Fireworks in Heaven
Written by Qin Yingliang
The First Night
This is the fragrant April night of lilac, the last thing I smell in this world Yes, this is the fragrance.
It's that simple. Taking advantage of the night, gently gliding out from the sixth floor window of the girls' dormitory, it was like a roller coaster in an amusement park, but it could never return to the starting point. When I landed on the ground outside the lilac hedge, it was as if all the lilacs in the world suddenly turned towards me, emitting an endless, sharp, painful aroma.
What happened next was completely beyond my imagination.
I lay motionless on the ground, thinking everything was over. However, as time passed by, my thoughts were still as clear as crystal. I heard the noise on the volleyball court in the distance, and the girls who had finished their self-study were talking and laughing loudly, and they were walking towards the dormitory building in groups. It won't be long before someone finds me. I tried to stand up from the ground, but couldn't move.
"Alas, child," someone was saying not far away, "get up quickly and leave that body."
I don't understand this sentence. However, with just a slight thought, I stood up gently.
Like taking off an old piece of clothing, I left my body, shivering with cold, and looked down at the motionless girl on the ground wearing a gray-purple tutu in confusion. I didn't dare to look at her face or her closed eyes under her messy black hair.
At the same time, I discovered that when I stood up in the night, my body was almost transparent, and only my fingertips and hair tips were shining with a very faint light. If it weren't for these lights, I wouldn't even be able to see myself. What surrounds me is no longer the warm April air, but an unknown substance as thin as ice and as green as moonlight, with countless small arrows shooting in it. However, they did not hurt me at all, some brushed me, some penetrated me, and flew into the unknown darkness.
"What is this?" I couldn't help but ask, looking at the shower of small arrows in surprise.
"Time. You see the time now." The voice not far away replied gently.
"Time?"
"Yes, when time means nothing to you, you can see it."
Between heaven and earth It seemed to be a huge hall with the doors and windows removed, and gusts of cold wind blew from outside. I hugged myself tightly and walked in the direction of the sound. Suddenly, a small mobile stall decorated with colorful lights lit up in front of his eyes. It was full of lovely illusions that kept flickering and could not be seen clearly. You have to look carefully to see an old woman with a transparent figure like me standing behind the stall. She was wearing a dark-colored dress with a small yellow handkerchief tied around her neck. This reminds me of my late grandmother, who also liked to put a dust-proof gauze scarf on the collar of her sweater. However, looking closely, she doesn't look like her grandmother.
"Who are you...?" Although I felt it was impolite to ask, I still asked.
"I am your guide."
"So, I have really left the world?"
Behind the colorful lights , she smiled: "Come on. The first scream will start soon. When someone finds you lying there, you have really left."
"Then, I What to do?"
"Roll these two dice," she said simply.
The running lights, flowers and animals on the stall all stopped and retreated into the shadows. The two dice seemed to be illuminated by a spotlight at once, one was snow white and the other was jet black. The dice are covered with unclear numbers.
I held the dice in my hand. One is as light as a feather, one is as heavy as a lead bullet, one is as hot as a candle flame, and the other is as cool as a snowflake. Because of the cold, because of this wonderful feeling, I couldn't hold them at all. In an instant, the two dice rolled onto the bed. The white one is "1" and the black one is "2".
"You are granted three days of residence on earth."
At this moment, a piercing scream came from the lilac hedge, breaking the quiet April night . Then, the screams started one after another and turned into hysterical wails. The sounds of running, questioning, and shouting merged into a tense sound, and the crowd was surrounding the accident site. I glanced over there and sighed
"But, I've already left there!"
"That's right, but you can still stay for three days. After that, The door connecting the two worlds is closed forever."
"But what should I do in these three days?"
"Go and walk around, see your relatives. The place I liked before. Heaven will arrange a little show for you.”
“I don’t want it,” I said decisively, “I have nothing to miss.”
< p>"You kid, don't you want to see your parents? Don't you have any particularly good friends? You are so young and you don't have any boys you like?""They are all not worth remembering. Otherwise, I would be like this... ..."
The old woman shook her head and said: "After so many years of being a guide, I have seen a lot of children like you. Reluctant to part with it.
Sigh——"
"If there is a traffic accident or someone who dies of illness... please give me these three days to him. "I said disapprovingly.
