You are a thorn in my heart. 1 We lived together in high school for a year. Originally, I just wanted to be a quiet bystander, watching you study for the exam and watching you secretly love others and be liked by others. I play soy sauce, but your appearance has disrupted my life.
No one cares about me, so you opened the closed door in your heart. I had the cheek to change my seat and sit at your back table. I watch you go to class every day, read books, have fun and chat with you occasionally. I feel very happy. I like to see you in pink with a ponytail. It's your birthday. It's my first gift. I'll give it to you. I ran away like the wind, because I never gave you a gift, and I even forgot to tear off the price tag. I don't know whether you like me or not, but I think I like you, maybe. But you came and left. You opened that door, why didn't you close it? I'm stupid, so I just want to have a look. You came too suddenly, but you avoided me every time I tried to get close, and you approached me when I tried to walk away. Later, I found that you always hide, hide, and I can only watch, just want to watch. You, you are really a demon.
One day, two days, time passed quickly, and the arts and sciences were divided into classes. I thought it was a relief from a lost heart, but I was wrong. You have become a thorn in my heart, buried deep in my heart but never blooming. Occasionally I can see your figure on campus again, but I didn't even say hello when I met you. Time always loves separation, and college entrance examination always loves graduation. We went to different places to go to school, and college life was always relaxing, and occasionally we contacted each other online, but everything was so strange that maybe we were never familiar with it. There is only one intersection point between two intersecting straight lines, and then they extend indefinitely, but finally they go further and further.
I miss you very much at work. I think you are beginning to fade in my heart. Life is lonely. In the middle of the night, lean on the windowsill, light a cigarette, listen to the songs that play in a loop, think about your past, and water the thorns in your heart with gradually cold blood. ...
You are a thorn in my heart. Every time I sit at my desk and look at your face full of sweet smiles in the frame, there will always be a ripple in my heart.
The days of high school are the days when I spent the longest time with you, and also the days when I had the richest emotional fantasies. Quiet, gentle, often with a sweet smile, you left a deep impression on my mind. I had too many fantasies about you in the days when I was full of fantasy and first love.
However, the cruel reality was soon disillusioned. Because of the family environment, I was forced to drop out of school, left the campus where you met and started a wandering career. That night, I stayed at the seaside all night. Is it because I haven't given up on you or because I'm at a loss about the future?
In these years, I seldom associate with the opposite sex. Although there are many young girls around me, my heart always seems to exist. Before meeting friends of the opposite sex, I always compare you with them. I know, I have put you into my feelings. I used to have the urge to express my feelings to you.
When I told my friends about it, they gave me a blow. "Do you know how college students choose lovers?" "Why do you pursue her?" "Do you know that she is in love?" ……
I slumped in my back chair and waited for a while, my mind was blurred. A deep sense of inferiority makes me have no courage to express my love to you, which often makes me depressed.
Later, my friend's words made my eyes shine. "Since we know that there are differences between you, why not change yourself?"
You know what, Li Tao? That's when I started to change. When you were a sophomore, I took the adult college entrance examination. That year, I changed jobs several times, and I wanted to realize my value as soon as possible. Although I was very tired in those days, I never stopped, but I thought it was a very precious time.
Until the end of 10, I joined the advertising department of a fashion magazine. Salesmen don't have a basic salary, which is undoubtedly a severe test for a young man who has just stepped into this city, has no interpersonal relationship and has no high education. After passing the training, go to the southeast, northwest and all directions of the metropolis to promote the company. Most of these companies have their own advertising companies, and they often fail to return ... I am sick and have a high fever of 39 degrees. In the dark, I dreamed that you were by my side. I quickly jumped out of bed and reached for your hand, but I caught my friend's hand.
When I had to go out to pick up business, my friends said I was desperate.
I stayed in the advertising department for three months, and only took one business, and the business was only out of emotion.
It was a rainy afternoon. I couldn't find a bus to return in a suburban town, so I came back by taxi. In the back seat of the car, I found a briefcase left behind. When I opened it, there was a big stack of documents, dozens of business cards, more than 300 pieces of cash and a peony credit card. Out of public morality, I pulled out the flashlight on my business card and found the owner. Do you know that?/You know what? Do you know that?/You know what? It was also because of that kindness that I took the only business and transferred me to the chat room.
