Why are we salt?
Because salt is the smallest, humblest and most insignificant condiment among many condiments, but it is the most important condiment in the world. Without salt, the world would be tasteless.
A person's life is very short, which is extremely insignificant in the long river of history, such as a drop in the ocean, but it can't erase the meaning of our life. We came to this world, experienced different stories, saw different landscapes, and formed irreplaceable personal charm, including love and hate, relatives and friends. This is the value of our existence.
Sun Pin is a generation of young women writers. 1983 A native of Jiaocheng, Shanxi Province, graduated from Lanzhou University and started writing novels in 2008. Now studying in China Renmin University, majoring in creative writing, and a writer of Jiangsu Writers Association. He published a collection of novels, such as Pain, Mask and Three Sides. 2065438+In June 2009, he won Zhongshan Star Literature Award and Young Writer of the Year Award. Although she is very young, her writing skills are very sophisticated. Her trilogy "Bitterness, Salt and Crack" won unanimous praise in the industry. Her portrayal of human nature, her torture of dignity in the dark and her constant pursuit of survival dilemma have made every short story deeply rooted in the hearts of the people.
Salt was published on 20 17. The book consists of six short stories, including the survival struggle of marginal people, the shadow of childhood lack of maternal love, the strong pursuit of self-esteem and the fantasy and disillusionment of love. Every story can make people shine. Today, I will choose two short stories in the book to interpret the "salt" in Sun Bo's heart.
1. "Wu Xiang" has been endowed with the dignity of people struggling in the dark.
Yu, who comes from the depths of the mountains, has undoubtedly become a "poor student" in the university. His tuition depends on student loans, his living expenses are subsidized by an old professor, and his monthly meals are in 300 yuan.
Every time she eats, she carefully plans the cost of each meal, often eating a steamed bun and drinking leftover soup. She is afraid of attracting the attention of her classmates. She has a strong self-esteem. Helpless, the chef selling rice at the window remembered her. As soon as she came, she prepared the steamed bread she wanted.
She thanked the old professor for his support, but she was also afraid to see him. After all, being supported by others is not a glorious thing. However, she still can't escape. The school arranged for these poor students to work and study, and also arranged for her to go to the old professor's house every week to help him clean up, which was a reward.
After all, she will meet an invisible person, and her self-esteem that has been hanging will soon be shattered.
The old professor is amiable, but she is uncomfortable all over, like a prisoner being interrogated. The thought of the money I owe him every day makes Yu even more agitated. The old professor also specially cooked a table of good dishes to entertain her, making her feel that this is a trap.
After getting along several times, Yu found that the old professor was just lonely and needed her to accompany him to dinner. Suddenly, she felt pity for the old man in his twilight years. His wife has passed away, his daughter is abroad, and there is nowhere to send her long loneliness. Moreover, the old professor was very kind to her and didn't do anything out of line. I let my guard down and really took him as my grandfather.
The old professor began to give her money and pity her life experience, saying that her money was nowhere to spend. I was shocked by her psychological change from initial rejection to later acceptance. In the next two years, from being cautious to being close and easy-going, Yu always lamented his luck. She also feels at home in the old professor's house.
Everything has a price, and the old professor finally made a request. He wants to see the ketone body of Yu when he was young.
She can't escape this day after all. Her initial fears finally came true. In the dim light, she shed her clothes one by one and tore up her remaining dignity a little. Deep down, she no longer appreciates his support and gifts, as if she had become an equal with him.
After this incident, Yu never went to his house again. On the eve of graduation, she received a phone call from the old professor. He begged her to come and see him again. She knew that his purpose was just to give her a handful of money and then let her undress on the grounds of admiring a woman's body. She refused his money, but she still took off her clothes, which was the final reward.
The old professor had a heart attack, so he noticed something strange, but he left soon. The old professor died of a heart attack that day. When I learned about it, I was dizzy and unstable. She dare not question her heart. She chose from destruction.
