It's a pity that she only lived for 51 years and then left the world in a hurry, leaving the people who loved her and needed her.
I have the honor to read one of her books, and this is the only book: You are April on earth. The book has 234 pages, including 48 poems, 7 essays and 3 novels.
I opened the book and read a few poems, and found that I couldn't understand the author's implication completely. I didn't feel anything after drinking a mouthful of boiled water .............................................................................................................................. Because I still don't understand some sentences, maybe it's because of the vernacular. Anyway, it's awkward to read, but fortunately, I understand the general meaning. (Otherwise, I will throw away this book, haha ...)
But outside the next window, there is a piece of sunshine, spider silk and plum blossoms, and I still have a little knowledge. I have basically understood the last three novels. Suddenly I felt that the book I bought was really "worth it". Going back to the previous poems, I just finished reading these forty poems on the premise that I could hardly read any of them, thinking that I had finally finished my task, otherwise the book would have been bought for nothing.
Because this book is read for nothing, because most people don't know what it tells you after reading it. So I Baidu "Lin Huiyin". At this point, my understanding of her gradually increased.
Let's talk about Xu Zhimo. It's said that Xu Zhimo has a wife Zhang Youyi, but he still has a deep attachment to Lin Huiyin, and Lin Huiyin seems to be attached to Xu Zhimo. Oh, my God, my concept of love has been impacted. Why do you say that? Because Lin Huiyin was seriously ill when he was dying, he had to meet the children of Zhang Youyi and Xu Zhimo. This is very strange. It can be said that although Lin Huiyin married Liang Sicheng, she has always loved Xu Zhimo.
But one day in the late 195s, Jin Yuelin suddenly called all his old friends to dinner. During this period, Jin Yuelin said, "Today is Lin Huiyin's birthday." Many people at the scene hid their faces and cried after listening. This is also an irony that Liang Sicheng married his student Lin Zhu after Lin Huiyin died of illness.
To sum up, Lin Huiyin and Liang Sicheng got married, but they loved Xu Zhimo and Jin Yuelin all their lives. I don't know whether they loved them all their lives. But rest assured, at least during their marriage with Liang Sicheng, the two of them also loved each other.
What about Liang Sicheng? He married and fell in love with Lin Huiyin. After Lin died, he married his student Lin Zhu. We can think that Liang Sicheng and Lin Huiyin really loved each other when they got married, and they also really loved Lin Zhu when they got married with Lin Zhu.
Xu Zhimo married Zhang Youyi, even if he loved Zhang Youyi, but he also loved Lin Huiyin, and in our current words, he was a stalker. Because Lin Huiyin and Liang Sicheng were married, Xu Zhimo clearly showed his love for Lin Huiyin. Where can Liang Sicheng and Zhang Youyi go?
I don't know about Zhang Youyi, but I guess I have loved Xu Zhimo silently all my life.
What I admire most is Jin Yuelin, who really loves only one person all his life and has never married for it. His love is great.
Lin Huiyin, Liang Sicheng, Xu Zhimo, Zhang Youyi and Jin Yuelin, the love story between them is like a spider's web, which is really "awesome". However, because people are all scholars, even so, there is no swearing, there is no official palace to fight for a mistress, and there is no such thing as holding a guy desperately. It really amazes me! .....
Scholars are just different.
Finally, I want to say that people will fall in love with many people in this life, and they can fall in love with many people, but I hate falling in love with two people at the same time, because my current view of love doesn't allow this and I hate it very much! But it's easier said than done. What if you meet two equally excellent girls at the same time, and you have love for both of them, and the other person has a good impression on you? How to explain this? Human nature? I don't understand ... Maybe this is one of the reasons why concubines were allowed in feudal times. !
After re-editing this essay two years later, my thoughts are different from those I felt at the beginning. Perhaps I have understood a little about Xu Zhimo, Zhang Youyi, Lin Huiyin, Liang Sicheng and Jin Yuelin.
Because I used to be a similar job and became the kind of person I used to hate.
It's a bit ridiculous, it's really ridiculous ...
Or love is a kind of embodiment of the most primitive desire. Just like some animals, there is no family concept, but only survival of the fittest, reproduction and mating! I am stronger than you. If I beat you, your female family members will become a member of my family and reproduce and mate with me ... < P > I think people also have this most primitive desire and idea, even if it is skipped from their minds for a moment, it can be suppressed by moral and ethical concepts, because we are human beings. Just because the jungle law of human life does not allow this, such as morality, ethics and so on, we need to restrain ourselves in the face of this inner desire, and we are a person! Otherwise, it's like animals!
I liked a person in junior high school. She was also the first and only girl who chased me. It was the first love. (It means a lot to me)
I liked someone in college and chased him for two years. (the most influential girl)
Then I fell in love with a girl and talked for two months. (I'm an asshole, so I shouldn't talk about it)
I fell in love with a girl when I went to Guangzhou to work. Although it was short-lived, it may also be an illusion caused by long-term singles. (Like a gust of wind)
So far, I am single, and I have no desire to fall in love. I like a free state. How can I evaluate myself? Affectionate? I don't think so. None of the above is a story of a period.
Now my idea is that if you love one person, you will love one person exclusively. After separation, you can come out and fall in love with another person when you meet someone you like. Being exclusive is not to love only one person all your life, but to love each other exclusively when you love someone.
I hope I can meet someone like me when I am good enough, and then I will only love her for the rest of my life! Grow old together!
the edge is deep and shallow, but the edge gathers and spreads, so don't climb with the edge!