It is said that "giving someone a rose has a lingering fragrance", but the "rose" that those people gave to teenagers is a broken heart full of scars and suffering.
It was an era when "Korean actors" and "female men" were not popular in China, and it was generally believed that boys should be resolute.
If you act like a girl, you will be regarded as an alien, and A is what others think-the so-called "alien".
When I was a child, A Yi had fine eyes, fair skin, shy personality and didn't like talking to people.
He doesn't like sports that ordinary boys like, mountain climbing and martial arts stars.
Neighbors are worried every time they see their aunt's mother: "Your son is becoming more and more like a girl. It will be fine when he grows up. Hurry up and correct it while he is young. "
My aunt's mother was very upset when she mentioned this. She once reported Taekwondo to her son, but after less than two weeks of study, her aunt also clamored not to go.
Later, she enrolled him in interest classes such as basketball, calligraphy and football. In order to let my son have more contact with boys' things, they all failed. Later, she found that her son likes to play house or dolls with girls.
At that time, Xiao, after many corrections, the mother thought that her son would change when he grew up, so she didn't care much.
But what my mother doesn't know is that the boys in the neighborhood especially reject Ayi and regard playing with him as a shame.
As long as you meet Ah Yi on the road, you deliberately walk around him, as if you saw something dirty, or a group of people came to boo him and said three words "sissy".
When Ayi was in junior high school, his father's business failed and he couldn't afford to go to school in the city anymore.
So he sent his son back to his hometown to study and decided to make a comeback.
But it was this gift that became the beginning of Ah Yi's nightmare.
A Yi, who is thirteen or fourteen years old, is already a teenager, and her height is gradually getting higher. Her face is white and her lips are red, which is slightly childish. He speaks in a soft voice, which is extremely pleasant to hear.
As soon as I entered the new school, I was elected to the choir by my teacher and became one of the few male students in the choir.
Ayi's voice is gentle and magnetic, especially suitable for harmony. It is a rare tone in male voice, and the music teacher attaches great importance to it.
But boys the same age don't think so. In a group of thick male voices, Ah is a real alien.
As soon as they get to class, they will make fun of and laugh at Ah Yi.
If Ah Yi runs to the toilet, they will whistle at the door and shout, "You are in the wrong place. The ladies' room next door is where you should go.". 』
Then a group of people burst into laughter.
A Yi always waits until the bell rings before coming out of the toilet and rushing back to the classroom.
Besides, they also threatened Ayi to help them with their homework, or they would take off his pants to tell whether it was a man or a woman. Ah was also humiliated, but the other side was outnumbered and his closest parents were not around. He was forced to give in, but this was the beginning of all unreasonable conditions.
A Yi has to copy five people's homework after finishing it at school every day, and the answers are not exactly the same, otherwise the teacher will find out.
Doing homework alone is not enough to satisfy them. Aunt has a fixed allowance from 200 yuan every month.
Somehow, they found out that as long as they had no money, they threatened their aunt with homework and asked him to buy them snacks or drinks. They called it a treat, but they accepted everything shamelessly.
But what they don't know is that this 200 yuan is aunt's lunch fee for one month.
Since they found out, he can only buy one or two yuan of steamed bread to satisfy his hunger at noon every day. Sometimes physical education class needs to run, and when he is hungry, he runs the whole course. ......
Aunt's grades are average in her class, but bully is a famous class bully in her school.
One mid-term exam, one of them, A Sheng, was in the same examination room as A Yi.
During the exam, Ah Sheng kept gesturing for Ah Yi to show him the answer, but Ah Yi ignored it.
So, A Sheng grabbed Ayi's test paper directly and copied it fiercely while the invigilator was not paying attention.
As soon as the invigilator saw that there was no test paper on Ah Yi's desk, he understood what was going on, and gave Ah Sheng a good training and conducted it in informed criticism.
For a time, Ah produced the negative teaching material of the school, but instead of repenting, he developed revenge.
