They must have touched me, warmed me, or made me really sad and worried. Writing poetry is a personal matter. I think my disability is my life. Some things you can't change. What you can't change is fate ... you are in this place. You want to fly, but you can't afford it.
In the self-report "Interlaced World" distributed by Poetry magazine, Yu Xiuhua wrote:
I have always believed that a person has a close connection with something between heaven and earth, and then he has a deep love that he can't give up. This is fate. For example, my love, pain, pursuit and joy for poetry, and many disappointments-poetry links all the emotions in my life, and nothing makes me pay, persist, be grateful and expect so much, so I thank poetry for coming into my life, presenting me and hiding me.
It's true: when I first wanted to express myself in words, I chose poetry. Because I have cerebral palsy, it is difficult to write a word. It requires me to keep my balance with my greatest strength and press my right wrist with my left hand with my greatest strength before I can write it word by word. Of all the literary styles, poetry has the least number of words, so it is a matter of course.
At that time, the branch words could not be called poems, just some words I liked. I am so happy when those distorted words are written all over the book. When I showed my teacher diary poems, he left me a message: You are a lovely little girl, and everything in your life has become a poem. This simple sentence moved me very much. It is enough for a person to be praised as cute. I believe that such loveliness will accompany me all my life, and it does.
For me, I am complete, quiet and happy only when I write poetry. In fact, I have never been a quiet person. I am not reconciled to this fate, nor can I bear it. But all my struggles have failed, and I will curse the street and scold my mother. Of course, I am a peasant woman myself, and there is no reason to completely break away from its inferiority. But I never thought that poetry would become a weapon. Even if it is, I won't use it, because I love it too much, because I can't bear it. Even if there is no clean place polluted by this society, I am clean again when I return to poetry. Poetry has been washing me and pitying me.
I never thought about what poetry should be written and how to write it. When I am anxious about my personal life, I don't care about my country and mankind. When I wrote these contents at some time, they must have touched me, warmed me, or made me really sad and worried. If a person lives well, it means that society itself is good, and vice versa. As a person with obvious disability, my social tolerance reflects the soundness of society. So I think as long as I live seriously, my poetry will have a serious luster.
For example, this evening, I wrote this passage about poetry. In the noisy internet bar, no one knows my inner happiness and tranquility. I am the most taciturn team in the training of the provincial games (I am a chess player). I have nothing to say, and I prefer to watch the sky alone. I've said too much at this age. But poetry has always been with me. When I miss it, it won't refuse me.
What is poetry? I don't know, I can't say, but my mood is jumping or diving. However, when the mind calls, it comes naked, but it acts as a crutch when a person staggers in a rickety world.
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