Now that you have a family, when you choose to get married, I think you must also love your current lover! Are you ambivalent now, because neither side wants to hurt? Or do you want to make up with the people in your dreams? You have her q number. You can ask her who you used to be. How is she now? Ask each other how they feel about you.
What is the truest idea in your heart? Do you want your divorce and the person of your dreams to live well? If so, ask her how she feels, if not, face the real life!