Natalie, formerly known as Jiao Anpu, is a singer in Taiwan Province Province. Many people may not know it, but there is a song that many people like. She wrote the song "Baby" when 13 years old, and it was included in her first album many years later. Many people have only heard Karen Mok's other "Baby". I can't judge who sings well and who sings well, but from this we can see that she is a very talented woman.
I first met Natalie because I found her songs in an advertisement on TV and I will never forget it. Her songs have a rare peace. Every time I feel uncomfortable, I can't help but turn on her songs. Inner peace is the most comfortable. Almost all her songs are accompanied by guitar, and her soft voice naturally gives birth to a sense of silence. I believe music can guide the soul. Hearing a quiet song, the soul should not be agitated, because that is the most comfortable position in the heart.
Natalie has a detached view on the gains and losses of life. We were born in this world, came empty-handed and returned empty-handed. In the meantime, we can fight for what we have, and then enjoy this beauty. When the people and things we cherish leave one day, there will be a lot of sadness, and where do these sorrows come from? I think, half comes from the attachment to what I once had, and half comes from the sadness that life will eventually lose. Maybe everything before or now is a fluke, and there is no way to keep one thing forever. So she sang:
"Before we find out that we will eventually have nothing.
At least you can say.
I know the most lonely life.
All I have is luck.
What I lost was my life. "
Seems to be full of sadness. On second thought, instead of missing endless sadness after losing it, it is better to know from the beginning that all this will eventually be lost, let nature take its course and face the facts calmly. Those who should stay will naturally leave, and those who should stay will naturally stay. This is also a kind of sincere comfort to myself.
One of the characteristics of Natalie is that she can integrate her life feelings into love. She sings:
"You know, you used to make people love and be ignored.
After all, there is a timidity that can give silence.
Of all the forgotten pleasures.
I like you best. "
When I meet another person or just know someone, I am not familiar with her past, and neither is the other person. Just like in love, the other person probably went through another period on me before you, "someone once loved and passed by", and then met me. Perhaps for a new relationship, no one wants to mention the shortcomings of the past, so it is naturally best to let the past not disturb the present life in silence. However, the most unacceptable ending is: Do I become a part of each other's life as before? I don't think so if I'm lucky, but the fact is not so lucky. People used to be very nice, better than me, and finally we all left. Not to mention that we met by chance, but there is a great possibility of repeating the same mistakes. Going forward one by one is probably the normal state of life. So Zhang Xuan sang again:
"And I no longer feel that losing is reluctant.
Sometimes I just want to hear you sing a song.
Of all the landscapes that have changed.
I like you best.
I no longer feel "
Since life is normal, can we accept it calmly? Let's watch the person I love finish the last journey and sing the last song. If you lose it, you lose it. I no longer feel that I can't give up, and I no longer feel that my favorite is eternity. In this way, Zhang Xuan seems to be a pessimist between Schopenhauer and Nietzsche, and is not forbidden to enjoy everything in this world because of pessimism; Nor will it take the initiative to resist the reality in vain because of pessimism. Maybe we can get closer to Nietzsche. Although there is no superhuman will to deny fate, we just face the pessimistic ending of life more and treat it with an indifferent attitude. Either you have tasted the warmth and coldness of the world, or the pessimistic life has not yet fully arrived.
In Zhang Xuan's view, people in love are like being in a sea of fire. Some people think that the fire is getting bigger and bigger, lighting up for each other day and night. Life is natural and ordinary. Some people think that the fire must be put out. Some people are free and easy with their feelings, while others are trying to deal with their own emotional crisis. The result may be that this process is an opportunity to witness a miracle, or it may be a parting of ways. The most regrettable effort is not that the effort is fruitless, but that the effort is doomed to be an unacceptable futility. Zhang Xuan is calling for vigilance to admit the timeliness of the aesthetic feeling of love, and trying to pick up what others left behind may be futile in the end, otherwise how can it be discarded? ——
"So you kept scattering, and I kept picking it up.
On the distant road, we are gorgeous for each other day and night.
