I don't remember when you left me, only when I was very young.
since you left, I seem to be dead.
I began to do things against my will. I hate this, but I can't get rid of this idea.
I won't do this when you are around.
in the new semester, the teacher asked me how old I was! I forgot, I have to calculate, I'm not good at math, you know. Even if it is counted, it will take so long to get the result.
I like art, as you know. I want to paint. However, I went online again.
I want to draw, but I don't know. Looking at that paper, I can't write.
I think my skills are getting worse and worse!
you will be sad when you see my recent paintings.
I want you back, but I can't.
I can think, but I can't.
I could have done it, but after you left, I can't do it anymore.
you told me, be yourself, and don't care what others say or say.
but I can't. You will be disappointed. The original me can ignore others and be myself.
maybe it's an act of god.
after you left, he came.
he won't let me be myself and be myself.
gradually, I got used to being myself.
gradually, I began to hate myself because of him.
He wants me to be the teacher's treasure and the pride of my parents.
I don't want it. I want to be free. I'm not a prisoner and I won't be a prisoner.
I just want to be myself!
but I can't.
every night, I tell me that tomorrow, you will come back.
every morning, I suddenly find that you may never come back!
every day, you can only live by loneliness.
life is unhappy without you.
to make matters worse, he came again. It is so difficult for me to be happy when he comes. Soon, loneliness came.
if you still love me, come back!
I hate you. What will I do if you leave?
but I love you, too.