Lifelong loyalty is a name, and the next sentence is

Half my life is full of ups and downs. The original sentence is that fame exists in a person's life, and there are endless ups and downs in his half life, which means that he has been an honest man all his life, and the hardships and difficulties in his half life have never been said. This sentence shows the author's indifferent poem "Qingming Festival to Worship the Ancestors". The whole poem expresses grief for his father through apricot rain, yellow crane, old mother, wife and children.