The old woman's face suddenly became terrifyingly serious: "Stop talking! The rules of heaven cannot be changed. You kid, you are so thoughtless, fragile, and incredibly confused. ”
“This is my own life, I have this freedom. Right? "I pushed back, feeling strange myself. In fact, I am an introverted and shy girl, and I never conflict with others. Now standing here, I feel relaxed and comfortable, even if I go against anyone's will. Not caring.
The old woman stared at me and slowly reached out to an orange flower-shaped button and clicked it.
It made a jingle, like an automatic candy vending machine. Like a machine, something rolled out in front of me. It was a round, light blue fruit candy.
“This is a small gift from heaven. "The old woman seemed tired of talking to me. She lowered her head and started to clean up the bed, and the colorful lamps were extinguished one by one, looking very depressed.
I looked at this carefully A candy. The delicate light blue color made me feel sad for some reason. I put it in my mouth and immediately tasted a hint of sweetness. However, the more I tried to pursue it, the less it became. , leaving only the sad and astringent taste, which slowly melted on the tip of my tongue.
“The taste of this candy feels so familiar to me. "I couldn't help but say.
"Yes, that's the taste of your life. "The old woman said nonchalantly.
For a moment, I was stunned. The tears from my eyes flew away gently, with a tiny light, like the dust of stars surrounding me. .
The old woman shook her head with some pity: "The train to heaven leaves from here in three days, don't be late. "
"Then - where should I go now? ”
“You have nowhere to go, in other words, you can go anywhere. ”
The lights were completely extinguished, the stall disappeared, and the old woman left.
The second night
The sun shone on the lilacs and But there was no warmth at all. The flowers rose with a dark purple scent, intertwined with the light cyan mist of time around me. I slowly left the flowers and wandered in the shadow of the dormitory building. The scene has been cleared and a cordon has been temporarily blocked. There are still many students standing outside watching and talking for a long time. Surprised sighs can be heard everywhere.
By now, Komachi should have found me wrapped up in her. The letter is in the school uniform. The letter is very short:
Dad, Mom, Ashu, Komachi:
I hope you can live a better life without me.
p>When I wrote this letter, I felt a bone-chilling coldness in my heart. Now, this coldness is following me, as if it has penetrated deep into my bones, making me clench my teeth and shiver on this beautiful April day. I really wanted to get on the train to heaven and leave this world forever and completely.
But I saw Ashu running across the volleyball court in the early morning. Shu, his face was full of sadness and anxiety, as well as the tiredness of staying up all night. He probably called Komachi all night in the boys' dormitory, and he hurried over as soon as the dormitory door opened. I stared at Yue. Coming closer and closer, Ashu was surprised to find that in the fog of time, Ashu's image was constantly rippling and changing like the reflection on the water blown by the breeze.
Komachi came out of the women's dormitory with red and swollen eyes. As she ran down the sixth floor, she almost passed me standing in the shadow of the door. She must have been crying all night, feeling cold, scared and sad. She has never been so frightened and weak. Standing in the spring sunshine, she shivered with me. Like Ashu, Komachi's image flickered, as if it were a layer of transparent watermarks superimposed on the photo.
I stood aside silently, watching them desperately. Gradually, I understood that they were their overlapping memories, and they were also the endless future, thousands of things reflected in the background of time.
As if I was looking through a kaleidoscope, I looked at Ashu and Komachi in fascination - I saw the childish Ashu who had just started to walk; when he was in the first grade of elementary school, he was by the ditch. A Shu who cut branches to make windmills; A Shu who was diagnosed with myopia in junior high school and had to wear glasses; A Shu who met me for the first time in the gym; and A Shu who stood under the basketball hoop and seemed to have made a great decision and finally finally Ashu told me that he decided to apply for medical school.
Similarly, I also saw Komachi who had excellent grades from elementary school to high school and was regarded as a treasure by his family; Komachi who just joined the volleyball team and trained hard. ; Komachi who stretched out his hand to me clearly and said with a smile, "I really like your hair style"; Komachi who hid with me on the upper bunk of the dormitory, learning makeup, exchanging little secrets, and whispering; Komachi opened my eyes and said, "I want to apply for medical school."
I closed my eyes, and the intimate and joyful scenes from the past came to mind again.
"I really like your hairstyle!"
This is the first day of high school registration. I had just assigned a dormitory, and I sat on the lower bunk gloomily.
