Wearing funny clothes
Do interesting moves
I know I will do many stupid things to please you.
Knowing that you became reluctant when you left me.
I despise the smirk on my face.
My behavior has to go against my will.
When I threw three wine bottles into the air
I finally couldn't bear the inner condemnation.
Torture yourself and betray yourself.
Become the laughing stock of everyone.
I don't like this profession.
I don't like its fake smile.
But I have to do this to make a living.
Watching everyone laugh.
I smiled, too
Laugh that your life problems have been solved.
Maybe I've been laughing.
Those watercolors are painted on my face.
Erased my self-esteem
I play the fool on stage.
When I feel my grievances come to my mind
Tears welled up in my eyes.
Tears slide down.
My fake smiling face will become ugly
But the audience doesn't know
Thought it was for the plot.
My poor self-esteem means nothing here.
I tried to control my emotions.
Dry your tears.
Hide grievances in your heart
Keep pretending to be crazy and fooling around.
Show a shameful smile
I dare not cry.
If I screw up the show, I'll be a mess.
When I put on normal clothes
Who will know that I am a clown?
I don't like these performances.
But those idiots like it
So I did it.
So I became famous.
But I paid a very heavy price
I lost my self-esteem.
When you buy tickets for my performance,
I thank you.
Smile when you watch my performance.
I hate you.
But I dare not express it.
Because I'm just a clown.
Even if I cry alone at night
Nobody cares.
But here,
I will try my best to play the fool in this performance.
Because I'm just a clown.