Taking off the writer's aura, as an ordinary person, he betrayed his marriage and failed to brave enough to love, which eventually led to his life, his wife Hu Qing and his lover Zhao Qingge. Is he scum or not? Today, 55 years after he committed suicide by jumping into the lake, how to understand him?
The acquaintance of two young artists is 1899. Lao She was born in Beijing, then called Shu Qingchun. His father was a Manchu guard who died in Eight-Nation Alliance's invasion of Beijing shortly after Lao She was born. Six years later, 1905, Hu Qing was born in Beijing, also Manchu. At that time, they were on their own life track. Although they met with troubled times, they all grew up well enough. After Lao She's father died, her mother worked odd jobs to make a living. With the support of good people, Lao She entered the school. He is studious and ambitious, and he was admitted to Beijing Normal School at public expense. /kloc-at the age of 0/9, he was specially appointed as the principal of a primary school. Later, he published novels in newspapers and periodicals one after another, and his fame gradually increased, and his career as a writer gradually took shape. Hu Qing's family conditions are superior. She received a good education since childhood, likes painting and calligraphy, and is also a disciple of master Qi Baishi. She is an excellent young woman in literature and art, and in the early spring of 1930, fate arranged for these two people to meet. As a student representative, Hu Qing, who is still studying in Beijing Normal University, invited Lao She to give a literature lecture. This is the first time they have met. Later, under the matchmaking of relatives and friends of both sides, the two met several times and they both had a good impression on each other. At that time, Hu Qing was in Beijing and Lao She was teaching in Jinan. Great writers began to "spread the book by Hongyan" and wrote a letter one day to express their feelings. In a letter, he wrote: "You and I are both Manchu people and have the same living habits. You are very studious, and I know a lot about history and literature. We are bilingual and can live together. " Which girl can resist the frequent confession of a famous writer? In addition, Hu Qing also has a good impression on him. In the end, Lao She successfully captured Hu Qing's woman heart with the romance of "100 letters".
With such a wife, what can a husband ask for? 193 1 In July, Hu Qing and Lao She got married. Talented people and beautiful women are a match made in heaven.
After marriage, she took Lao She as her home. Lao She taught in Jinan, so she followed him to Jinan and taught literature in local primary and secondary schools. They had a wonderful time in Jinan, Shandong. The children were born one after another, and the days were lively and happy. Until 1937 War of Resistance against Japanese Aggression broke out, Lao She couldn't sit still. Although he didn't say it clearly, Hu Qing knew clearly that he wanted to "give up his family for everyone." In this regard, many people say that Lao She "escaped" from her family under the guise of participating in the revolution, but in the final analysis, it is just speculation. Scholars are full of idealism, and it is normal to want to serve the motherland in such a special period. In the end, Hu Qing, a caring person, offered his support and Lao She left safely. He went to Wuhan to manage some affairs of the All-China Anti-Enemy Association of Literary and Art Circles, while Hu Qing took the children back to Beijing. In that turbulent era, she had to take care of her children and support her elderly mother-in-law. Needless to say, it was hard work. As an intellectual woman, Hu Qing is willing to stay in Lao She's "rear area" and play three important roles: wife, mother and daughter-in-law. This is not out of love for Lao She. What is this? Hu Qing used "the kitchen under the hall" to describe it most appropriately. With such a wife, what can a husband ask for? It stands to reason that Lao She should be content and cherish. Maybe that's what he thinks. However, I don't know what made fate let him meet another person-Zhao Qingge.
Encounter another beautiful love Lao She first went to Wuhan, and then moved to Chongqing with the Federation of Literary and Art Circles. The leaders looked at Lao She as busy as a fiddle. Out of kindness, they sent him an assistant, namely Zhao Qingge. That year, Zhao Qingge was a 24-year-old young woman as beautiful as flowers and pure as jade. It is said that her works were directed by Mr. Lu Xun himself. In the year when Lao She published Camel Xiangzi, she published her first film literary script model in Female Culture. It is because of some talents that I was recommended to be Lao She's assistant.
At first, the two were just ordinary cooperative relations, but the two people who had a good impression on each other still failed to resist "love for a long time." Lao She is an inarticulate person. He once said that when she met a woman, she would feel constrained, but it happened that Zhao Qingge was a neutral woman in character and appearance. Working with her makes Lao She feel very comfortable. Two people have endless words, the work is becoming more and more tacit understanding, but also * * * with the creation of drama. In this way, unconsciously, feelings have changed. Then two people moved in together. As far away as Beijing, his wife Hu Qing is still taking care of the elderly and children. As a father, husband and son, Lao She only remembers that he is a man and started a new love. But paper can't wrap the fire. Besides, Lao She is a celebrity. Someone told Hu Qing about him and Zhao Qingge. 1942 autumn, Hu _ Qing took care of her mother-in-law, and there was nothing to hold back in Beijing, so she took her children to Chongqing. I haven't seen her for five years. Did her husband really change his mind? She'll find out. She didn't tell Lao She before she went, so there was an interesting legend later. It is said that Lao She was eating at that time. Suddenly, a comrade from the Federation of Literary and Art Circles came in and said that Hu Qing and the children had come, which scared Lao She that "all the chopsticks had dropped". Maybe he thought this day would come, but when it did, he was at a loss. A heart, when it is lonely, is most likely to fall, immerse itself in it and can't stop, no matter right or wrong. This can bring people temporary happiness, but more pain.
