What poem does "I wasted my life and made me exhausted" come from?

The motherland is still a dream.

The Motherland (or Dreams for Horses) is a typical lyric poem, written in 1987, which reflects Haizi's pursuit and belief in light and covers almost all the important ideas in Haizi's poems.

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I want to be a loyal son from afar

And temporary material lovers.

Like all poets who dream of horses.

I have to follow the path of martyrs and clowns.

Ten thousand people put out the fire, and I held it high alone.

This fire is great. It blooms and falls in the sacred motherland.

Like all poets who dream of horses.

I spent the long nights of my life with this fire.

This fire is great, the language of the motherland, and the Liangshan walled city built of stones.

Dunhuang with dreams as its soil-the skeleton that will be cold in July.

Such as white firewood and hard snow, lying on the mountain of the gods.

Like all poets who dream of horses.

I threw myself into this fire, and these three lamps are the lamps that imprison me and spit out brilliance.

Ten thousand people walked through my knife to build the language of the motherland.

I am willing to start from scratch.

Like all poets who dream of horses.

I'd also like to sit at the bottom of the prison.

Of all God's creations, I am the most perishable.

At an irresistible rate of death

Only food is my baby, and I hold her tightly.

Hold her and have a baby in your hometown.

Like all poets who dream of horses.

I would also like to bury myself in the surrounding mountains.

See a quiet home

Facing the river, I am infinitely ashamed.

I'm wasting my time, and I'm tired.

Like all poets who dream of horses.

Time flies, not a drop remains, and a horse dies in the water drop.

If I am reborn on the shore of my motherland in a thousand years.

A thousand years later, I once again owned the rice fields in China.

There are also the snow-capped mountains and Tianma in the Zhou Dynasty.

Like all poets who dream of horses.

I choose an eternal career.

My job is to be the life of the sun.

Throughout the ages-"Japan"-he is extremely brilliant.

Like all poets who dream of horses.

Finally, it was carried into the immortal sun by the gods at dusk.

The sun is my name.

The sun is my life.

Buried at the top of the sun is the body of poetry-the Millennium Kingdom and me.

Riding a 5,000-year-old phoenix and a dragon named Ma-I will fail.

But poetry itself will overcome the sun.

This poem embodies Haizi's persistent pursuit of light and almost includes all the important ideas in Haizi's poems.

Someone once accused Haizi's generation of poets of not paying attention to reality. That's a misunderstanding of the poet and poetry. Poets pay attention to reality, not from details, but from essence. Just as when philosophers study philosophical problems, they should not start from individuals, but should start from all mankind. Haizi, living in an era when material desires are high and everything is submerged, the humanistic spirit is gradually declining, and it has gradually become people's spiritual normal to go along with others. In this context, Haizi insists on the spirit of poetry, pursues spiritual ideals and light, which is a criticism and denial of reality. This is of great practical significance.