Other classmates were accompanied by their parents, but my parents, who have been separated for a long time, each thought that the other would come. In order not to meet, no one came. I have experienced loneliness since I was a student in junior high school. Now, the three years of loneliness are about to start all over again.
After the girl on the upper bunk arranged the decoration enthusiastically for a while, she suddenly poked her head out from the bed and said to me: "I really like your hairstyle! Your name is Xiao Wu, right?"
Unexpectedly, someone took the initiative to talk to me. I was surprised, raised my head and looked at her bright smiling face, and couldn't help but give her a shy but sincere smile in return.
"Hey, come up and see my bed!"
She stretched out a hand to pull me up. I was so embarrassed that I shook my head quickly and just climbed up the edge of the bed and looked up.
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Komachi’s bed is indeed very cute. The walls are covered with monochrome floral wallpaper, the small bookshelf is filled with books and records, and there are giraffes, zebras... and many stuffed animals on the bedside. I like the white gauze bed curtain she hung up the most. If you put up the bed curtain in the moonlight, it will look like a small palace inside!
"I haven't stayed in the dormitory yet! I'm so excited. I really want to decorate it into a cave... You can come up and play here often in the future, okay?"
Later, I I have always liked Komachi's bed, just like the way she opens her heart to others without reservation. The upper bunk in Komachi really became our secret cave. We pulled up the bed curtains, ate snacks, read magazines, listened to music, and whispered in there.
After Komachi joined the volleyball team, I, who was not good at sports, always waited for Komachi to finish training in the gym after school. Holding the brewed honey black tea in her hand and Komachi's mobile phone beside her, she held her chin and stared blankly at the volleyball court.
Finally one day, Ashu, who was participating in basketball training at the other end of the gym, ran up to me.
"Classmate, would you please look after your phone for me? There may be calls, so you can't leave it in the locker room. If there is a phone call, just call me." Ashu revealed his face and asked people to He smiled happily at the first sight, leaned down and said to me. It was an irresistibly friendly tone. I just nodded.
"Then, please!" Ashu ran back to the basketball court and turned around to wave to me. Ten minutes later, the phone actually rang. I picked up my phone in a panic and looked towards the basketball court. Should I shout? But what to shout? I stood up and walked hesitantly toward the court.
Komachi wiped the sweat with her wristband and ran towards me: "Xiao Wu, what's wrong?"
I raised the phone in my hand and pointed to the basketball court. She immediately Understood: "Whose is it?"
"The boy in the black sportswear."
Komachi immediately turned around, put his hands to his mouth, and walked towards the basketball court Called: "Classmate, phone number..."
That's it, the three of us got to know each other, became familiar with each other, and became good friends who talked about everything. I still spend every evening in the gym, waiting for Komachi and Ashu to finish training. The cup that holds honey black tea gets bigger and bigger, and finally I just changed it to a smaller thermos.
"Xiao Wu is the gentlest!" Ashu always said this deliberately while drinking the black tea I brewed.
"Why do you only praise Xiao Wu?" Komachi always pretends to be unconvinced.
"Because of you, your combat power index is too high! You fall down and get up again, you fall down and get up again... just like the big BOSS who has cleared the game!"
I thought it was so funny, I couldn’t stop laughing while hugging Komachi’s coat. Indeed, when Komachi was training, he seemed like a different person. Even if his knees were bruised and bruised, he never said a word. Ashu must also admire this very much!
Not long after we met, Ashu learned about my family situation. Both he and Komachi take special care of me, and I would do anything for them willingly. The outstanding Ashu and the equally outstanding Komachi are like twinkling stars in the crowd. Whether it is exams, sports meetings, or theatrical performances... I always applaud and cheer for them heartily.
I cherish the time spent by the three of us so much. Ashu and Komachi are like treasures that accidentally fell from the moon, more important than anything else.
In Komachi's secret "cave", I always said stubbornly: "We will not be separated even after we are admitted to college. We will not be separated after graduation."
"Okay! We will not be separated." Let’s find a job together and rent an apartment together.” Komachi would always answer me happily.
"I will come back from get off work early, cook delicious meals for you, clean the room, and raise pets!" I said as if I was immersed in the scene.
"Then I will be responsible for shopping, driving, and arranging travel routes!" Komachi also responded actively.
"Then we can't separate even after we get married. No matter what happens, we can't separate."