This is a story about gifts. Yu, who was given a gift, has very complicated feelings for the old professor, and there is resentment hidden in her gratitude. Because of charity, she saw her misery through the old professor. She spurned herself, hated herself even more, and could not forgive herself.
If you have helped someone, don't mention it often afterwards. This is the most precious place for people.
However, most people will feel that they want to pay back and the gift is superior. It is a shame to be introduced to Guo Qin. If the old professor doesn't show up all the time, she will be grateful to tears, but it happened that he made a request and turned all gratitude into resentment.
The old professor has been full of peaches and plums all his life and subsidizes poor students every year. But his motives are not pure, and it is understandable that he needs company. He also made special demands, and he also asked for feedback on his efforts. Probably, the word "selfless dedication" no longer exists.
And Yu's last film "Forever" is the ugly side of human nature. If he dies, no one will know her shame and unbearable, and no one will do anything wrong on the grounds of funding her.
2. "disenchantment" is out of date and arrogant.
After graduating from Li Linyan University, she was assigned to a county middle school in her hometown and became a Chinese teacher in senior high school.
She gets up early every day, puts on makeup, puts on her coat and stands in front of the cave reciting the lyrics, which is out of place in this black sheep. In the evening, she held Shakespeare and Balzac, read one book at a time, and wrote letters on fallen leaves and handkerchiefs. The whole person is permeated with romantic literary atmosphere.
She lived like this for five years. Letters were sent one by one, but no reply was received. Just before graduation, she spent a warm night with a writer living in the United States. She dreamed of flying to the other side of the ocean and fleeing from this county.
When she woke up, she couldn't even deceive herself. Time is gone forever. For this unrealistic dream, she lived a completely different life from the people around her.
She no longer stood in front of the door in strange clothes to chant Buddhist scripture, and her makeup didn't change. She smokes and hides in her room to write her own poems. Even so, she attracted a male poet. He admired her and thought there was a poetess in this corner. It's really amazing. She was stubborn again and became a lover with this male poet. The relationship is not strong, there is only one.
From the age of 20 to 30, ten years have passed, and she has guarded the American writer for ten years in an empty way. Even she felt wasted. The people around her should get married and have a baby. It's just that she has been living like a marginal person.
When she was 33 years old, someone finally proposed to her, but it was her student, a senior three boy of 18, who thanked her for her gift and concern and said that she would marry her.
The marriage was doomed to be a tragedy, but Li Linyan jumped in. She covered all the expenses of his college. When he graduated from college, they got a marriage certificate. She is getting old, and he is in high spirits.
We can all expect that he has a new lover, and she will pay the price of her life to solve the trouble of a third party.
When she had youth, she didn't know how to cherish it, lived in her own fantasy and wasted her youth.
When she lost her youth, she was unrealistic, lived in illusory comfort and destroyed her marriage.
Her story is the epitome of millions of women. When I was young, I was arrogant and always looked at the distance, expecting my Prince Charming. I waited day after day and consumed it. In the end, I got nothing except a trace of youthful memories. When I am old, I want to catch this person in front of me, talk about an unsatisfactory love, and enter the marriage that I once refused.
If she can grasp the present, recognize the present situation and be less addicted to fantasy, maybe she will gain a different life.
Every character in the book Salt is very small, unnoticed and lives on the edge of the crowd, but their existence also projects a huge group. Every serious and insignificant person has his own unique story, just like a grain of salt, no matter how small it is, it has a unique flavor.
Born to be human, we have no choice. Even if we understand the truth of life from the moment we are born, what can we do? The only thing we can do is still how to live our life seriously, difficultly and tenaciously, and strive to be a person with dignity, love, respect and love. This is our endless goal and motivation.
In her novels, the characters often fall into broken and desperate families and need to rely on their own strength to repair their hearts, which makes readers feel pain and sadness. Through her words, we have learned more about life forms and different lifestyles, thus getting the feeling that living is a kind of exercise, and from birth to death, it is a kind of experience.