You are still young. What you feel now will not be worth mentioning when you are thirty, forty or older. When I was young, I used to be crazy about life, death, the meaning of living, etc. , what I think about every day are major and painful propositions. Now that I think about it, not a single trace was left. Friends, don’t get stuck in those negative emotions. Your decision (such as waiting two years to go to college together) is a sign of high depravity. Maybe your actions frightened the girl, so she quickly got together with someone else. I'm doing this for your own good, and I'm very worried about you.
Don’t shoot me!!