"Okay, okay!" Komachi said happily, and we always giggled. Hug into a ball. At this time, in my heart, all the doubts, fears and pessimism about the future were gone. I believed that with Komachi and Ashu by my side, I could go anywhere in the world.
The smiling face of the past overlaps with the painful face of today. Ashu took off his sportswear and put it on Komachi, and said in a hoarse voice: "Komachi, let me go to the cafeteria to buy some breakfast.
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Komachi's voice was speechless. She grabbed Ashu's hand and shook her head desperately.
They must not have thought of it. The gentle Xiao Wu, the shy Xiao Wu Mai, Xiao Mai, who never dared to speak loudly and was so attached to them, just left alone without looking back...
Before leaving, I wore Komachi's dress and quietly walked in Komachi's I stayed on the upper bunk for a long time, thinking about the past, and then I carefully tucked the written letter into Komachi's school uniform.
Although Komachi is taller than me, I still like to exchange clothes with Komachi. . The feeling of intimacy attracts me like a magnet. I particularly like Komachi’s gray-purple long-sleeved tutu, which is a little too long after wearing it, but its temperament is a bit mysterious.
“This dress is for you. "Komachi said to me more than once. I always shake my head desperately. I don't want to take away other people's beloved things.
But, I still took away this skirt. I hope Komachi can do it because of this Skirt, think of me more.
On this bright and sad April morning, I stand quietly beside them. Can I see their future without Xiaowu? What will the future be like?
It’s not that I haven’t felt that when Ashu and Komachi are together, they are closer, have more tacit understanding, and the atmosphere is more subtle. They can understand each other’s feelings by just exchanging glances. For this reason, they took care of my mood more apologetically and meticulously. I didn't want to pay attention to all this, let alone think about it carefully. I just naively held the firm belief that "we will never be separated." Faith.
However, my high school life is coming to an end. Which university to apply for has become the most important thing in my life. It was also at this moment that I realized that Komachi was always enthusiastic in the past. Ying He and I have never said what kind of school we want to go to or what kind of life we ??want to live. Is that because the strong have mercy on the weak?
The classes are so stressful that it’s hard to hold your head up. . Ashu and Komachi stopped training for a long time. My results were not good enough, but it was easier than them. At that time, the number of times the three of us got together gradually decreased, and even Komachi and I were together. There is also less time.
As an ordinary girl, I have no way of understanding the pressure in life that Ashu and Komachi bear because of their excellence. It was during those days when they were thinking about the future that the two of them made an appointment. ***Have you applied for medical university together?
"You said, you want to apply for medical university? "On the empty basketball court, I felt dizzy. With my grades, this is an institution of higher learning that I couldn't even imagine. These words were so far away that Ashu suddenly became a stranger.
“Hmm. However, I am not sure..." Ashu didn't look at me, holding on to the basketball stand. He must also be thinking about the words "three people will be together forever", right? The weakest and most ordinary me, would actually think that That is something that is easy to achieve.
Even in this mood, I did not forget to buy the mint cake that Komachi likes to eat.
“Komachi, I brought the mint cake back. . "
"Thank you! "Komachi reached out and took the snack from the upper bunk. I rested my head on her bedside and looked at her quietly.
"What's wrong, Xiaomai...Today is very different!"
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“Well, I’m thinking about applying for college. "Am I too sensitive? I feel that after saying these words, the air in the room seemed to freeze. Neither of us looked at each other, but we could clearly hear each other's breathing.
"I want to apply for a university in this province. This way, I am more confident, what do you think? "This is the first time I have spoken about this topic so rationally. After hearing my words, Komachi seemed to be relieved. She said enthusiastically: "Xiao Wu must have confidence, and she will definitely pass the exam! "
"What about you? "I asked naturally.
Komachi hesitated again, and I felt that she was hesitant to speak. Maybe she couldn't bear to deceive me, so she said with some difficulty: "My family prefers me to study medicine. , so... I want to get into a medical university. ”
At that moment, I truly believed that the era that belonged to the three of us had completely passed. Ashu and Komachi knew best that with my strength, it would be absolutely impossible for me to go to the Medical University. . It turns out that I am the only one who has been dreaming of being together forever? How long have they been determined to leave me?
"I know! Come on Komachi, I wish you success! "I showed my brightest smile to Komachi.
There is only so much we can do