Men have a hard choice, one is marriage and family, the other is freedom of love. What choice will Lao She make? For an instant, he really panicked. Because he didn't know how to face it, he didn't go to see Hu Qing and the children, but asked the comrades of the Federation of Literary and Art Circles to help arrange accommodation. Later, for 20 days, Lao She didn't have the courage to ask for a divorce and didn't want to say goodbye to Zhao Qingge. He's so tangled and miserable. Seeing Lao She, Zhao Qingge was somewhat disappointed, thinking that Lao She couldn't give her the birthright she wanted, so she packed up and left Chongqing. Later, Lao She reluctantly returned to her family, and Hu Qing chose to forgive and accept. It's easy to ruin a relationship. On the surface, Lao She returned to his family, but in his heart, he kept thinking about Zhao Qingge. After some time, he secretly resumed his correspondence with Zhao Qingge.
Once, he couldn't help missing Zhao Qingge, so he went to Shanghai to find her. Unexpectedly, his wife, Hu Qing, somehow got the news and even chased Shanghai. At this time, Lao She was once again pushed to the edge of the cliff-she had to make a choice! This time, he said to Zhao Qingge, "Let's try our best to escape to a distant place and find a quiet place to live. I write books, you draw pictures, make friends with the breeze, make friends with the moon, let the sky fall, and our love will last forever! " Very romantic, but at this time, Zhao Qingge was very clear-headed. She saw through Lao She's "escape" mentality and rejected this "elopement" proposal. In desperation, Lao She obediently went home. 1946 Lao She was invited to give lectures in the United States. It was supposed to be a year, but he stayed there for four years. During these four years, he didn't care about the life of his wife and children, but he always missed Zhao Qingge. 1948, Lao She wrote to Zhao Qingge again, saying, "I bought a house in Manila. Let's settle down there and reunite. " There is a saying that what you can't get is always in turmoil. After 1942 was discovered by his wife Hu Qing, he invited 1948 to "elope" again. For six years, Lao She has been making a painful choice. Reason told him that he should not betray his marriage and return to his family, but he couldn't help it emotionally, which made him unable to give up Zhao Qingge. He is really miserable.
A letter came to say goodbye: "We live in the same city and will never meet again." Feelings are two people's business. How can three people get tangled up? In fact, there should be an end to this. But who will end it? 1949, after the founding of New China, many exiled literati began to return home one after another. Lao She also received an invitation, but she was unmoved, perhaps because she didn't want to face Hu Qing. But after receiving the letter from Zhao Qingge, he immediately set off for home. In fact, Zhao Qingge was persuaded to come back. Unconsciously, Lao She was filled with joy and thought that Zhao Qingge would meet him at the airport. But I didn't expect that he only received a letter from the trustee in Zhao Qingge. He opened it and saw only two words: "One side of the city, never meet again." The simpler and clearer, Lao She understood Zhao Qingge's despair. As a man who loves her, he doesn't understand her inner pain, but he still doesn't have the courage to ask for a divorce. On the one hand, he must have feelings and responsibilities for Hu Qing and his children, and it is impossible to say abandonment so easily. On the other hand, divorcing and going to Zhao Qingge is just to solve love rat's accusation, which is not what he wants. So life is a wrong step, especially on emotional issues. Once he takes the wrong key step, no matter how he chooses later, it is wrong. He is too painful. At that special time, he was tortured both mentally and physically, so jumping into the lake to commit suicide was an escape and a relief.
Three "gifted scholars and beautiful women" wrote a tragedy. Hu Qing, Zhao Qingge and Lao She are all typical gifted scholars and beautiful women. They should have their own happiness, but they became a tragedy when they met. Hu _ Qing, a woman in the new era, is knowledgeable. She studied painting under Master Qi Baishi, and later achieved excellent results in painting. She was hired as a first-class artist by Beijing China Painting Academy. She is a typical outstanding woman with the style of "a hall above and a kitchen below". But because of Lao She's betrayal, she lived in resentment and pain for the rest of her life. After Lao She committed suicide by jumping into the lake, she was accused of being too indifferent.
In her later years, Hu Qingge showed her literary talent at the age of 24. Judging from her later practice, she is not the kind of woman who insists on destroying other people's families. She wants love, and if she can't get it, she will never meet each other. She won't base her happiness on other people's pain. Unfortunately, after all, she is too sentimental, never married and cursed all her life.
In his later years, Lao She, Zhao Qingge, jumped from 1942 to 1966. His wandering and struggling in 14 reflects his cowardice from one side. On the other hand, it may also highlight his efforts to keep the bottom line of being a man, but he did not feel guilty for abandoning his wife and children. He can't do it. The people of Sri Lanka have passed away and the tragedy has become a reality. Who is to blame? We should always remember that there is no right person at the wrong time. Some encounters are better than none. After a thrilling love, I turned myself into a story in the eyes of others, making others feel happy, but it was myself who suffered and failed. Don't be greedy. Sometimes, wanting to have more may just be a disappointment in life. The dullness of life and inner peace are the greatest happiness in life. Author: Xinhai Editor: Xiaoyang Audit: Blue Orange