From Cai Wenji's Poems of Sorrow and Indignation to Xie Daowen's Poems on Mount Tai with extraordinary bearing and full of masculinity, to Li Qingzhao's Dreaming and Pruning Plums, feelings that will never return are revealed, and finally to Shu Ting, a representative of modern female poets in China, the sea is compared to a mirror that projects social life. As daughters, they sing eternal quatrains with poems. There is such a person, who is an independent existence. She is Yu Xiuhua.
She is plain-looking and was born in the countryside far from the city. She is such an ordinary woman, but she has the courage to let the world see her inner world and rely on this courage to meet her personal life needs. It seems that her existence can't provide a positive textbook template for the public, and there is nothing to praise, only her own optimism. She showed us the persistence that a scholar should have.
If the world is not warm, then I will warm myself.
In the eyes of the public, most of the so-called poets are brilliant, graceful and touching, and open-minded, but Yu Xiuhua is a "special" one in the crowd. Yu Xiuhua's birth doomed her extraordinary life. When Yu Xiuhua was born, he suffered from cerebral palsy because of abnormal fetal position and lack of oxygen in his brain.
This also led to Yu Xiuhua's destined to be a woman with strange walking posture and vague speech for the rest of her life. Even at the beginning of this life, she did not get the sympathy of the people around her and the pity of the world, and even the closest people were insulting her. Relatives told her that it was because of the sins of the previous life that such a broken life would begin in the next life.
Even though the beginning of life was not perfect, Yu Xiuhua chose to look at life from another angle. She wants to record what happened in her eyes with her own heart. After graduating from high school, Yu Xiuhua didn't go to college like an ordinary child. She did nothing at home all day, and her family arranged for her to be a single man in her thirties-Yin Shiping.
There is no affection between them, just because of an arranged marriage. Yu Xiuhua still didn't find a channel to talk, that is, during that time, she set up a lifelong dream-to become a poet. 1998, she began to write her first poem "Impression". People around her don't understand her behavior and can't read the meaning of her poems.
She was silent for ten years. In 2009, she started writing again, taking her real life, closed surroundings, her own defects and unsatisfied emotions as the theme. Her poems are full of human desires and strong fireworks, which seem so out of place in the circle of female poets in China, but the real desire may be the beginning of drawing the world's attention to this woman.
If the world doesn't understand, then I understand myself.
No one can understand the meaning expressed in Yu Xiuhua's poems. Her poems, like herself, will not be embraced by the beautiful world. Her masterpiece Sleeping with You Across Half of China is so simple, without the feeling of "facing the sea and blooming in spring" given by other poems, but it is so close to life, so it is a common phrase in daily life.
Her poems have a realistic color from the beginning, which makes readers be pulled back to the abyss of reality and awake from the beginning of reading. Her poems maximize people's desires, and sometimes the more hidden they are, the more they represent inner emptiness, which is why Yu Xiuhua laid her writing style.
Some people think her works are too yellow and violent, and some even accuse her in public. It's a pity that Yu Xiuhua didn't take all this seriously. She chose to understand herself and fulfill herself. In fact, if you think about it, is the work really so yellow and violent? How many readers have how many interpretations. Some people regard it as a release of the heart, while others regard it as a release of desire, so it is a waste of appreciation to dwell on the work itself.
If the world doesn't face it, then I will face myself.
His works have been spurned and reviled by the world. Should Yu Xiuhua give up on himself? No matter from the realistic livelihood problem or the desire for emotional expression since childhood, she will not give up. Her poems used the common and subtle word "love" many times, and she longed to be loved.
In life, she was mercilessly cursed and abused by her relatives and mercilessly ridiculed by her husband. No matter love or affection, she has never enjoyed it. It should be said that she has never enjoyed it, and they even gave her cruelty and malice. It is precisely because of Yu Xiuhua's extreme desire for affection and love that she can't release her inner shock.
She learned to face up to herself, firmly grasped the "emotional" hands in her works, felt the emotions revealed between the lines, tried to absorb the nutrients endowed by the words, gained a new life, and then continued to walk on the road of creation. If your life switch was turned on like Yu Xiuhua, what would you do?
Is it to abandon your desires and ideals? Or face up to your true desires? Ignoring the world, braving the wind and waves and realizing oneself are probably the deepest feelings that Yu Xiuhua brought to the world. Anyone who knows Yu Xiuhua's life will sincerely thank Yu Xiuhua for giving so many desperate people more courage.
No matter how many pairs of eyes the world gives her, she continues to live according to her own ideas and does not rely on the help of anyone else. In this respect, she is better than many people in the world. Whether her poems are accepted by the public or praised by the mainstream will not affect her continuing to create and express her true feelings.
Sometimes it is not difficult for people to be the hope in others' eyes. The difficult thing is to respect your heart and become the person you want to be. Yu Xiuhua is such an existence. Now many mainstream media are promoting women's self-reliance. Age and experience are not the shackles that prevent women from realizing themselves, and Yu Xiuhua is also the representative of such people.
Conclusion:
Even though her poems are widely criticized, her people are idols of women in the new era. How many women give up themselves, willingly accept their fate, forget their initial heart and give up self-realization because of the unfair treatment of society, the complexity of their families and the complexity of their world outlook.
Yu Xiuhua's personal experience taught us an important lesson. It doesn't matter if you fail to start life, and it doesn't matter if people don't understand. How much right and wrong to bear is a compulsory course in life. Girls, you should hold your head high, put aside everyone's comments, stride forward and bravely realize yourself. No matter who you are, what you are doing and what kind of person you want to be, you should live a glorious life without regrets.