magazine, euphemistically calling it closer to him.
Liu Zhanqiu promised to transfer her job, but she couldn't openly admit their relationship. Mars can only be his secret crush, and he can only pretend to be a stranger when he meets at work.
It's not good to have a crush on nature. Not only should you put your love underground when you go to work, but you should also go to Liu Zhanqiu to see if you have any acquaintances before you let Mars in.
Mars, who is madly in love, really wants to share her sweet love feelings with her relatives and friends, but such furtive and shady love naturally cannot be blessed. When the initial sweet excitement faded away, she could only chew silently.
A threesome on rapids island
When Li Ying finally couldn't stand the depressed and embarrassing relationship with Liu Zhanqiu, she chose to flee. This time, she came to Rapids Island in New Zealand to find the poet Gu Cheng. She said she was going there, but in fact she was involved in someone else's marriage again.
Li Ying and Gu Cheng met at a poetry meeting, and Gu Cheng is a representative of the obscure poetry school. At that time, misty poetry was attacked by some critics at the poetry meeting, and Li Ying stood up and supported Gu Cheng.
Since then, they have forged an indissoluble bond, and Xie Ye, Gu Cheng's wife, also attended the poetry meeting. They met by chance on the train, and they were very loving at first, but all this gradually changed with the appearance of Mars.
Because of Li Ying's "brave words" at the poetry meeting, Gu Cheng and his wife appreciated her very much. Xie Ye also regards her as a good friend, and they share a dormitory. Xie Ye told Li Ying the romantic story of their acquaintance and love, and Li Ying was very envious.
Gu Cheng is a very talented romantic poet, and his poems are dreamy and beautiful like fairy tales, which also deeply attracted Li Ying.
When Gu Cheng and his wife Xie Ye were preparing to go to New Zealand, Gu Cheng bid farewell to Li Ying, and Li Ying boldly confessed to Gu Cheng.
When Xie Ye was sitting there reading a magazine, Li Ying's bold move was really shocking. Perhaps from the moment she became Liu Zhanqiu's secret crush, she had no scruples about propriety, justice and shame, and she didn't care about the constraints of secular morality.
Behind Gu Cheng's romantic and beautiful fairy tale poems is a naive and selfish "giant baby". He doesn't care about his wife's feelings. Li Ying came to see him, and he quickly offered to help with all kinds of formalities.
Xie Ye earned all the expenses by selling eggs on the island. Xie Ye, who suffered humiliation again and again, welcomed Li Ying and started a threesome.
Li Ying, who escaped from her secret love status and came to the island to become an aboveboard third party, didn't expect Gu Cheng, a talented person she once admired infinitely, to be so paranoid, but her dream of free life was poor and boring.
When the ideal shines into reality, she finds that reality has always been a chicken feather.
On Rapids Island, they have no financial resources. Gu Cheng doesn't allow her to find a job. They live on welfare. The house where she lives is broken, and most of the residents around her are tired of the world to escape here.
What is even more unbearable is that mentally, she is just a "shadow" from Gu Cheng. She seems to have no freedom of action and thought. When someone came to interview, she "consciously" hid by the sea. Gu Cheng sometimes gets angry and hysterical for no reason, which makes people suppress their fears.
Escape from the tragedy brewing again
After living in such a painful environment for a long time, Li Ying finally had a chance to escape. Gu Cheng and his wife were invited to give lectures in Germany, and Li Ying took the opportunity to leave. Married and settled in Sydney with an old English teacher on the island. She thought she had finally escaped from the pain, but it led to a greater tragedy.
Attend to city to go home, found that Mars left very surprised and anxious. She immediately looked around and finally learned that Li Ying had married an Englishman. He was in great pain. He wrote a book "Yinger" to tell the story between them, which was full of his deep affection.
This book was dictated by Gu Cheng and typed word for word by his wife Xie Ye. It is hard to imagine what kind of torture and suffering it is for a wife to listen to her husband's deep affection for other women.
However, after a threesome, it is not surprising that they have a deformed marriage.
After these emotional tortures, Xie Ye finally decided to divorce Gu Cheng, but Gu Cheng didn't agree. They had a fight. Gu Cheng may be out of control and have a seizure. In a trance, Lieutenant General Xie Ye hanged himself after scribbling several suicide notes, while Xie Ye died after being rescued.
Li Ying, who is far away in Sydney, is very sad to learn such news. Unexpectedly, her departure brought such a tragedy, and Yinger's publication pushed her to the forefront.
Public opinion has accused her of being the chief culprit of everything. She is extremely painful and even schizophrenic. Wen Xin, a former friend, said that "Li Ying lost her personality, Xie Ye lost her life and Gu Cheng lost her life".
forgive sb's past misdeeds
For a period of time after the death of Gu Cheng and his wife, Li Ying's inner world was restless. She is under the double pressure of inner self-blame and external public criticism, and dare not show up in the Chinese world. Soon after, she also divorced the British man, but she also got a green card.
Time flies, Li Ying, who is no longer young, reunited with Liu Zhanqiu in Sydney. At this time, Liu Zhanqiu divorced, and abroad, the lovers met again. They are all one person, and they can finally get married formally. In the last journey of life, they walked hand in hand.
After half their lives, they can finally live a good life, but Mars has nasopharyngeal carcinoma. Most people turn pale at the smell of cancer, but they don't take it seriously.
Liu Zhanqiu even said that this was caused by disharmony between Yin and Yang in the body. Li Ying didn't go to the hospital for formal treatment, but used a set of methods they believed in. Three years later, Li Ying died of illness.
She was only fifty years old at this time. All the previous entanglements disappeared like dust with her departure.
Li Ying intervened in other people's marriages twice in her life, acting as a secret love, and the life that ended hastily was embarrassing. Some people say that life lies in choice, and what choice she makes is doomed to the end.