The shopkeeper surnamed Yu is the vice president of a handicraft company. He talked with me all afternoon and learned that I was an advertising salesman, so he gave us the product advertisement and introduced me to work in his cousin's chat room. My cousin has been the director of the Ministry of Posts and Telecommunications all his life. He has two workshops for chatting and editing. After reading my resume and several articles published in various journals, he chatted with me aimlessly. Finally, he nodded and said, "You can stay. This is not because you were introduced by your eldest brother, nor because of your academic qualifications, but because you answered irrelevant questions and said the wrong thing like Shui and NiNi, without any formality. This is about life.
I know this is your invisible character!
Two years later, I graduated from the Chinese Department. I want to close the distance between you and me through the self-study exam, and it can finally come true. You are in my heart, just like the spirit buried in the ground, the longer it grows, the more mellow it becomes.
Just as I was about to confess my love to you, we met unexpectedly in the park. There is a gentle boy around you. You smiled and introduced him to me as your boyfriend, and you were going to study in New Zealand together.
Looking at the happy smile on your face, my heart trembled violently, and those words that had already been written in my mind disappeared. I give you my blessing with a forced smile. But, you know, when you turned away, my tears welled up. Tears broke my heart.
Maybe you will never know that there is such an infatuated man who loves you deeply and deeply blesses you in his heart.
You are a thorn in my heart. This thorn hurts when you pull it out, and it hurts even more when you stick it in! Perhaps, these are things you will never know. It is such a thorn in my heart that will always spur me to constantly improve myself and realize my own value.
You are a thorn in my heart. In April, the sun is shining and sometimes sad. When it is bright, it hurts my eyes deeply, and when it is sad, it can drop out the bitterness in my heart.
A quiet person, repeatedly playing a collection of singles, as if the noise and dust outside had nothing to do with me, releasing thoughts and banishing them. At that moment, there were apricot flowers falling quietly outside the door, and then I looked back. It turned out that the sun was near and spring was far away.
I've been thinking about the name you gave me, but I never knew it was not my exclusive name. Looking at you and thinking of you will make my heart ache.
It seems bright and beautiful in April, but I still can't take off my thick winter clothes. I know, I can't resist the slight cold in spring, and I can't learn to be strong enough to resist the time when I leave you. Just like that, occasionally I will squint when I see the rare sunshine, because the sunshine will sting me.
When apricot blossoms fall, peach blossoms bloom. In the apricot blossom rain, my dress fluttered and my eyes blurred. I didn't know your shadow had been blurred by time and distance.
In a lingering spring rain, the sun doesn't know where to hide. The sound of rain seems to be a sigh from heaven, and it is also the sorrow of many lovers, adding a sadness and kindness.
I remember smiling when I first met you. At that time, the sun was just right, so I always remember having you on a sunny day and seeing your bright smile on a sunny day.
In the following days, your smile will accompany me the most, and your mouth will rise slightly. Your shadow, like a rose in full bloom in April, is fragrant and warm.
I also know that the meeting with you is doomed to have no result, but I will suddenly think of your slightly raised corners of the mouth and full of smiles every day.
You are like a thorn in my heart. It's deep and hard, and it can't be pulled out. It will hurt if you pull it out. Pull it out and you'll see heartache. If you can't pull it out, touch it often. It's shallow and has memories about you.
That day, I asked you foolishly, what would you do if I left your world one day? You didn't give me the answer in my heart. You told me that if I left, there would be a reason to leave. I wouldn't look for it, I wouldn't wait, but I would.
I always want you to coax me like a child and put me in your palm, but I know that's impossible, because you have your own happiness, which has nothing to do with me.
If, if, one day, I would rather hide in the dark alone, look at the sunshine scattered in the corner and think of you and me over and over again.
If, if, one day, you pass by me, I will look back and say to myself, from now on, Xiao Lang is a passer-by.
If, if, one day, I see someone's bright smile, I will remember that I have gained such a smile in my life.
It is said that Virgos are sentimental. Before you meet unexpectedly, my world will be sunny, but since your arrival, my world will be cloudy and sunny, and everything will be born because of you.
Some things are doomed to be impossible to have in this life.