When I was young, my health was not good and I often fell ill. I caught a cold every three days and was a frequent visitor to the clinic. It happened that the doctor at the clinic was my uncle. I was naive and hated my uncle at that time. The injections he gave me were all fake. Otherwise, why would I be sick all the time?
As I grew older, I became sick less frequently, but I still got sick occasionally. I was infected with pneumonia once in middle school, and later got gastritis due to overeating. I don’t know if my white blood cells are active or something, but I have constant inflammation since childhood. However, with the current medical level, these diseases can be cured by spending a few hundred yuan. At least I am now alive and well. Therefore, subconsciously, as a young man, my understanding of diseases is that they can be cured as long as I go to the hospital, isn’t it?
Later, one afternoon, my grandma suddenly fainted. As a young child, I was so scared that I couldn’t even speak on the phone with my parents. After being sent to the hospital, thanks to the doctor's efforts, my grandma regained consciousness and was discharged after a few days in the hospital. At that time, I didn't know what kind of disease my grandma had. After being discharged from the hospital, grandma completely lost her former charm. She walked clumsily and spoke softly. At that time, I was ignorant and thought it was grandma who had become gentle.
The good times did not last long. Half a year later, my grandma was admitted to the hospital again. At this time, I was living in school. According to my dad, three days after being hospitalized, he was accompanying my grandma in the ward. The doctor asked him to go out and sign. Before he could walk out the door, he turned around and saw grandma's head tilted down. This time, the doctor failed to revive her.
Afterwards, I learned that my grandma had a heart disease - coronary heart disease.
The death is like this. After my grandma passed away, I gradually came out. I always thought that my grandma was old and did not have regular physical examinations, so she lost to coronary heart disease. If I had taken her earlier Treatment, she should be waiting for her grandson-in-law to get married now. My grandma's illness has sounded the alarm for me. I need to pay more attention to my parents' health in the future. I can't wait until I'm old or when the disease really knocks on the door of my family before I can fulfill my filial piety.
Later, I went to college. In my first year of college, when I was talking to my mother on the phone one day, she told me that she had been hospitalized some time ago and had heart problems, so she didn't tell me because she was afraid that I would be worried. At that time, as a young man who was in his first year of school, it was really a blow. It was not just the sadness that my mother was ill, but also the shame that I didn't know I had after my mother was hospitalized. But after that, my mother has been taking medicine and there have been no problems. After all, my mother is still young and has not reached the age of my grandma, right?
Four years have passed and it’s this year. During the Chinese New Year, my mother didn’t feel well. She couldn’t catch cold, couldn’t walk too fast, felt stuffy all the time, etc. I told my mother that while I was still at home during the winter vacation, we would go to the hospital to check, and finally my mother and I decided to go to the hospital for the sixteenth day of the first lunar month.
On the sixteenth day of the first lunar month, it was very foggy and cold. My parents and I set out at eight in the morning and drove to the best hospital in the province and found the specialist we had made an appointment with before. In the clinic, my mother described her condition to the doctor. From her mouth, she heard that terrible word again - coronary heart disease. It turned out that my mother might have the same disease as my grandmother. The doctor said that based on his experience, my mother most likely did not have coronary heart disease, so there was nothing to worry about. From being worried before, to feeling relieved now, it was like the heavy fog dissipating at that time, and my mood was particularly bright. The doctor said, let's go back to the local area and do a coronary CT. This is the best way to diagnose coronary heart disease today.
Hearing the doctor’s diagnosis, the family of three felt relieved. After dinner, they drove back to the local hospital. On the way back, my mother fell asleep in the back seat and my father fell asleep in the passenger seat. It was already afternoon when we arrived at the local hospital. After queuing up for a coronary CT scan, my parents were chatting and laughing. As dusk approached, we finally arrived. After finishing the CT scan in half an hour, the doctor asked us to pick up the results at 11 o'clock the next day.
After leaving the hospital, my father went to socialize, and my mother and I went home for dinner. Today, my mother made lotus root and pig trotters, leaving some for my father. After all, he never had enough to eat when socializing.
The next day, I came to the hospital after dinner at ten o'clock, and I waited at home. I estimated the time and called my mother when they arrived at the hospital. She said that the film could not be taken out yet, but the results were sent to her mobile phone, and she took a screenshot and sent it to me.
When she sent me the screenshot, it was the most uneasy and nervous time in the past few years.
A minute later, her screenshot was sent to my WeChat, and I nervously clicked on the picture. "Coronary Atherosclerosis".
When I saw these words, even though I had no medical background, I felt that this might be coronary heart disease. Then I started a little bit of Baidu to learn about coronary heart disease. Coronary heart disease: the full name is coronary atherosclerotic heart disease. After seeing this, I stopped being nervous and started to be scared. I thought of my grandma's sudden fainting...
Finally, I entered "Can coronary heart disease be completely cured" in the search box. The result is: no.
I once knew that cancer could not be cured, AIDS could not be cured, and heart disease could not be cured. Coronary heart disease should be a minor illness, not a heart disease...all the cognitions collapsed at this moment. I think of what my grandma told myself when she passed away: pay attention to the health of my parents early.
But now, I never thought that my parents would be associated with these. I was still a child... I am no longer a child, but I didn't realize that my parents have slowly moved from middle age to old age.
After the third day, I took the sample to the provincial hospital. The doctor said that the condition was very mild and that we should pay attention to our living habits. I had returned to school by this time, and I was relieved to hear this again. I told my mother again and again not to catch a cold, to be low in oil and fat, not to eat pickles anymore, to exercise properly, not to eat too much, and not to have too many babies. Qi...
Coronary heart disease is an incurable disease. No matter it is a heart bypass or a stent, my mother cannot get rid of coronary heart disease, but I believe in her. She will defeat coronary heart disease, even if it is her only life. son.
I am 23 years old and a graduate student, and my mother is 49 years old. My mother is about to enter old age. Now that I am in school and working after graduation, I spend less and less time with my mother. Maybe I can't do more than miss her and go home more. Seeing my mother's condition, I no longer think about making a living. My parents are not far away and I will travel well. My parents can still stay with me for twenty or thirty years... No matter how many years it is, it is limited. I have seen too many After losing their parents, people write long essays with pain, and their emotions are revealed between the lines, but I think they are all dishonest and losers. The sincere regrets after losing my parents are all complaints about the ruthlessness of life. Life is ruthless. A few blood vessels can destroy a flesh-and-blood person, even if I don't accept it.
We cannot control life. What we can control is our feelings and our dedication to our parents. Feelings are cheap. Feelings can be the cry of a babbling baby who cannot see his mother. Feelings can be the silent tears of a silent person in front of a monument. But one day, you can no longer give to your parents.
I don’t care if I grow up or not, now I shouldn’t just have feelings for my parents.