One day after school, A Yi finished her homework and went home as usual. When he passed a quiet intersection, a dozen people suddenly rushed out and surrounded him.
When the leader gave the order, everyone slapped him hard, and Ah Yi was black and blue all at once, which could not satisfy them. Several of them smashed Ayi's bike with iron bars and then sank directly into the pond.
It was Ayi's beloved bike, a birthday gift from his father, and the sustenance of his parents' thoughts, but it was destroyed by them.
Long-term humiliation and unbearable anger reignited, and he fought back hard, only to get a dozen kicks in turn.
The whole process lasted more than half a minute, which was the darkest moment in Ayi's life.
Occasionally someone passes by, shakes his head and leaves. No one came to stop their atrocities. A Sheng was the initiator and commander of all this.
On that day, Ah Yi limped home scarred, and when grandparents saw this scene, their anger and regret lingered.
At first, when Ah Yi was bullied by Ah Sheng and others, he told his grandparents, but he was greeted by: "Ah Yi, you should relax. It's okay for boys to have fun. 』
Occasionally, he would call his parents to complain, but every time before he finished, there was a very impatient voice on the other end of the phone: "Well, aunt, I am very busy at work, and I don't want to hear what you say." You never think about whether you have done something wrong or why others are always targeting you. 』
Even the closest person feels that he is wrong, maybe it is really his own fault, but no one tells him where it is wrong.
So, after numerous bullying, he can only bear it silently, and he doesn't know who to talk to. ......
However, this bullying incident is no small matter. After the grandparents got the ins and outs from the aunt, they immediately called their son and daughter-in-law, and the next morning they took their aunt to the school to find the principal. ......
Suddenly, A Yi's long-term bullying spread all over the campus, and his grandparents realized that what they once thought was trivial enough to destroy a teenager.
Ayi transferred to another school. He was taken back by his parents, and his bully had to suspend school for a month in addition to apologizing.
But soon after Ayi left, those people dropped out of school.
Since then, Ah has never seen them again. Occasionally, I went back to my hometown and learned something about them from my grandparents, so I was silent.
For Ayi, two years of school violence in his hometown has become an indelible pain.
For the next four years, he has been living in a bipolar world of pain and self-healing, but fortunately, his parents have been with him all the time, especially in the third year of high school, when they temporarily put down their work to accompany the exam.
In the new school, A Yi met a group of like-minded friends and gave him a warm hug after learning about his experience in an accidental night chat.
They made an appointment: every year, whenever Ayi's birthday comes, they will get together to celebrate his birthday no matter where they are.
Until now, this agreement has been fulfilled every year.
A friend once said to Ayi, "When I met you, your heart was full of holes, but you were not wrong. Why did you let those people's atrocities prove it-it's all your fault?
I used to think that it has been a long time since I met you, but teenagers have their own roses and starlight, and they should also have oceans and distant places. As friends, we will always accompany you at every important moment in your life. 』
Jolin Tsai & The story of "Rose Boy" in Mayday originated from a Taiwan Province boy named Ye Yongzhi who was bullied to death on campus because of his femininity. Jolin Tsai once put this tragic story on the concert stage to warn the public to be kind to different people around him.
When Ah Yi first heard this song, he was already a college student. Those who had hurt him had blurred their faces with the passage of time, but the pain of punching and kicking at that time was still fresh in his memory.
Ayi listened to this song for the second time, now. He is 26 years old and works in a youth assistance center in his hometown. The purpose is to help more children who suffer from school violence like him get out of trouble. ......
Some people who hurt Ayi got married and had children early, some were sentenced for breaking the law, and some wanted to apologize for their wrong behavior when they recognized Ayi on the road many years later, but they didn't know how to speak. ......
However, a rose boy like aunt never wants to say "I'm sorry".
Man's cause and effect have their own cycle. May the rose boy who is still bound in this world walk out of the abyss and meet the dawn; I wish there were no rose boys in this world. ......