-Lin
The alarm clock was set at 5: 30 in the morning, but I opened my eyes at 5: 00 and saw the bright sunshine outside the window. A clear and cloudless day. Tossing and turning for a long time, get up at six o'clock, wash and set off. Ting and I have no time to meet and say goodbye by text message. On a sunny morning, we all need a bright mood.
I arrived at the airport early, changed my boarding pass, and found it was still early, so I went to Linton Bookstore. There, I found Lin's new book "So you must be unhappy".
Lin is so strong that I know little about him, but I am familiar with his lyrics. I searched for new books on the Internet before, and learned that his first collection of essays was once bought from Sanlian, so I had a brief look. I find those articles and things in the 1990s always attractive. The text is very short, with many classic sentences, which is very rewarding to read.
On the plane, I have been reading Lin's book, Philosophy of Life, very carefully. Long-lost smoothness. Two hundred and five pages, two hours is no problem. A little sense of conquest. Look at the clouds outside the window occasionally. When I went back to school in 2008, I saw countless changes on the cloud. Cloud has a charm, not a demon, but a qing pu, which makes people feel gentle. Before there was a camera, I kept it in my mind. Later, with a camera, I flew to the clouds many times, but I have never encountered such a beautiful and soft cloud scene. This time, without a camera, I met the dreamland again:
The sky is still blue. The plane is flying in the clouds under the blue sky. Clouds are like gauze first, big birds flutter past, and I feel thin clouds like fog through the window. Under the cloud are vast tracts of land, dark green mountains, green and light green wheat fields, brown land, mercury-like lakes, villages and towns surrounded by square boxes, and the expressway is just a thin yellow line. They are all so small that they lack the spirit of the past. Clouds have gathered together, like inverted cones, embedded in the air, some like carved diamonds, and some are cobblestones that have been rubbed into shopping by wind and rain. Looking at such white clouds, I want to eat ice cream. Followed by "sheep", the wind carved the "horn" clearly. There are many sheep from sparse to crowded.
Listening to the heartbeat is as quiet as Zen, and I have been looking forward to the "carefree" scene, but my heart will always be pulled in different directions by some inexplicable little things, which will not hurt, but will panic.
There is an article in the book "Find Your Own Set". The last sentence is, "it is enough to live happily in it, and life is not for the praise of others." A very chic sentence. It's easier said than done.
After all, people live in the secular world. Even if everyone is drunk, it is rare for me to jump out of this circle when I wake up alone. Do people live for themselves or for others? There is always a noisy mouth following you, holding you and thinking about you. This is the secular world that has prevailed for thousands of years. You can be detached, but you are still spinning around in the world.
Over the years, I have learned a truth: selfish people are always happier than unselfish people.
At this moment, I saw the clouds again. I think the so-called "life is not for the praise of others" should be the attitude of life, find an attitude that makes you comfortable.
The scenery is above the clouds. The clouds are casual and ostentatious. Look at it if you want. If you don't want to see it, no one invites you. Cloud, you don't need to think about anything for human beings, and you don't need to scratch your head according to human thoughts. When can I learn such arrogance?
I have to think of my first flight, meilan airport, Haikou, with heavy rain and occasional thunder and lightning. Wearing a thin white dress, I stood at the gate on the first floor and took a photo: the dim sky, the hazy plane and me smiling. That year, when I was eight years old, I was still snuggling up to my mother and asked gloomily: Will Ray shoot down the plane? With a nervous heart, shrink in the chair and close your eyes. In an instant, the tilted body has been righted, and the inner sense of urgency has gradually eased. When I open my eyes, the scenery outside the window is amazing: smooth blue sky, suffocating blue, sunshine, and shallow Hui Jin on the surrounding clouds. It is completely different from the following situation.
In middle school and geography class, the teacher explained the atmosphere, the troposphere where we live, the cloudless stratosphere in Wan Li, the wonderful middle layer, the high temperature and warmth of the atmosphere and the thin outer layer. I keep recalling the scenes and qualitative differences in my childhood.
Permanent sunny weather needs a certain height, a suitable height, which is a realm. Jumping out of the three realms, not in the five elements: wind and rain, snow and ice, green mountains and clear waters, blue sky, white clouds and black soil, all the scenery was completely taken in. Perhaps, I shouldn't be so greedy and want to take all the beautiful scenery for myself, but I am very small in the city, and the medium-sized buildings not far away are enough to block my sight. Often can't see the true face of the world clearly, and can't figure out the subtle relationship between people.
"Climb high and look far" is a truth handed down from Xunzi's time. That height is a realm. When you reach that level, you can enjoy the scenery on the clouds, watch the clouds dance and watch the changes in the world. In many complicated relationships, you can naturally figure out why. I am flying above the clean clouds, everything is just right, the height is just right, the 45 overlooking scenery is just right, and the upward angle of the sun is just right.
Mature mental intelligence gives birth to a lofty realm, with broad eyes and keen ears; You should have the courage to take it in stride, make concessions to others unconditionally, and don't sell yourself short. Life is your own, and feelings are your own.
Someone told me that if you respect some people, they will feel great, and so should you. And some people, you are good to him, he will remember, cherish and be good to you. Many years have passed and I can see people's faces more and more clearly. Hit the wall, it hurts, and you know it's wrong. So I also learned to measure "value".
Lin finally said, "guests are just guests. It is the owner who stays in the house the longest. Your hard work is not used to please people who come for a few hours occasionally. " .
In life, some people are visiting guests. No matter how well you do, you will only win short-term goodwill. We have no choice but to live in the secular world, but there is still an undisturbed house in the secular world, and we can still close the door and live in our own way.