If you turn around, I turn around,
We will miss it.
So you've always loved me,
I can do my best,
On the distant road, even if the dust looks at the bright flame tonight,
I'll wait for you to turn around, and I won't turn around.
Do you want me?
If you want me. "
Children in the South and Baby are both Zhang Xuan's early works. If the baby is the overflow of parents' affection for their children, then the children in the south are just the self-comfort of orphans without father and mother. I am deeply touched by this. I have experienced fear, fear and sadness since I was a child, which did not appear in a happy childhood. On New Year's Eve, I was the only one at home. Although the night was getting deeper, I didn't choose to turn on the light at that time. Looking at the fireworks in the sky, looking at those lights, I can't help but envy, and my tears keep falling. New Year's Eve, a festival that makes all children crazy, has no trace on me. Slowly, with more days like this, I have become hard, and maybe I can't change the sad atmosphere. Fortunately, no one was blamed afterwards. The fear and fear I experienced in my childhood only made me feel deja vu when I met again. Like the children in the south, I have experienced unbearable experiences and shouldered an extraordinary mission for myself. Perhaps each victim has his own unique mission and has suffered hardships. If we realize that life is not always dark, it means that the bright side has been opened for us. Every child in the south has suffered, but he is not proud. This is the seed of hope. ——
"You are a child from the south, and your temper can't be tied.
Covered by prophecy without knowing it.
Running, forgetting myself, being happy and sad are all presumptuous.
The sun doesn't want to stop it.
You are a child in the south, and everyone wants to love and hate.
There are old stories in the blood.
The palm of your hand depicts the mercy of God.
Similar to the unknown "
Why should I call Zhang Xuan a philosopher? Because there is a rare rationality in her songs: thinking about herself, thinking about life and thinking about the world. This city has a very attractive word-
"People and cicadas, dogs and dogs collide with moths in high street lamps in the middle of the night.
There are thousands of faces in all floating lives.
Let me thank you for your grand ceremony.
You are a rare city, keep turning. "
There are too many things hidden in a city, but they are not their own. Every day, it will lose a part and usher in a new part. It can be said that it is always new. People who love it will say, "How has it changed here? Because there is my memory there, which is the destination of my soul. " Hate people will say, "No matter how hard you try to be kind to society, why do you always feel like an unnecessary person?" Some people say it is good or bad, but the city itself is an inanimate body composed of thousands of living things, and both good and bad are acceptable. People are only willing to listen to what they like, and it is inevitable that they will be stingy and tolerant of thousands of changes. They think there is no difference between good and bad. I once wrote a naive poem to the effect that I can only be a lost child in front of the city. It treats me like myself, but I don't feel terrible, but I have some respect for this city. Respect and care for the cities I have been to, because there are precious memories that I can't take away. I think Natalie is also an urbanite, so she ends with this-
"Time flies, we are not around, only around each other.
Let me promise, I won't pursue maximum freedom.
How much I love you, I don't care what you do
From then on, it is intertwined with your "Pop Songs of the City * * *". "
What is more displayed in front is Zhang Xuan's philosophy of life. I have to say that the rational elements in her lyrics deserve further study. Maybe I shouldn't say that in essence. In different situations, my understanding of his lyrics is often a misunderstanding. Sometimes the words written by singers don't mean what we think. It is this beautiful misunderstanding that witnessed the singer's charm.
It is found that most of Natalie's songs have repeated lyrics, which are not as simple as repeating them two or three times, but more at the end. It's like announcing an idea. Although it is repetitive, it is very gentle, not like shouting, but very sad. This is the characteristic of her voice. In addition, her lyrics also have poetic spirituality, which is totally out of line with philosophy in my previous view. But I neglected one thing: why are rationality and sensibility opposed? What is true sensibility? Chicken soup literature is emotional, which I don't deny. After reading it for a long time, I can't feel the emotional beauty, but there are many dry sermons. Surprisingly, however, people in their twenties and thirties can spy on everyone's joys and sorrows. Until I met poetry, it was still poetry. Poetry has a soul, the soul is the poet's true feelings, and songs are another expression of poetry to some extent. Zhang Xuan's lyrics are even more so-
"You are dear God.
You are broken, so I must be whole.
you are my soul
But not my eyes.
You still love me. You can't hate me first
Eat it. If you can't finish eating, you're the only one left.
Let me choose the rest and suffocate my life. "
Completely with the temperament of a poet, full of imagination, fantasy and romance. Another example is-
"A sober lover before sinking is sad in a century of love.
After kissing, the lonely dream enjoyed by the sleeping lovers falls like a dream.
Sober lovers before sinking are sad in the century of love.
Warm and ashamed, I can't tell right from left. "
The beauty of words is vividly reflected, and more importantly, these poetic expressions are not only emotional catharsis, but also rational light. In fact, poets are not afraid of philosophy, which is their other side. So I think poetry is the most beautiful and complete art in the world, and it is full of thoughts between sadness and laughter. This is the singer thinking as a poet. Filling them into music may be the poetic storage of the lyrics themselves. The songs are small and few people are interested. I can't feel sorry for this way, but singers think they should just put it in their songs and become their greatest value. That means this is a good opportunity for me to listen to her songs, which is worth cherishing. It's just that I've never seen anyone interpret poetry so boldly, so my above feelings are misunderstood. The emotion of poetry can only be understood, and once it is conveyed, it will destroy the aesthetic feeling of poetry. At this point, I am too arrogant. Even if it was a misunderstanding, I got a real feeling and didn't lose too much aesthetic feeling.
Natalie's songs not only give me a deeper understanding of emotions, but also give me an understanding of life, which has always attracted me. I believe there are many people who are influenced by her like me. People who can write such beautiful songs will never leave this philosopher and poet temperament all their lives. Consistent with my judgment, Natalie is more like a philosopher in real life (in my feeling, another singer Li Chen is very similar to her. Maybe Chen Li is more inclined to the poetic side than Natalie, and didn't listen too much, maybe it's just my rough understanding at the moment). She pays close attention to various social situations, and also carries out some "citizen dialogues" to talk about her feelings about society and life one by one. Some people say that she is "Taiwan independence", which seems to me to be an exaggeration. She cares about society, not politics. As for "Taiwan independence", I personally can understand the inappropriateness of the occasion. (Details "Zhang Xuan Taiwan independence Incident")
Natalie suddenly decided to leave to be Jiao Anpu on 20 15, and left this closing speech at the farewell concert of Chao Yan on 20 15 with her unique poetic temperament:
"The poet put down his pen and camera at night, leaving a cup of hot tea and steam in the living room. We don't want to do anything but live in the moment with each other. My love, the heart needs no proof. Just like the only us in the world, just like the root of homesickness, we don't need soil. It grows and lives on its own. I love you deeply. This is my life. "
On the poet's philosophical level, the tide will always recede when it comes, just like Zhang Xuan's departure; The poet put down his pen, but he is still a poet; The singer put down the song in her mouth and the guitar in her hand, but she will never be dumb. Some people say that with Zhang Xuan gone, Jiao Anpu will come back. I don't think so. The poet said she would really leave. Zhang Xuan is a person who thinks about Jiao Anpu's life, and Jiao Anpu is the self of life. Natalie left this world with his guitar on his back. Gioanpu may have a better life, and no one will come back. If one day I really come back, it must be a different Zhang Xuan and a different Jiao Anpu. A more exciting and shorter farewell is actually to get out of another self and find a new one.
Natalie, a philosopher who sings like a poem, her soul is always in words, which is the only thing left. We may hear "city" at the traffic lights; You may hear "Huo Yan" when traveling; Maybe I sang "About I Love You" when I was lovelorn ... Can I leave something for what I love like Zhang Xuan, and then choose to leave and live entirely on my own? If so, what a wonderful life it would be. That's exactly what I said: "There is a landscape in my eyes, and I will never regret it after letting it go."
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